it's been a while...

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demoralise? yes.. that's how i feel now...
i shudnt bottle up my feelings...

Dear __________

i dun noe how we end up to where we are now...
i dun know what actually happen causing us to be this way...
not knowing the start and future, it drives mii crazy.. i cant stop thinking...

u noe how much i treasure those things...
u noe how much i like being around with you...
but wat had actually happen to us?
where's the mistake?

y makes mii give up the things i like?
y makes mii give up after all the sacrifices i've made?
the tears.. the sweat.. the blood.. all gone for nothing?
wat had really happened to us??

I even tried to hate u...
I even tried to hate those things...
I even tried to hate those moments...
but.. a short moment called memories makes mii miserable...

I was concerned about your work...
I was concerned about your health...
I couldn't forget your birthday...
I couldn't forget how we first met...
and how things changes our life... our interception point...

i want to continue to hate you..
i want to continue to forget you..
i want to continue to erase those memories of us...
i want to continue to................

thanks for all the moments..
but i'm gonna release it all... forget it alll..
i hope we never meet again.. although i noe the possibility is HIGH...
but yeah.. i really hope we never meet again...

apart from the above person.. another problem surrounds mii..
it has been a while since i felt this sad...
maybe bcoz i tend to keep things to myself, and it hurts mii more..

wherever i see certain ppl, wherever i think of that certain ppl...
i cant help it but to cry it out..
but even wen i was about to cry it out loud, i hold back those tears...
it's painful.. very painful...
i guess im still the weak Hariyani..

the weak Hariyani who always cry alone...
the weak Hariyani who always cry in the dark...
the weak Hariyani who always cry in her sleep...
the weak Hariyani who always cry in the bathroom...
the weak Hariyani who always cry in the heavy rain...

for a moment, just for a moment...
i had forgotten that I'm a weak gal to begin with...

does the problem lies within mii?
can i change for the better? i dunno..

i hope i have the strength to move on..
and for now, i need the strength to study..
and the strength to forget about my problems now...

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