LOVE & FEELINGS

optimistic

2010-11-26T00:49:00.002+08:00

well.. there's two events to share relating to being optimistic..

one.. getting over somebody you love..
as some would have actually know.. it was hard to get over him..
liking him was complicated and i'd made lots of sacrifices just to prove my own feelings..
and now.. im learning how to really get over him..
and i can see how optimistic i had become nowadaes..
i can see that im happier.. wherever i tot of him, i no longer felt lonely..
but i simply smiled.. and then i'll just forget about him..
thank you for that... whoever that had been supporting all these while..

two... i went to VSA recently.. i volunteered in one of the classes..
VSA conducts art classes for special kids.. and wherever i tot of special kids.. i tend to think of the worst case scenario... well.. cant blame mii for that right.. hahahas.
and then.. i met this kid call joshua.. he spoke well.. just that he has his own world..
he's funnie.. lol... and he's just really optimistic..
as i was helping him cut a star shape from a fabric, i accidentally cut out one of the five points..
i was terribly sorry at that point of that and wanted to make it up to it by glueing it together..
and then he saw mii and said.. what are you doing? i can paste it myself.
and then i confessed and said.. im sorry. i didnt do a proper job in cutting.. and so this corner got cut off.. but no worries, i'll paste it back for you.. and then he said something that i wouldn't expect at all.. he said.. it's okie! it could be a broken star! very nice! and paste it separately making it seems like a real broken star... i really didnt expect him to say that.. and then tom came over and told mii, sometimes simple things touches one's heart, isnt it? i nodded, automatically..
by the end of the class.. i met his mother.. well.. joshua is dark skinned like an indian.. but then his mother is totally chinese.. well, he could have inherit that from his dad but that's not the point.. but what amaze me was that... his mother was smiling from the moment she entered the class till she approaches her son.. i dunno why but i had tots of asking are you happy? and then i wondered why am i thinking that way... well.. now that im giving it a deep thought.. i wonder to myself.. am i asking whether she's happy with her current life or whether she's happy with her son or what? i dunno.. i still can't think of a reason why i wanted to ask her that. but well.. i guess it doesnt matter any more.. well..hopefully...

so yeah.. be optimistic as much as you can.. im glad that im becoming more optimistic but i hope this optimism will not fade out soon..hahahahahas.. ciaoz..

2010-10-20T01:02:00.002+08:00

it's been awhile... since i last blog..
and wherever tat happens, it's either a good post or a bad post.

i'd not been myself lately..
something is wrong with mii...
i feel lonely and sick... of everything..

it has been a couple of days..
i felt pain in the heart.. it's either i would end up crying in pain.. or feels like vomitting..
i had no idea wat exactly is wrong with mii..
but im sensing that sth wrong with mii emotionally..
im eating only one meal per day.. making mii feels sick all the time..
im lacking of ppl to actually talk to.. making mii lonely all the time..
where had all the good times went to?
where had my optimistic character went to?

dear god... im begging you.. pls save mii..
it feels as if im losing myself soon..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

2010-09-11T20:25:00.005+08:00

wahhhh~~ this year raya is more special! coz it's where i start giving out green packets!
hahahahas... no more hari raya money for mii!!!! :( saded.. HAHAHAHAS.

my beloved niece! aryssa haiza... hari and ary~ LOL!
family pict!

siblings! the AWESOMEST 4~~~

the ladies~~~

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all my family, friends and relatives! (:

bad romance

2010-08-14T00:17:00.002+08:00

in this life..
there are just some things not worth mentioning...
and in this case... it is my current feeling..
however.. i feel so stuffy thinking about it..
i feel so unfair keeping it to myself..

as much as i wanna give u room to breathe..
u let me down by making mii suffocating..
is it a crime to be understanding..
i am the one sacrificing but why am i a victim here?
cmon dude.. can't you just spare a lil tot for mii...

perhaps.. wat others say about us is true..
i think u r not ready to face things together..
perhaps.. u still need time..
or maybe... im just not the one for you..

maybe i should have think rationally earlier..
perhaps i should have waited a lil longer to see thing more clearer..
thanks for making mii realise soo many things in this world..
all i could say is... it is a bad romance..

crying...

2010-07-23T17:30:00.002+08:00

for the past few days...weeks or months...
i perhaps had forgotten what's the meaning of crying...
i've been living a carefree lifestyle.. happy lifestyle..

but once i'm reminded again..
the pain is greater than usual..
crying in silence... tears overflow like there's no tmr..
just a simple tots could make mii cry in an instant..

courage...

2010-07-10T20:07:00.002+08:00

haiz.. there are some things that keep bothering my mind..
few months back.. i promised myself that i would gather all the courage i had...
and tell him everything on tat day.. on the day we met... but in the end..
things turn out different.. i totally couldnt do it.. i totally cant..
where has my courage gone to?! i hate myself..

and then.. wen i think back on that day..
i keep wondering to myself.. why didnt i do it?
why did i do things that is soooooooooooooo redundant and useless..
i could have used the opportunity to say it all..
why why why? i feel sooo freaking useless.. i feel like a total loser..
tat day was the only day.. i could do it.. whyyyyy didnt i do it?
it was a hard opportunity to come by.. i dunno when would tat chance ever come back!!
so whyyyyyyyyyyyy?

in the end.. i believe for self comfort.. i told myself..
i prefer the current now.. i just couldnt take the risk.. and keep thinking of the worst..
right now i could say i would do it if i were to be given another chance.. but then..
i still believe i wouldnt dare to do it.. coz.. im just a loser..
who just cant tell him everything in my mind.. maybe.. i should have not even think about it..
i'm a fucking sore loser.. haiz..

my soul searching trip....ALONE..

2010-06-28T21:26:00.002+08:00

alot ask mii why i made the sudden decision to travel overseas.. wat's worst is tat.. travelling alone..
it's hard for mii to explain.. it was on impulse.. with anger and sadness feeling surrounding mii.. and yes.. no one knew about this trip.. not my family.. not my friends.. not even dee.. until the day of my flight itself.. wen i was contemplating whether i shud travel.. it was hard.. but i made up my decision with this tot.. "i might not have the money and time like i have now.. so might as well go for it.. " and so i did.. i went over to indonesia..

day 1 (tues)
to make things less complicated.. i'd packed in the morning itself.. den slowly break the news to ppl.. LOL.. only a few knew where i went on tat day.. and then off i go.. first day was quite boring.. while waiting to check in to hotel.. i went around.. it's definitely different travelling alone.. with my personality tat's quite easy.. i walk ard according to my instinct.. bearing in mind.. this is not my country.. i'm a gal.. and i should be careful at all time.. hahahas... it was quite a sight..

went to one of the shopping mall near my hotel.. and then.. i met a fren there.. surprise surprise huh?! hahahas. i met my sec fren there.. i guess god was blessing mii.. he brought mii around.. and tell mii wat i can do with ard there.. i asked for his advice.. saying tat im seeking peace and time alone.. and so there come an idea where i shud travel down to the villages.. the only way to go there was to take bus.. and so i spend the day.. thinking where to go.. how to go.. and making sure.. i have the means to come back to the city.. i spend the whole day window shopping.. sit around.. go to my fren house to play... hahahas.. it's interesting how unplanned things turn out to be exciting.. (((:

day 2..
after breakfast.. i quickly check out from my hotel.. and then head down to the bus station to take bus to a village.. damn.. i cant remember the village name.. LOL! and so.. i went down.. it was 3 hrs bus ride down.. and haiz.. the bus condition..reminds mii of malacca city bus.. LOL! no comment.. i couldnt sleep.. couldnt eat.. so i just enjoy the greenery.. or should i say sandy trip.. LOL!

once reached the village.. i have no place to stay.. and so i keep walking and walking and walking.. till i saw a children's home.. with my skill in speaking bahasa.. i asked them if they could take mii in for one night.. and so.. they welcomed mii.. and to my surprise.. they took mii in for free.. feeling burdened... i offered to help out in the place.. this is where everything is interesting..
i helped to clean up the place.. and god.. it was an eye opener.. everywhere is dirty and dusty.. sandy.. i cant describe.. i used to complain how messy my house is.. here.. even complaining is useless.. i spent hours cleaning up.. and even so.. it's still not very tidy.. the weather is super hot.. and i sweat to the max.. reaching night time.. feeling super tired and hungry.. i offered to cook dinner for the kids.. it's funnie.. coz i used to hate cooking at home.. my mum always nagged at mii to cook... but there.. im actually following my mum's instruction in cooking.. with the ingredients tat they have.. i'd made cooked rice.. cabbage soup with carrot.. and sambal goreng without meat.. it was tough.. coz the portion is bigger.. so i need to roughly guess the ingredient to be put inside.. but thanked god.. it turned out well.. every kid seems to enjoy it.. maybe it's becoz it's something they never try before?? LOL! i dunno.. after tat.. i did cleaning and all..
doesn't it feel as if im doing community service alone?! hahahahas.

