haiz...

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had a bad week... i seriously... at a point of time, i felt like leaving watever im doing, dun care bout other ppl, dun care bout anything and quit skool... it was so stressful tat i cried alot of times tat day... it was thursday... i cry wherever i tot of it... it started from English Supplementary class... den i started crying badly in BPM... i think wei choy saw mii crying.. coz i ask tissue from him... den as time goes... wherever i tot of it, i cry... wen going home, while my classmates r toking, i cry... den in my i cry non stop... it's a crying day...

it is so sad tat wen ppl speak u dun understand... pheiyani commented tat i'm emotionally weak... she says tat, i look very tough and strong on the outside... but actually, i got hurt very easily... i tried my best not to cry in front of my frens... but i realise tat, even wen i cry, they dun realise it...

mayb it's a habit tat wherever i dun understand things, i tend to cry... and tat was like pri 2, where i couldnt see the blackboard coz i started to loss my vision, and i cry badly... now, my problem is language barrier... it's like i DUN BLAME my class for speaking chinese time to time.. but i cant blame myself for not understanding them... it's like... wat can i do? and wat can they do? they cant help it either... all i can do is blame myself lor... for ending up in the class... for the first time in my entire life, i felt like quiting skool... i really LOVE my class but i cant help it... i feel alienated... and i felt tat i shud keep quiet from now on... will i end up being someone else?

CCN day... for goodness sake, i dunno how the hell the money can go missing... and the tot of using my money to cover it, it's like being sentenced wen u r innocent... and im in a position where i cant blame anyone... except myself... and im answering for it... all my life, i'll never ever ever do CCN day[as a leader]...

like now... as im writing this, tears start flowing... and i HATE it... i dun wan to be viewed as WEAK... but i guess this gal factor in mii is still alot.. i really hope GOD can calm mii down now... please...

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