24 nov

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i just realise that it's been some time since i had actually updated my own blog.. and i think this happen all the time.. since today, i been thinking on some ridiculous thing, i juz need to vent it somewhere... and i guess, this is the place...

sem 2 had starting more than one month liao.. ever since the start of sem 2, i had been super busy... few activites that i had participated in; TP Arts Festival, Viva the Arts segment EAST MEET SOUTH.. i was under the latinos playing percussion.. this event was quite meaningful to mii.. i made more frens and get to know some closer... in specific, im toking more to the samba peeps.. they are all malay, but since my practice date is diff from them, i didnt get to communicate much wif them.. to add it on, i did not attend the samba camp.. which creates some distance between us... but yeah... it was a fun experience despite being vexed going back home late.. in Latin, got to know a TP band member called Jasmine.. she played the keyboard.. she's really nice.. we hit off well.. mayb bcoz we r freshie.. hahas.. den thru this event, i get to know some FBI peeps more.. in specific, it was wei yang and another guy(sorrie, forgot the name) who's from the Production Crew.. get closed wif some others too la.. but FBI peeps, wen they saw mii, they remember mii as "eh, FBI gal..." hahas..

STUDIES MATTERS.. hahas... new subjects, new lecturers, new style and new things to learn.. ahhas.. in addition of CDS.. i took 2 CDS.. y so greedy? hahas... i cant answer that... coz i dun even noe... i guess i was too excited.. hahas.. my CDS are Japanese and Accounting.. 2 heavy subject.. may god bless mii.. hahas..

been super busy wif tut work, projects, research, presentation and many more.. poly life.. we revolve more than books.. activities representing our diplomas do counts.. for example, i participated in some running event yesterday.. i was CONNED! i did not know it was a competition.. i tot it was some running event where i could afford to WALK.. hahas.. but it was really great ar.. the first runner was jolene, followed by zhihao, vincent chew, kok yau, mii, grey singlet guy, shawn and mr toh.. im super disappointed.. i think i was the slowest runner.. but the whole team gave mii lots of support.. and not forgetting this guy.. hmmm.. i dun have good impression on him in skool.. he's not in FBI... but dunno for some reason, i dun realli have a good impression of him... den, some happen that change my tot, while running, i suddenly couldnt breathe well.. thus, i walk... but this guy, he do not know mii at all and vice versa, slow down and said "c'mon! dun give up!" i couldnt say anything at tat time and juz show him a thumb up... he overtake mii den suddenly he turn back again and gives mii more support.. i was so grateful to him at tat time bcoz if he didnt say tat, i would have given up and walked all the way.. i felt sorrie for the grey singlet guy also.. wen reaching the finishing line, to pass the baton to him, i couldnt see anything.. i juz continue running anf suddenly i saw him right in front of my face... and i could see him laughing at mii.. i guess i look pitiful? or funny.. hahas.. but he super nice to mii.. he kept saying, juz try ur best.. i was holding on to his word while running.. jolene gave mii support wen im entering the track.. shawn gave mii support after i reach the finishing line.. the teachers kept comforting mii while resting.. zhi hao too.. to summarise all, all of them ROX! i wun forget them.. together wif the red singlet guy who support mii while running..

after effect of the run is... limping.. my backbone hurt.. whole body aching.. haiz.. i juz not fit for sports.. haiz...

NEXT! i dunno whether it's a good thing anot but my mum will be going for haj on the 8th of dec this year.. 3 days after my bday.. so sad.. as in.. i wun be seeing her for like 1 month.. den, lots of work that i need to do.. plus, im not used to be far away from my mum for along time.. but it's a good thing coz performing pilgrimage is the 5th pillar of islam.. im juz too sad.. haiz...