really late at night.. i went to the nearby mosque for prayer and then as i walked on the dark road.. it was too scary for mii.. too dark for mii.. i was scared.. but then.. as i looked up in the sky.. it was beautiful.. maybe bcoz the surrounding is dark.. there seems to be thousands of star in the sky.. there were alot of stars.. shining brightly.. back to the home.. the kids were resting.. some were talking.. some were learning.. some were singing.. it was quite happening.. i join here and there.. mostly i did talking.. coz they were curious about who i am.. where i came from and all.. the caretaker there was super friendly to mii.. she shares lots of stories about some of the kids and all.. slightly dramatic isnt it?! hahahahas. some stories were really sad.. making mii move to tears... and making mii realise.. how lucky i am.. being in singapore.. being educated.. being well brought up.. even though..i have to go thru some hardship.. nothing is compared to theirs..

day 3..
i went to the local markets there.. seeing and buying stuff back to the home.. to my surprise.. i met my aunt's ex maid there... i was really happie to see her.. i mean.. i was quite close to her.. and so.. i keep wondering why she didnt come back singapore to be come my aunt maid again.. so seeing her.. it's like.. i was really really happie.. hahahas... she brought mii to her house.. and there i saw her kids and husband.. we had a great catch up.. she even cried saying she miss our family.. haiz.. i understand how she felt.. 2 years taking care of the kids.. im sure she misses the kids.. and she curious how they are now.. i showed them their pictures from my phone.. managed to call home so tat they could chat with her.. hahahahas.. i was thinking.. wat kind of fate it is.. tat i met ppl tat i noe in an alien country.. it's such a small world u noe!!

i dun wish to share the place to shower and all.. it was freaking mii out.. till the point.. i dun wan to shower naked.. LOL! i spend the afternoon walking ard.. seeing here.. seeing there.. i feel soooo sad wherever i see the old ppl there.. haiz.. it was really a sight.. just seeing is tough.. how about them who have to go through all tat.. haiz.. the weather is freaking hot.. and i even thought i experience earthquake there.. but nah.. it was nth.. towards the evening.. back to dinner.. this time.. we get to eat meat! LOL! from the morning shopping.. i bought chicken (lots of it) and asked the caretaker to help mii to cook.. LOL! i cant handle poultry well yet.. hehehehe.. and so we had a filling dinner..

by right.. im like supposed to go back on day 3.. but then.. i missed my bus back to the city and so i had to stay back another day at the village.. hahahahas.. it was a mixed feeling.. i keep wondering.. where i did the right thing to stay a day longer there.. hahahahas.. tat night.. i talk to the caretaker again.. and i gave her things tat i bought in the morning.. i bought lots of stationaries and notebook for the kids.. and lastly.. i gave all the cash i have.. both rupiah and sing dollars.. hoping tat it would be a great help to them..

day 4
woke up real early to catch up the morning bus back to the city.. coz im catching my flight back in the noon.. and yes! i went back cashless! depending fully on my cards!!! hahahahas.. my bag is lighter too.. coz i gave some of my shirt to them.. and then.. home sweet home..

haiz.. lot of things learnt.. i see soo many things.. i hear soo many things.. tat i wish to keep to only myself.. i wish.. and i think.. i will not travel alone anymore!!!!!!! hahahahas.. i even lost my camera.. TT^TT

and deee! stop being angry with mii will ya.. u were..........1/99999999999999999999999999 responsible for my trip! u noe why.. dun ask mii.. so forgive mii~~ and stop being petty.. and be happie!!! u noe i love you alot!! hehehe!~

hari.signing off!!

it really hurts..

2010-05-27T11:11:00.001+08:00

It hurts.. when I can’t tell my honest feelings and just keep it to myself. I rather that I had lied. At least I know that I’m a bad person..

It hurts.. when I can’t cry and yet I keep smiling to everyone and myself… I rather that I had cried out loud. At least I know that I’m a crybaby..

It hurts.. when I have to act ignorant when deep down I really care and curious.. I rather be a busybody.. At least I know that I’m not a good person..

It hurts.. that I had to think hard to look for a proper place to cry out my feelings.. a place where there’s no one but the four walls..

It just hurts to be me…

EXCITING outing!! hahahas

2010-05-08T21:33:00.001+08:00

wahahahhaas.. sometimes it's reallie true.. wherever you plan.. it just doesnt go ur way...

blue + green + pink is MY font.. and the rest is cheemeng's... hahahahas..

so what actually happen on the actually day? LOLS
1) Parking Lot!
instead of parking at OGS.. the boys actually park at market street carpark (freaking far from OGS and walk over for dinner... lols.. smart to the max... ) and they were late.. (kinda expected.. HEHEHEHEHE!!)

2) Dinner!
luckily our dinner location wasnt crowded.. (since we keep contemplating whether to call for reservation.. ahahahas) and we managed to eat our dinner! (PS with free soup... LOLS... ) will never forget the rice BOWL story~~ and the BFF story (LAW CHEE MENG!!!!~)

3) Let's go WATCH movie..
and so.. we are supposed to watch movie.. we parked the vehicle at certain shopping mall (hahahas. forgot again!) and we're dead worried that our vehicle cant come out since the carpark closes at 11pm.. so there's no wayyy we could watch late movie.. so in the end.. we changed the plan to go shopping for say haow's stuff to Japan and also shop for out mini outing/picnic at marina barrage.. hahahas picnic at night.. interesting anot?!

4) SHOPPING!!~
@313 say haow wanted to buy some pant at cotton on.. and we realised that it's not worth it.. so we try to look for other things there.. so we went to uniqlo - tat had super lots of variety of pants! - and yet say haow didnt buy any!! and cheemeng end up spending instead!! hahahahas.. tat's always the case.. and then we realised tat 313 is just not the mall to shop for say haow.. so in the end~ we went back to our carpark shopping mall, went to robinson and bought his jeans.. and the shop tat we choose to buy was choosen on impulse coz of kim hyun joong! hahahahas damn funnie.. i was like.. "ehh! it's my SS501 leader~~" and then we went over to tat shop.. HAHAHHAS.. by the time we reached there, it was kinda late and the shop are mostly packing to close shop.. so imagine we rush like mad.. hahahas...

NEXT! we rushed to cold storage to buy stuff for out mini outing! hahahas. due to time constraint, we simply take and throw the stuff in the trolley! hahahahs.. it's reallie like picnic as we bought stuff like apple n banana (lols! thanks to mii!), chips and chips and chips, bread, lots of drinks (sorrie!), ice cream and etc!! hahahahas.. we are like mentally prepared to stay overnight! hahahahahahahas.

5) let's GO to MARINA BARRAGE!
it was a tough thing to decide between ecp or marina barrage.. hahahas. so since we're in the city area, we decide on marina barrage.. hahahas... and we reached there at ard 11.30 pm! hahahas.. wrong choice.. super wrong choice.. hahahas.. coz one, place kinda pack - we cldnt get the scenic view (say haow makes lots of noise from it!!!).. and two, it was super dark.. seriously lack of lights ard there.. but the nice thing abt there is of course the KITE!!~ hahahahas .. damn cool la..

and wen we finally settled down.. starts eating our melting ice cream first (which cheemeng drop all the time.. say haow complain not nice and mii eating super slow and noisy.. hahahas), we open up our drinks (different ppl open different drink!! hahahas.. cheemeng opened his nutritea, mii open up my orange juice and say haow open up his carrot juice.. lols..funnie to the max!) and start eating our heaty chips! hahahas.. as we getting deeper to conversation (yes.. deep talks...) the stupid water have to spoil it alll~ RAWR! the place was watering the grass with the auto water.. and damn!!~ we got wet.. and i got wet the most! oh well.. slow reaction.. hahahahas..
chee meng was like the water is coming and i reacted slow to it.. and serve mii rite.. super wet on my back.. and we tot it's just a one time thing.. it keeps spraying and we keep running and complaining! hahahas.. so we decided to get out of the place!!! hahahahas.. we sat tat for like and hr only la! wasted trip! shud have gone to other places..

so now.. we actually heading to ecp.. (in our mind~) COZ the random mii (actually not random la.. just tat i remembered how much say haow complain abt mii being his BFF and yet had never visited his new house(not so new la.. 3 yrs liao) at woodlands.. so i suggested to go to say haow house.. and everyone agreees.. and here we go~~~

6) WOODLANDS aka SAY HAOW house.. here we come!!~ lols!
and so we had decided to settle down at say haow house.. by the time we reached there was like 1am.. and after washing up and all, we finally sat down to play games.. we play monopoly chia version.. LOLS! the game was fairly fun!~ hahahahahas.. with say haow's suayness.. cheemeng's luckiness.. and my.. ahem.. 50 50 suay and luck... we played till 4am!! hahahahas.. by 4am.. we start feeling sleepy.. especially tan say haow.. hahahas.. he keeps laying down wanting to sleep! while mii adn cheemeng tot tat we cld never wake up once we sleep.. hahahas! so to distract ourselves, we start watching some videos.. hahahahas.. time flies kinda fast.. hate the guys though.. heavy heads!!! lols! almost suffocate there!!~

7) cannot take it anymore!! let's go!!~
wen the clock strike 5am.. we start getting out of say haow house.. and heads towards 24hr mac! ahahas.. at woodlands mart.. it was quite a distant from his house.. and the police even tot say haow was a lost kid.. hehehe.. reached mac.. had breakfast.. hahahas.. i didnt noe they had the deluxe bf.. i think it's a good deal though! hahahas.. as usual.. we had sooo many things to complain.. such as the ppl there gave us super lots of margarine and 5 box of maple syrup.. and we were like.. i think we'll use 2 only la.... and then complain abt salt and pepper.. hahahahas.. every little things.. seriously~ hahahahas.. and then we start realising our different eating styles.. for bf only la.. hahahhas.. the most cmi one is chee meng! i dun even wan to remember it!! rawr! hahahahas.. and then we realised it's 6am already wen we heard the national anthem! hahahas.

8) finally home sweet home..
and sooo.. we head home... hahahahahas.. dead tired.. the moment i open the door, my 1st and 3rd brother with my mum were looking at mii.. they tot im in my room sleeping.. hehehehe.. i reach home ard 6.30am! and so.. i had decided to sleep in my brother room instead..more like to disturb my 2nd brother..hehehe... half asleep 2nd bro saw mii and asked 'why you wake up soo early!" and so i said that i just reached home adn it's only 2am! he noobly believed mii and went back to sleep.. he had no clue abt it till abt noon~~ hahahas.. wen my mum was making noise abt mii gg home late! hahahahs~ NOOB ttm! lols..

overall! the trip is super interesting and awesome! hahahas.. we did sooo many things tat we never did before.. yes! realllie many!! and we realised the picture of mii and cheemeng is displayed at say haow house.. AWWWW!~ so sweeet!~ cheemeng keep saying im super high all the time.. hahahas.. we realised say haow true colour.. hahahahas.. he cannot tahan torning la.. hehehehe.. and many other things as well! fun fun fun!!! the trip was super memorable tat i had decided to blog abt it!~

and so... hari is signing off!!~ ((:

the QUIET me...

2010-04-21T14:26:00.002+08:00

these words keep playing in my mind...

"tell the truth...be honest...BUT.. i am not lying either..i SIMPLY choose to remain silent..."

this is all because...

"at times, it's reallie best to remain silent.. because.. different people react differently to certain things...it may just be something way further than what you would actually had expected it..."

SAVE MII..thanks.

does effort really pays off?

2010-04-12T10:10:00.002+08:00

i did try my best to ask.. i did try my best to take part..
however, at the same time, i think being ignorant is the way, although im not the type to do so.
wen i keep telling myself to ignore.. dont care.. just continue normally..
why must my effort being questioned again and again??

i was able to ignore those things.. i act as if it doesnt affects mii..
and smile and laugh like i normally do.. why do i feel so senseless? haizzzz

NEED TO GET A LIFE!

2010-04-09T15:47:00.003+08:00

RAWR! yeah.. i got no life nowadaes..
no money no life.. got money STILL no life...
got life no money.. no life, just DIE la! lols!

mon - fri, 9-6pm, see mii no where except RAFFLES PLACE. yeah.. im still working in RBS. under contract for 3mths only. last day = 31st May 2010.
and then.. by the time i reach home is already 7pm. 7pm - 2am is the only time that I can relaxed and watch drama. My entertainment source.. haiz..
but in situations where i don't go home, i would be probably somewhere ard town or city going out with frens for DINNER or drinks.. haiz..

sat - sun, the only time where i can relax la.. either i spend my time at home or go out lor. but usually, i end up accompanying my mum doing stuff liek going to relative/friends wedding - all the time.. haiz.. i still havent include my commitment in private tutoring.. haiz boring life..

as time goes by, more and more ppl are talking about going overseas.. perhaps, i might have shown no interest in these kind of talks however im just a normal human.. i would definitely be excited to go overseas with frens la.. like u noe.. totally independant.. oh well.. i hope i will get those chance wen i grow older.. (((:

finally graduating from poly.. waiting for acceptance from uni - tat's taking forever.. and yeah.. thinking how i should make use of my remaining time after quiting rbs and uni.. work? - later no time to hang out.. slack at home? - i will just get scolded for being lazy.. go out? - like tat money will constantly go down.. HAIZ. WHAT AM I TO DO WITH MY LIFE?! RAWR!

LOVE LIFE? oh god.. dun even talk about it. as much as im not interested in getting into a relationship. i do feel lonely at times. PATHETIC! i know.. such a LOSER! i know well enuf.. but eotteokajyo? life needs to go on.. (((:

WHATEVER LIFE! dun wanna care alreadii.. just move on and grow..
currently planning malacca trip with the interns.. yeah.. with nicole, joanne, valerie, wanying, yizhi, sikai, alvin etc.. some of them still havent confirm yet la.. but im sure is excited for this trip.. hahahs.. coz we're travelling together yo! hahahas.. 2 days most probably.. woot woot..

and yes! im still waiting to go out with some ppl.. such as meeting my 2cube! meeting my freshies such as al and ardy! hanging out with my BFF, syak and amirah.. and maybe, E4Com outing??? oh well.. tat's hard to get everyone.. LOLS.. and yeah.. cheemeng and sayhaow meet up! (((:

thanks for everything..

2010-03-26T23:52:00.002+08:00

i got scolded for something that is totally not my fault...
wat's worst is tat, im the victim and yet i got scolded for it..
and becoz of that, i got really angry and yet i cant say anything about it...
im like suppressing a huge feeling of anger becoz of the scolding and also bcoz im the victim..

and now.. im crying not becoz im sad but becoz of anger.. it feels so hard to breathe.. haizzz.

TP RBS Interns Picnic 21022010

2010-03-03T14:18:00.011+08:00

wahahahas! I noe abit late la... but i just wanna upload the picnic pictures here for memories! hahas. we had organise a picnic.. at ECP... and of course, it was slightly tough.. coz it's a PICNIC. we booked nothing.. and i was dead worried that we couldnt get a spot to sit. and also.. we got no wet weather plan and so on.. hahas.. but i think, it's the number of ppl that matters!

horrible guys! ask them to meet mii at PP mac.. and they went ECP mac! hahahahs.. was slightly angry but it's okie.. i made them come to PP mac to help mii carry things.. hahahas. alvin lim - hu was supposed to bring the mat, cannot make it last min - so luckily i managed to borrow my cousin's mat! hahahas. and one huge tray of noodle, i was struggling carrying all of it. weeee (: so the guys do the job wen we met at MP NTUC... wah.. the whole place is really different and i really dunno what is where anymore! horrible! but i see my old colleagues! miss them lots! hahahas.

so the first batch of ppl tat came is mii, sikai, zhiyuan and yizhi.. 4 of us slowly loiters ard and try to find new spot.. till yizhi say.. let's sit here!~ hahahas.. den we sat down, eat first and play bridge.. hehe.

den nicole and alvin tan came over.. thanked god for nicole for bringing her own mat coz my mat totally small for alot of us.. hahahahs.. den she brought speaker as well.. so we all can listen to music.. as much as i wanna offer my ipod, there's only korean song inside.. hahahs!

after tat, we had weichoy and lastly deeraj, who came with the rain.. so we went pool.. hahahas. durign the pool. only some stayed.. the rest went HK cafe to slack.. haha.. not bad right.. sometime, i feels tat plannign just doesnt work at times~

so here are some of the picts to share!

my photographer! and of course my dino jr! (:

play bridge anyone? hahahsalvin tan saying no to pictures! heee

happie sikai and yizhi..

sikai's disturbing glass!

time to eat my SOUR sweet!

sikai's expression: "SO SOUR LA!"