TPSU.. hahas.. as usual, go duty once a week.. CCN day was interesting.. i was helping out TPSU and i followed hadi to sell the balloons.. it's seriously interesting.. hahas.. further more, the thing that i had been waiting for.. OTC! i was selected to be GL for FOs.. ever since my FOW, i ws inspired to be GL.. im halfway there.. hahas.. great..

lastly.. the thing that had been bugging mii tat lead mii to actually update this blog was some random dream tat i experienced this morning.. the thing is, i slept at 7am in the morning coz i went to watch some dramas at night.. and woke up at 8am to go see doctor.. but in this 1hr, i had 3 dreams.. the first dream was i dreamt that my dad had heart attack.. den i panic and suffered an anaemia attack.. i accidentally knocked my head onto the wall and regain consciousness.. ridiculous rite? my dad dun suffer from heart attack.. he's normal.. at least, normal as it is la.. hahas...

the second dream was wen i dreamt of my late grandma.. in that dream, i knew that my grandma had already passed away.. but i saw her sitting on my bed.. without any hesitation, i went to sleep on her leg.. i then started crying badly coz i know she;s gone and yet i could feel her... the dreams feels so real.. perhaps i miss her alot.. my mum told mii juz now that she dreant of her too.. such coincidence... den i was awoke by the sound of my sis in law opening the door..

the last dream... the most bugging dream.. i was in sports hall.. at the gallery there.. it was super quiet.. no one is there.. den suddenly, my classmates jolene appeared.. she was approaching mii, but she lost her steps and roll down the stairs.. the next thing i knew was that she was bleeding alot and die? i think so... im not sure coz my attention was somewhere else where this guy, let's call him 딴... he's my classmate.. real life classmate.. i dun wan to reveal his name bcoz i'm scared of rumours spreading.. recently, i've been thinking bout this guy alot.. ever since sem 1.. i'll reveal some few things here la.. i admit tat i once said that Nicholas is cute and i like him.. but i guess it was juz some lame joke tat i said it myself.. take it as it was my fault.. but my class once went for a SENTOSA outing and at Vivo, we played true or dare game.. there's this question tat i was asked by Sebastian.. i still remember it clearly.. it was.."in our class, who would u most likely to kiss... best not mii la.." tat was said by sebastian.. deep in my heart, i wanted to say 딴... but i was thinking, i would destroy our relationship if i said so... wat's more.. he went for the outing.. den again, i tot, since i once cracked a lame joke, i might as well use it to block the truth... so i said it was NICHOLAS.. sorrie for lying in the game.. but it was for the best... and i obviously saw Valerie whispering to ChuHui... the word was 'EXPECTED'.. i kept quiet coz i tot i did the right thing.. and at tat point of time, i felt very sad.. i didnt expect tat they would do that.. but yeah.. watever.. it wasnt the true answer.. so i dun really care... so let's go back to now.. i've been thinking of him alot.. alot and alot.. but i kept quiet.. things are meant to be tat way.. im currently confused whether i like him.. but i die die wun reveal who he is.. back to the dream.. i saw 딴 while i was trying to help jolene.. den suddenly 딴 fall onto mii.. he was bleeding too.. i was so shock.. it's lame but i actually HUG him... at tat point of time, i couldnt think of anything else but juz to be by his side.. [if i were to think rationally, i would have run for help] i was so scared tat he would die.. i cried loudly... shaking his body again and again.. calling out his name.. asking him to wake up.. but he was helplessly laying on mii.. tears continue flowing and i juz continue hugging him.. in the dream, i could feel his cheek touching my cheek.. den suddenly, i could feel his mouth touching mine... at tat moment, PUFF! i woke up! i couldnt believe the dream... the moment i woke up, i check the time and all.. the feeling of losing the love ones was present.. to recall again, the last time i had this feeling was wen i was witnessing my grandma's death.. this feeling makes mii more confused whether i like him.. coz seriously, i've been liking him since sem 1.. but i didnt say anything coz i noe my stand well.. but it was too scary that i cant stop thinking bout.. it was scary that i dunno whether i will be able to sleep anot.. I WISH TO TOK TO 딴 NOW.. but im sure he's super alright now.. healing his own heart..

tat's all for now... it is too long as it is.. see u next time..
사랑해요 딴!
sincerely from 하리야니...

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