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... -_________________-

sweets and music~

okie baby sikai.. too much of his pict liao! hahahahas.

hahas. alvin sharing his cards~
the arrival of wei choy~
look at the pro expression..

POOL!~

Last Day of Internship...

2010-02-27T13:37:00.002+08:00

oh well.. 26 Feb marks the last day of my internship... including others as well..
for those who extend as contractors, we'll be meeting each other next week for abt 2-3 months..
for those who is not extending, especially the guys, hope to meet up with you ppl very soon.. i noe u all going NS and all, but we can still MEET rite! hahas!

personally, i'm actually very sad that slowly the number of interns left is getting lesser and lesser.. it was kinda expected however i still feel very sad about it.. haiz.. how i wish i have the power to keep the people i like to be around mii all the time.. but life doesnt go around mii.. and i cant force ppl or anything..

the interns in RBS was super bonded... i feel so.. we gets closer day by day.. no more awkwardness.. no more shyness.. although at times, we may felt unhappiness towards somebody, but i'm sure we forget about it soon after.. wen we sit down and chit chat and chill, we definitely got lots of jokes and laughter to share.. even silence are appreciated at times.. drinking session? every friday? why not? although i cant drink and dun drink, i felt that it's fun... felt bad though.. but i have my own principle to follow and i need to be discipline with myself.. frankly, i do CONSIDER drinking.. after seeing many ppl - my kind - drinks.. i wish i was like them.. i wish i was daring enuf to go against my conscience.. however, there's a corner in mii that says, "ONCE YOU START, YOU WILL CONTINUE DOING THE SAME" - this kind of fear keeps mii from not drinking..

i still havent share the GOOD news of mii extendign to my family.. havent share the pay amount.. havent share the period of extension.. nothing.. i wanna keep it a surprise.. coz i think they would be proud of mii.. lols! in any case, the extension is just a few months.. i'm sure i'll only be able to reach my goals once i graduate from university.. like how i had promised myself and my family... and now i tot - 'so this is how im growing up to be an adult'

my team.. as said earlier.. my team had been wonderful! especially with nez, zion and sharleen in the team.. but sad to say.. i'll be alone during march period.. since each of them going overseas trip.. sad rite~ but it's okie! i'll do the cover up in SINGAPORE! ((:

about love life.. i had decided to be cool about it.. im not going to take any initiative.. to like someone or to know the someone or whatever... im just gonna be cool about it and not look for it..
if it's meant to come, it will come.. if im meant to be single all my life, let it be.. i noe it's pathetic to say these but this is seriously what i feel.. coz i realised that wherever i look for it, i fall for him and then.. i will be the one getting hurt.. and once u get hurt, u still have to recover from the hurt and pain.. and all these will just make mii mentally tired.. i shud be manipulative and use my mental power for other things such as studying or gaining some good knowledge.. seriously, being RBS i realised my strength and my weakness... what's worst is that.. the weakness is so intimidating and demorallisign to mii and my strength is not that wonderful either.. haiz.. time to wake up~~~

Trying to blog from my itouch..

2010-02-08T23:30:00.002+08:00

Hahas.. This is interesting.. I can only input words from the HTML part n not the compose column.. Lols
actually I got many things to post up.. But I keep thinking whether it's good to share in a blog which many ppl can see... Haiz
so I had decided not to post anything about those that I was soooo happie about.. Lols

I'd told myself that I'm not going to look for it and wait for it to come.. But then.. Somehow.. Same thing happens again n again... Haiz.. But I guess the way I handle my feelings is slightly different this time.. . One thing for sure.. I keep denying that I like him.. Even to myself.. I myself wants him as a good fren and nothing more.. Coz this will lead to nowhere n in the end of the day... The one gettin hurt is mii n not him.. So let mii myself set the barrier and hold myself together before i fall into the bottomless pit...

I know I'm getting more and more attracted to him.. But whatever I do, I'll tell myself that being his frens is better than confessing and then become awkward with each other becoz of some confessions... Haiz.. I'll just wait an wait n will not take the initiative.. (:

i still dunno.. hahahas

2010-01-29T10:10:00.002+08:00

i spend ard 5 mins to think of a suitable post title.. and i still havent decide on what to write.. LOLS..

January 2010 is ending soon.. hahahs. time flies so fast sia.. and 2010 had been wonderful so far, but i had 2-3 sadness that happened to mii.. hahahas.. i'm trying to be optimistic and move on..

as time flies, the time spend as an intern in RBS also flies... time flies so fast till one point of time, i counted that i had 3 more weeks of internship left... hahahas.. and i reallie felt sad about it... my internship ends on the 12 of feb.. which is.. erm.. 2 weeks from now.. and because of that, i spend about an hour reading my esip! remembering the time i first enter RBS, the first time working in the office life.. first time communicating with so many foreigner.. lots of first time... lots of memories.. lots of learning point.. lots and lots and lots of it.. (: overall, i'm really glad and happie to be in my team and i feel very lucky... thank you god. you had answered my prayer. but at the same time, pardon mii for being such a greedy follower, there are still many things that i had yet to achieve... but only you noe my life best and i had always believed tat you always give the best to mii... for that, i'm thankful.

oh well.. my internship had extended anyway.. till 26 feb.. yup.. 2 more weeks.. as to whether i'll continue in RBS after internship, graduation and till i go university, it's still pending.. hehehehe..

talking about university.. wah.. this one is a huge headache to mii.. and i had spend soooooo many weeks thinking about it and i'm still thinking.. LOLS.. february - the application will open and i'm like gonna send at least one application to the local uni - NUS, NTU and SMU... im hoping to get NUS or NTU of course.. but more to the NTU side.. but it's so FAR! hahahas. as to wat course i'm applying.. hmmmmm... secret.. lols! wait till i got the application den talk about it... else, just hope that i got the best for myself.. hahahahas..

i reallie feel like talking about work stuff here but really la.. cannot blog abt it.. hahahas.. all that i can say is.. my team is getting more and more happening and im loving it.. it rox.. but im worried that i cannot leave this place when it's time.. i think im like gonna cry and cry and cry.. hahahas.. MAYBE la.. sometimes, when u think u will, u will end up the NOT... hahahas.

suffering from body ache now.. argh.. i seriously need to train up sia.. hahahas.. jialat man..

i'm signing off...

I HATE YOU!

2010-01-20T21:27:00.009+08:00

I HATE YOU!
REALLIE REALLIE HATE YOU!

for making mii feels like this....
if i read your msg 1000 times, i'll think, "how can i not like him?" 1000 times too! (:

Dont be good to me..

2010-01-16T12:12:00.005+08:00

Been badly sick.. stomach flu.. from tuesday.. and it turns severe yesterday..
how severe can it be? hmmm.. today i went to see doctor again and the doctor ask mii to drip for few hours since im unable to eat and got no energy.. good thing i had my sister in law as nurse.. she help mii out in that at home.. hahahs. few hours on it.. and i feel so much energetic now.. RAWR!

as i was badly sick, im especially thankful to those who care for mii..
sikai, valerie, nicole and zhiyuan had constantly sms-ed mii to ask mii how am i..
at work, alvin lim, ronald, joanne, sharleen, nez, vincent, auntie irene asks how i feel.. thanks!
feel especially blessed this time round.. thank you!
not forgetting amirah and syakira - sad that syakira kena stomach flu like mii also! pls recoveer soon u! hahas

just sharing something that had been troubling mii..
sometimes, it's especially easy to misunderstood someones good gesture as something else..
but it's good gesture afterall, so it's supposed to be a good thing. but if im not confident of myself to accept it, i might just get hurt if i had fallen for it.. and once i had fallen for it, it's hard to find the way back.. matters of the heart, it's hard to decipher.. haiz..
he started being close to mii and since tat, i cant stop thinking about it.. den at one point of time, he told mii to stop being too close to him.. leaving mii speechless and stunned.. when i finally restrained myself from him, he's the one coming over to mii again.. making mii all confused.. i dunno what he trying to do.. dunno what he wants.. but i'm not going to take the risk.. im going to treat him as a fren.. and just a fren..
but despite saying all this, deep down in my heart, i always anticipate what he does to mii.. anticipate his calls and his sms.. his this and his that.. haiz.. it's like there's something that makes mii keep going over to him despite mii having to avoid him and restrain myself... no matter how much i wan it, i have to tell him, dont be good to me.. i'm scared of getting hurt again..

and that's how my feelings are now.. linked to the below video.. 90% similar..

I'll end this post with this song - Don't Be Good to Me - Kim Jong Kook

bluek~

2010-01-13T22:58:00.003+08:00

lols.. wonders wat's bluek? doesnt it sounds like vomitting sound? YES!
lols.. been sick.. two days to be exact.. and still sick..
i was sick till the point that i cant do much except for sleep, camp in toilet and lie down.. hahahs..

i have to admit.. the reason i'm sick is becoz of someone.. haiz..
it's like his msg disappoint mii.. hurts my feelings badly till i can feel my whole body warmed up.. warmed up nvm.. wen i hear his msg ringtone again, instead of looking at it, i covered my ears and cried badly.. i totally breakdown.. i keep thinking of his msg till the point that... haiz..

and in the end, i just went to my room, skipped dinner and sleep.. well.. obviously i cant sleep coz i keep thinking about it.. but then.. somehow, i managed to fall asleep.. den comes the worst.. at 2am, i started vomitting.. vomitting once or twice nvm.. it's like constantly till my mum put a bucket in my room.. den early morning go see doctor..

i have to admit.. till now, i still cant stop thinking of it.. or cant stop thinking of him.. i was so disappointed at how he misunderstood everything.. but then again, i think why shud i care coz it's him that misunderstood and not mii.. so now, i just gonna stay silent.. recover asap.. and just ignore..

think of the happie times.. hari.. turn to the next page! lols!

RBS TP Interns BBQ 090110

2010-01-10T13:48:00.005+08:00

niwaes... i'm very very happie... coz 09 Jan was a GREAT day.. i'm super tired though.. hahahs..
early morning went to wet market to buy bbq foood.. LOLS.. went with my mum and brothers.. hahahas.. and we had breakfast outside as well.. LOLS.. den rushed home to go plaza singapura to collect Edwin's bodybuilding competition tickets.. after that rushed home to pack to go to SiKai's house for the bbq.. hahahas.. im so happie.. coz some ppl tat i didnt expect to come, came.. hahahs.. in the end, the attendees are mii, sikai, nicole, vale, yizhi, ronald, alvin tan and wei choy... hahas... although not much variety of food.. i think it's quite enjoyable..

we met at simei mrt.. to shop for stuff at ntuc.. den sikai's mum fetch us.. hahahas.. gosh.. i think sikai is lucky.. i think he got a nice family.. pretty and nice mum.. cool dad.. frenly siblings.. hahahs.. seriously.. i can't help it but to compare la.. but well, everyone has their own story.. (:

sikai being the fire starter.. LOLS.. he really ah pek la.. keeps making the fire with mii and ronald.. STUPID charcoal... produce more ashes than heat.. RAWR.. den destroy my foood... LOLS.. then at some point of time, i went to play my UNO attack that i brought over last minute-ly.. LOLS.. after that, most of the time, i'm busy doing the bbqing.. yizhi came over and brought his poker cards and taught the ppl how to play bridge.. lols.. seriously, i'd never played poker nor Tie-T nor watever got to do with poker cards.. so i see no point of mii joining them.. LOLS.. the guys enjoyed bridge to the max.. and we gals spends the whole time cooking the food and pass it to them.. LOLS.. i enjoyed doing my satay! hahahs! playing with fire.. hahahs.. happie that food is cleared.. weee (:

den nicole and weichoy left early coz they got prior appt with other ppl.. soo down to vale, mii, sikai, yizhi, ronald and alvin tan.. hahas. finally mii and valerie sat down and ate the prawns.. LOLS.. the guys is still in their own world playing games.. den vale had to leave earlier.. leaving mii the only gal.. it's not a bad thing la.. coz i really dun wan to leave early.. but neither do i expect to leave THAT late.. hahas.. but i LIKE~~ lols.. niwaes, while the guys continue playing, i did my share, as a gal, by clearing the bbq place.. hahahs.. by 10 like tat, they decided to go sikai house and CONTINUE playing.. lols.. at sikai's house, i managed to wash up abit.. coz i brought extra shirt.. and my body is too oily from the bbq-ing.. hahahas.

den being the only gal and being the one hu dunno how to play bridge... i decided to read magazine~ lols.. so yizhi suggested that i either play STREET FIGHTER at PS3 or learn to play bridge.. hahas.. so i partnered sikai, hu is supposed to teach mii the game.. but i feel sorrie that they need to waste another time explaining to mii so i told them to just play and i'll learn the rope from there.. hahas.. so sikai tried his best to teach mii.. thanks for that.. but still, i dun get the bidding part! lols.. i like the hearts part and love the partner part.. haahahs. i think the game is realy nice to watch if u noe hu is hu's partner.. HAHAAS.. i ESPECIALLY entertained by Alvin's sound effect.. everytime he made a sound effect, everyone would laugh like mad.. hahahs. i like RONALD's randomness.. LOLS.. good sia... and yizhi is like soooo suay.. keep getting below 4 pts.. and for sikai.. hmmm.. i shall not say anything coz he's my partner.. LOLS.. it's really fun lor..

den they guys keep playing and playing till 2am! yes! 2am! hahahas.. so decided to fly home.. with ronald and yizhi.. reached home at ard 2.30am just to realise i dun have house key.. weee (; yes.. slept outside till 4am.. hahahas.. where my bro called mii.. LOLS.. i think i can fall sick liao.. LOLS... so quoting from valerie, 090110 RBS TP Interns BBQ is a success! muahahahas. will upload picts later.. coz now i lazy.. LOLS.. weee (:

it's so funnie.. wen i woke at 8am just now, i went to change place to sleep.. went to my brother's room.. lols.. den i keep thinking of the bbq, i think i fall asleep smiling.. i really enjoyed it.. LOLS..

ending this post with.. Betting~

This screenshot was taken from my twitter.. the reason for being nervous was becoz i made a bet on his driving test.. and i still have the bet notes on my phone.. i wrote "here's the bet.. if he passed his test, we're meant to be.. Else, i'll have to forget him.." but then, i noe the result well enuf.. i lose the bet.. follow the consequences.. maybe it's fated that way.. BUT SOMEHOW, I'M RELUCTANT... but at this point of time, i made it clear to myself, it's time to forget him.. but take ur time.. no matter how reluctant you are.. take your time.. this is the first starting point..

but somehow along the way.. he made mii waver again and again.. obviously, unintentionally.. but still what can i say.. he's clueless.. and perhaps that why i made the second bet.. but now that i think again, i'm just finding ways and manners to continue liking him.. like wat ppl say.. if u really want it, u'll make 1001 excuses.. hence this drags on..

making the bet already shows that i'm starting to think twice.. making a bet is not easy.. coz the consequences that i'm facing is something that i dun reallie wan.. lots of what if.. lots of uncertainty.. i thought alot to come to this betting.. i gather lots of courage to continue with the bet.. when the actually day arrives, i was praying hard hoping that this is for the best of both of us.. i was very nervous.. i was very scared.. it's hard to describe my emotions that day.. constant worries and constant fear.. haiz.. oh well.. it's over anyway.. just like one of my new year resolution is..

lots of lesson learnt.. lots of point taken... Hari, LEARN from it..

"A broken heart continues to beat."

"When you love somebody, they become a part of you. That’s why it hurts so much to let them go. When you love someone that doesn’t love you back, it’s hard to find a way to keep yourself on track. It leaves your heart broken and hurts so much but that’s why it’s called a crush."

"I'm gonna smile like nothing is wrong.. talk like everything is perfect, act like it's just a dream, and pretend he's not hurting me.. "

have u?

2010-01-08T14:31:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. have u ever experience a situation where your mind and your heart speaks to each other? well.. i think i had mine yesterday.. maybe it doesnt sound right... but this is wat happens.. my heart was super troubled yesterday.. coz of 2 reasons.. and coz of that, i think my mood totally goes bad and i feel like crying all the time.. den at one point of time, perhaps i was trying to comfort myself, in my heart, i said - how bout this hari, dun bother about it coz it will just hurt you further - wen tat happens, i keep thinking about what i did.. lols.. it's like im talking in 3rd person perspective.. LOLS. anyways.. the brain advices the heart so that i won't get hurt.

and isit becoz i made that decision that things is starting to change? i was super tired and dun feel like going to work at all.. my right eyes keep flickering - means u gonna cry - and i keep wondering what will happen today.. oh well.. finally it happen.. and i was trying hard to control the emotion, control my reaction and chill.. but then wen ppl ask mii whether im sad or whether im okie, tears just keep rolling.. it finally happens.. and somehow im glad.. coz i told myself, new year - pls end it... and i'm halfway through the journey.. should i be changing lane? i dun think so.. coz to mii, changing lane or not, i'll still get hurt.. i'll definitely get hurt.. maybe i'll just stay this way for the time being.. i dunno whether it's a good thing or not.. but i think i wont be able to like anyone anymore.. at least not now.. that's wat i feel.. the pain is unbearable that makes mii dun wan to go thru it anymore.. it's not just becoz of him, it's everything.. everything as a whole.. at times i blame it to God coz he makes mii go thru all these.. i noe im wrong to do that.. but then.. haiz.. keep the happie memories.. and just remember it as it is... maybe there's a blessing in disguise.. although i dun care... i just feel so weak right now.. and i dun even wan to try to be optimistic..

2010!~

2010-01-04T23:39:00.005+08:00

well.. happie new year.. hahahas..
oh well.. nothing much is done during this long weekends..
but i think i spent most of the time sleeeeping.. and sleeeping and sleeeping.. lols

hahahs... really enjoyed the days at home.. lols
my family were are in shocked wen i tell them that i shall be at home during new year.. LOLS
they r like expecting mii to go out and hang out with frens.. but oh well.. decided to stay home.. weee (: had lots of fun with my crazy brother telling mii all sorts of joke~ hahahas

one the 3rd Jan.. i went out with sayhaow, cheemeng and eugene.. lols.. wat a GAY day.. hahahas.
spent the whole day at Bugis.. all start off with say haow needed to buy some clothes.. met the guys at 2pm(yes im late SORRIE. lols) at bugis junction.. den went to bugis street first to walk walk.. den met up with eugene... eugene was hungry.. so decided to go bugis junction to eat pastamania.. after tat, walk around the place for awhile.. where we took NEOPRINTS! yes.. GAY.. den, we went over to bencoolen for dessert.. LOLS.. after dessert, went over to OG.. after OG, we went over to bugis street again.. den go to SIM LIM for dinner.. den went to ILUMA to watch movie.. imagine walking back and fro bugis.. we got sianed and tired big time.. hahahas.. the movie~ lols! the fourth kind.. my real intention is to watch some horror movie but in the end we watch the fourth kind which is like alien movie... it's like.. if u r mentally prepared that u going to be watching a horror movie, the movie wouldnt turn out tat scary... but if it's the opposite, i guess the impact is huge.. hahahas.. tat's wat happen to mii.. how scary can an alien movie be? LOLS.. cant blame anyone but myself.. i got shocked in one of the scene and i started regretting since then.. hahahas.. dun ask how's the movie.. after the movie, the 3 of us turned speechless.. we got no comment about the movie however we r left with lots of question in the head.. hahahs.. oh well~

den nothing much.. i spend most of the time catching up with my dramas and variety shows.. got addicted to 2PM tired of waiting.. see below...

here's sth to reflect sth tat i spend some time thinking..
please just look at me for one last time..i couldnt say anything...
i'm the one who's crying like a fool..why can't you understand my heart..my heart tightens as time passes.. my eyes squeezing tears out... i am scared that this is the end....
i have lots to say so please listen.. do you know how i feel and i've confessed countless times... with or without you i have worry syndrome...don't neglect mii.. i want you by my side...
shivering lips and my heart won't last much..i am scared that it might stop..
did you get my sign? weeee (:

Xmas~ SiKai Bday~ Movies~

2009-12-30T21:29:00.012+08:00

well.. i wouldnt say my xmas had been a busy one.. but i had lots of fun~ hahas.

now on movie craze.. hahahas.. im like watching lots and lots of movie laa... hahahas.
i tink the first movie i watch after a long hiatus was AVATAR. hahhas.
i watched it with Shaun Pel Panha (LOLS) and Mr Sulaiman.
again, it's like the reunion of the CEOs... hahas.. mii being the first CEO and followed by Panha.
Mr Sulaiman forever being the president of Cuckoo Club.. LOLS.. i love CUCKOO CLUB! lols.. miss those times!!! meeting them was a great pleasure.. LOLS.. we discuss about lots of things.. from computers to lappies to IT stuff to cameras to games to life.. hahahas. the movie was great!! hahas..
except for some part.. which i had a long argument with LEE SI KAI. lols.. oh well.. hahas.

following it was Sherlock Holmes.. hahas.. this one is super random. on facebook chat sobir was asking mii bout xmas etc etc. den by random he told mii tat he wanna watch movie alone.. LOLS. and mii randomly too said that i can accompany him if he wants.. LOLS. the point that i misunderstood was the day to watch.. i tot it was another day but then it was the day itself - 25 dec. but it's a goood thing coz i finally realised that i can book ticket using my UOB TX card that i got 3 yrs ago.. lols.. although the seat location was bad.. the movie was awesome.. hahas.. 10.50pm show and of course cabbed back.. hahhas.

den the next day, i got plans with syakira and amirah from like weeks ago.. hahs. coz i promised syak to watch new moon but drag and drag and drag.. hahhas. just to be scolded by them for watching sherlock holmes without them! LOLS. so yes.. watch sherlock holmes for the second time..hahahas... same movie twice in less than 24 hrs.. hahhas. but the outing was awesome as well.. though i got scolded, like again, for sleeping during the movie.. RAWR! but seriously, we need to stop twitting over every little things la!!! hahahas.

after that, amirah need to go off first leaving mii and syak at raffles city.. we spend some time at paper market - where my inspiration to be creative but CMI came about... hahas.. thanks syak for all the influencing.. i bought stuff to make sikai's bday card.. hahas.. was super excited wen we browse the shop. lots of things to buy.. lots of idea.. but the shop DAMN EX! lols.. after spending, mii and her went to ben and jerry for ice cream.. and then here come the random conversation to go L4D2. lols.. mad mad mad.. thanks syak for teaching.. i think i had lots of fun rawring.. however, it's stressful for a first timer.. LOLS.. went to dhoby ghaut to play..

sikai bday.. hahas. super interesting... wen mii and vale first plan it, we decided to do DIY cake.. however, we didnt noe 313 got the cake shop... the shop that we wanted to go to is like at JURONG. lols.. however, the tot of DIY-ing the cake makes us excited. thanks sharleen for telling us that 313 have the DIY cake shop.. we become more firm of getting him the DIY cake.. LOLS. and somehow, mii and nicole went over to make it and we r like small kids sia.. super excited to make the cake.. hahas.. at the same time, i feel sorrie for sikai.. hahas. coz the cake doesnt look as good as we tot. somehow it turn out tat way.. it looks nice initially.. i regret buying the additional small stars tat coz ex to mii.. LOLS.. den things got worst wen it was kept overnight.. coz some of the big stars like melt.. SORRIE sikai.. lols..

and as for his bday card.. hahas.. the CMI mii with ZERO creativity stare at the board for the whole sunday thinking wat to do with it.. LOLS.. the idea that i had at the shop somehow turn haywire wen i put it into actions! HAHAS. so i decided to call my bro for help and both of us sit down and tot of how to do it.. LOLS.. and my mum says that mii and my bro doing my SKOOL project.. hahahas. but by tuesday, i somehow feels that im doing a senseless thing.. hahas. coz initially i wanted to give it to him under my name and only my name.. coz buying those stuff at paper market is quite ex liao.. i felt might as well get a better present.. lols... k fine.. im selfish.. but i think it's fated la.. i somehow tot of how to make it more meaningful and decided to make it like RBS TP intern bday card. hahahs.. and im really glad that i did tat.. coz it became really really more meaningful tat way.. hahas. weee(:

and in the end, i bought him a dog-tag tat i found at 77th street.. hahas.. im like super happie wherever he wore it - FRIDAY... hahas.. i felt that i bought something that he appreciate! woohoo! (:

going to watch alvin and the chipmunks tmr.. YAY!

for sikai's sake.. here's all the links to the pictures. (:
Si Kai's Birthday Pictures
Xmas Eve Dinner Pictures
Xmas Bazaar Random Shots
Nicole's Birthday Pictures
Hariyani's Birthday Pictures
Alvin Tan's Birthday Pictures
Joanne's and Cai Xue's Birthday Pictures
Lena Kwah's Birthday Pictures
Alvin Lim's Birthday Pictures
Zhi Yuan's Birthday Pictures
Valerie's Birthday Pictures

Brown Eyed Girls - Sign - i prefer the orchestra version more actually.. hahas

I love Aydan part 2~

2009-12-25T18:37:00.003+08:00

lols.. okie.. i got his name spelling wrongly! LOLS..
his name is spelled A-Y-D-A-N! lols..
managed to get his photos.. can't blame him for looking at mii.. coz as i said last time..
i jumped in last minute.. lols.. well.. at least i got his pict! that's leeflyn and jasmine..
apart from tat.. LAST week, i was called xmas tree early morning.. hahas.. THIS week, i was called SANTA CLAUSE!! and his reasonings crack mii up.. as always.. hahahas.. (:

this week has been a lonely one.. sad.. but then... there are enjoyable ones as well..
especially love yesterday.. coz it's half day.. and yet i achieved many things..
finally gave him the tie.. hahas.. his supposed bday present bcum xmas present.. hahahas.
it's a relief actually.. at least, now i dun have to think wen to give it to him.. lols..

Asian Bellz was good.. hahas.. it's a different experience altogether.. being the performer and the audience.. wen i watch, lots of the songs reminds mii of the past.. omens of love reminds mii of secondary school life.. It's time for sayang sayang reminds mii of the times i work with Main Wayang Company.. great performance by Axil with the Electone.. cool sia.. makes mii wanna learn it.. LOLS!

xmas eve.. i made an imprompt outing.. hahas.. sorrie for being demanding! hahahas..
but cool la... went out with vale for sushi buffet at first.. den we went for swensens with sikai and zhiyuan for dinner/dessert.. hahahas.. it was quite fun actually.. i finally have a group of ppl to hang out with in attachment.. love them for being sporting! hahahas.. reallie fun and i had lots of fun.. hope others have fun too.. hahas.. and LEE SI KAI! im still demanding xmas present from u! hahahas. went arcade.. hahas.. it's been ages since i play arcade laaaa.. lols.. fun fun fun.. weee (: thanks for making mii laugh.. coz i really needed one.. hahahs..

ur sms on monday and ur sms last night.. makes my day.. im afraid of being greedy..
but somehow.. i feel that im giving up on u.. giving up and changing lane.. maybe it's time..
that i'm finally ready to give up.. and remember it as one of the good memories i had..
hopefully.. well.. at least i hope.. i dun hesitate.. or doubt my decision..

here is Omens of Love that is popularise by T-Square.

I LOVE AIDEN~

2009-12-19T19:27:00.006+08:00

hahas.. the reason to update the blog this time round is becoz.... AIDEN..
hahahas.. sad! i didnt take pict of him... lols.. aiden is a really cute kid...

i took part in AOC Christmas Kid Party as elves and took care of the kids from aged 3-10..
hahas.. we planned out lots of activity for them and of course lots of SWEETS and PRESENTS! here's a picture of the elves... Melanie, Jade, Leeflyn, Rebecca, Jasmine, Mii and Wayne..

aiden was the first kid that came in. He came in with his grandpa and mum. and since he came early (not tat early - just that other kids are late), we keep bringing him to the pantry to eat and drink.. it took mii hours later to realise that he's an active kid and colouring is just not his thing.. he was super quiet wen i was doing colouring with him.. so the other elves decided to take him to other activities and i continue sitting at the cards side and do colouring with other kids such as Tom, Lily, Alexia and Audi.. Samantha, a beautiful and cute lil gal (youngest) joined in later.. hahahs.. i enjoyed audi company coz he speaks malay with mii.. well, at least he interacted with mii wen we doing colouring.. unlike aiden.. lols.. but.. hahahahas..

i cant believe a simple paper aeroplane could bond mii and aiden well.. hehehe.. aiden dun take part in group activities at all.. hahahas.. During pass the parcel game, he keep asking his mum why are we laughing.. LOLS.. so cute.. during musical chairs, he got scared when the kids are all running around and keep himself to his mum.. hahahas.. den wen i decided to play with him - paper aeroplane, he really enjoyed it to the max.. but it also drain out my energy running around.. hahahas.. we played that for hours and both of us really got tired.. the funny thing is.. he pulled my hand and told mii he wanted to sit down.. den he taught mii how to exit the social space using the glass door.. after he sat down.. he told mii he wants some drink... i dunno what drink to give him and he taught mii to take his drink from his bag.. hahahas.. so cute la he.. i really love it wherever he pulled my hands.. ahahas..

the kids did the last activity and again aiden is in his own world and dun wanna join the rest.. he keeps playing with his green aeroplane and keep looking for mii.. hahas.. there was a point of time where i went to the toilet and took drinks, he actually found mii in the wet pantry.. he was asking mii, where i go.. hahahas... so cute la.. he's my new son already la.. hahahas.. when it's finally 5pm, all of us started to pack up slowly while waiting for their parents to pick them up.. sadly, aiden mum was the last.. so in order to distract him, i pulled him to the corner and played with him.. hahahas.. and the best things about him is that, he likes to give things to other ppl.. hahahs.. he gave everyone one oreo and wen i passed one back to him, he replied mii, i dun wan.. lols.. hi-5! i dun like oreo also! hahahas.. aiden also like to hug ppl.. wherever i stop playing, he would look for mii and hug my leg.. so lovely rite~ he also adores wayne.. hu always play with him.. hahahaha.

den wen his mum came back, he was really happie.. and pulled his mum to play with mii.. but when his mum said let's go back.. he started crying, lay down on the floor and say i wan to play.. lols.. wat's funnie is tat.. he went to grab mii and cry.. hahahs.. so in order to make him stop crying, decided to play again with him.. LOLS.. when he finally happie again.. his mum managed to make him wanna go home.. hahahas.. this time round, im the one hu feels like crying.. hahahas. sad... he pulled my hand and give mii a hug.. hahas.. and that's not it.. he even gave mii a kiss.. weeee.... lols.. his mum told him to do the same for the rest.. hahahas.. and he did tat to wayne.. and not the others... LOLS! im in cloud 9!~ hahahahhas.. cute him..

i regret the most tat i didnt take pict with him.. i think there's only one pict of him and mii and the rest.. i was drinkig and i last min jumped in.. tat's the only pict.. and im like so gonna search high and low for it..hahahahas..

on the day itself, most of them finally realised tat im an intern.. hahhas.. almost faint wen the kids call mii auntie.. hahahas.. call mii sister!! hahahas.. aiden call mii jie jie/auntie.. hahahas.. and i also crack up wherever auntie brings milo in.. i keep saying i wan milo.. and auntie totally ignores mii.. hehehehe

okie.. enuf of aiden.. hahahas.. i hope to see him again.. but still.. enuf.. hahahs
happy moments in.. ever since nez is back.. the team is more lively! hahas..
i laughed at least once a day - nez totally cracked mii up everyday..
seeing how she and chris always argue and play and joke around everyday.. hahahas..
there would be at least ONE TEAM chatting session per day - rocking ones.. hahahas..
fun fun fun! but again.. SAD! it's end of the year season and all going back to celebrate xmas! hahahas... team dinner was fun! the place was noisy.. so we tend to shout out.. hahahs.. i think it was super fun laughing to the max.. hahahahs.. we are bonded now! hahahas.. hype hype!

and im getting closer to NP interns.. enjoyed chatting with edwin and shawn!~ woohoo..
terry.. maybe some other time when there are chances.. hahahas.. there are some that really CMI la.. like super dao.. but some are really nice and down to earth and nice to talk to.. weee..

zion will be sitting beside mii from jan 4 onwards.. den after tat, opp nez.. hahahas.. the team getting more and more happening.. woohoo!~ i still havent got the full team pict! hahahas.. I DUN CARE.. once my internship ends, we must have one full team pict! hahahas. which reminds mii... 2 more months... 3 months has been gone.. time will fly very fast this point onwards..

RAWR! someone call mii christmas tree on friday morning! YOU WORE GREEN ALSO! zzzzzzzzz...

You're Beautiful OST - Without a Words - Park Shin Hye Version.
There's like 9th Street version and Jang Geun Seok Version. And I'm lovin all the version.. and the whole OST, still rocking in my head despite the drama had ended for quite some time now..

xmas bazaar

2009-12-07T21:28:00.002+08:00

okie.. quick update on my bday celebration.. LOLS
on my bday itself, yes, spent the whole day with syakira and amirah.. hahahas
i dunno y.. but we never got bored with each other..
everytime we meet each time, time always run out on us! hahahas.

den at night, decided to rest at home and chat chat.. notably with panha.. LOLS.
thanks ar.. chat wif u but then u forget my bday.. hahas.

i purposely keep myself awake till 2359 coz im waiting for someone's wish..
but well, wat to do, although i had zero expectation, i still hoping for it..
but im still thankful for whatever i have..

on the 6th dec... i went out to see my dearie niece over at my sis in law house - JURONG!
hahas.. before going there, i had a little fall before entering the car.. hahahas..
my 2nd brother reaction - "anyone heard the sound of someone fell?"
my 3rd brother reaction - "i only saw u standing up.. DID U EVEN FALL?"
my mum reaction - "EHHHHH! young ppl fall down can stand up easily.. UNLIKE mii, i would sit there and cannot stand up anymore."
walau.. coz of my mum's scream, the whole world like noe i fall la! EMBARRASSING can! RAWR

den reached there liao.. i held my niece again.. I TOTALLY dun understand guys at all.. wat's wrong with carrying a little baby.. it's like damn light wat.. hahahas.. my niece like getting cuter la! HAHAHAS. and the thing i can never understand.. wherever i hold her, she would fall ASLEEP full force.. hahas.. im now called dullop pillow for her.. hahahas..
den during evening, my bro send mii over to PP to meet nicole.. thanks la.. save mii the trouble of travelling so far.. hahahas...

today.. RAWR..
this morning.. already rushing to work.. i wanted to meet nicole at mrt.. FAIL la..
den at the lobby lift, i nearly trip.. den i tore my pants - the bottom part.. LOLS.. damn embarrassing la.. hahahas.. something is totally wrong with mii today..
after that, go pantry, wanying accidentally spill soap on mii. but still NOT so bad.. hahhas. wen i sit down at my desk, I SPILL my TEA! rawr! SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH MII TODAY! RAWR! nth goes right.. nth goes okie.. RAWR! my bro ask mii to go for flower bath.. TSK! dun curse la!~

xmas bazaar.. wah damn shag la.. i totally no creativity.. ZERO! ZERO! thanked god got nicole.. she helped miii most of the time.. thankful to my dept for being understanding and supportive... TOTALLY NOOB! thanks sikai, zhiyuan and nicole for helping the setting up.. hahas.. i had more fun setting up la!~ funnie sia..

and just minutes ago.. huanyi come back singapore liao! WAT THE HECK! i tot next mon! hahaha.. sadded.. didnt fetch her la.. i also feel so damn shag today.. haiz.. sad sad sad.. nvm.. let's meet for lunch soooon!~

tat's all for mii to say? hahahahas.
and for HL - great that things went back to normal.. though im sad.. im still glad.. and FYI, i think we got closer wherever we quarrel.. but pls, i dun wanna quarrel with u alreadi!~ time is running out.. and i just wanna treasure the time together..

my adv bday celebration

2009-12-04T21:37:00.003+08:00

this year bday celebration was definitely wonderful with many ppl celebrating with mii~ woohoo..

01 dec.
this was the first advance celebration.
mii, jasmine chow and lim with valerie went to marina square to eat pizza @ pizza hut.
hahas.. i already knew that the purpose of meeting is to celebrate my bday however i didnt expect it to be so grand.. ahahas.. thanks guys!
the first 2 happie birthdae song honestly dissappoint mii but u guys didnt dissappoint me at all since the 3rd song is for mii!! hehehe.

and the cam whoring and wishing ball thingy at esplanade was really wonderful!~ HAD lots of laughter.. thanks la.. ahahahas

03 dec...
thanks ar vale.. nicce surprise..
the interns celebrated my bday 2 days in advance.. Y? coz they wan to surprise mii.. LOL
sorrie to sikai for being the victim of being smacked! hahahas.. they sooo funnie la..
i tot they would celebrate my bday on fri instead of thurs.. LOLS.
nicole called miii over to their seat coz sikai keep bugging her.. so i went there la..
JUST TO SMACK sikai.. LOLS.. den wen i went over, smart ar guys, went to take my cam and lighter from my bag.. LOLS.. i was pulled to the toilet.. NICOLE, u damn good actress! DAMN GOOD.. den finally we decided to go pantry and slack.. i GOT shocked.. i saw a cake..
still in disbelief, they told mii they celebrating other ppl bday.. n I REALLY BELIEVE u guys.. LOLS.. and thanks hor... huever hu contributed the idea of mii pulling the candle holder!~ damn disgusting can.. but i hope u guys enjoy it..

04 dec..
here comes another surprise.. due to sharleen going Japan, wishful thinking mii tot tat they would celebrate on 3rd rather than 4th.. so on the 4th, i have ZERO expectation liao.. LOLS..
but well.. the team celebrated for mii as well!~ hahahahas.. was really shocked and happie la... LOLS... chris was asking mii to turn over in a hurried tone.. and i tot i did something wrong.. and then there they go singing bday song to mii.. never expect the team to noe my bday la.. hahahas.. almost cried.. coz my expectations all turn haywire..

one surprise after another.. start off with joanne bday present after lunch.. followed by bbt on my table and then my team giving mii present.. i was really caught by surprised... and the bday card makes mii cry can.. the whole team had signed it despite only 3 of them in Singapore. this shows that they knew it way in advance liao.. ahahahas..

den wen i go home.. embarrassing moment happen in the train.. thanks sikai for saving mii.. LOLS..

reach home, i see my mum only.. I TOT GOT FAMILY DINNER? lols..
just to be surprised by another bday cake in front of mii.. hahahs.
this time round, only my third brother is able to make it.. the other 2 elder brother got work... sadly.. however, they brought my cousin's kids home thus it's more merrier.. hahahas.

all these are advance lei.. the actually day has yet to come.. had blown candles 3 times.. eat cake 3 times.. and celebrated 4 times.. definitely a happening bday celebration for mii this year..

very thankful and grateful to those hu remembered my bday.. celebrated my bday.. A VERY BIG THANK YOU! im soo happie.. although there's no big celebration, these small events really touches my heart! (:

actually, im having depressing moments as well.. however, i shall not spoilt this post! hahahas!
now im looking forward to our double celebration tmr with my BFF - amirah and syakira! and sunday!!! will be meeting my dearie niece arrysa!~

god bless! (: take care! (:

PS thanks for forgiving mii but i still feels guilty.. cant forget ur stare.. but it's a lesson learnt.. and as adviced, it was a honest mistake.. i shall repent on my mistakes and be a better person..

Because I'm a Fool.. LOLS

2009-11-28T21:04:00.004+08:00

hahas! today is Amirah's birthday! hahahas.. happie birthdae babe! LOLS
as usual, her bday celebration will always be pushed back together as mine.
this year, the plan will be the same where we'll be meeting each other this coming saturday. (:

weekends are simply the best day since it's the day where i can rest the most! woohoo!
but then, today.. i went out with zhiyuan to shop for chritmas bazaar booth..
wah.. it was a long journey walking around but i think it's quite fun! (:
thanks zy for willing to accompany mii.. HAHAS!

we went to PS den to Bugis Junction.. hahahas.
we did our fair share of shopping as well.. TILL I FORGOT to buy my book! LOLS

and woohoo! i managed to go to dorothy p. to buy jeans! YAY! hahahas..
very happie coz i managed to get 2 jeans at an offer price and i got the $5 voucher.. hahahas.
another happie thing is i managed to eat my ice monster after sooo long.. weee! (:

after hours of shopping, totally not my cup of tea, i dragged my feet home!
go home just to see julian, fakhrudin and johann spamming on facebook! LOLS
they always make mii feels like organising an outing.. hehehe..

and mr chang, rawr! randomly tok to mii today.. and still dare to say he wanna vomit blood! hahahas. mr chang, u r as funnie as ever.. hahahas.. my fav. form teacher la u! hehe! xD

and now here i am sitting at home watching tv... with my bros.. lols..
at some point of time, i feel soooooooooo emo.. hahas.
so in order to entertain myself, i keep listening to this song..
hope it makes ur day as well! (:

this song is from You're Beautiful OST - A song for a Fool - Park Sang Woo
this song really reflects how i feel right now.. hehehehe! (:

Hari Raya Haji

2009-11-27T23:18:00.005+08:00

thanks ardy.. u make mii feels like blogging again..
not just that.. i change my layout as well... thanks to michael.. LOLS! =X

ever since i broke up, i feel more curious on how ppl are after they broke up..
coz i myself is confuse how i should react.
and what i had been doing is according to my instinct... which might or might not be right...
one thing for sure, i need some time to heal from u..

today is Hari Raya Haji! lols.. 27 Nov 09..
nothing much.. my baby niece came over! YAY! her name is Arrysa Haiza anyway..
we call her arry.. hehehe.. sounds like hari rite.. but it doesnt matter coz no1 call mii tat at home..
my cousins came over as well.. hahahas. it's like HARI RAYA already la..

how's life been so far?
hmmmm.. busy with attachment.
i definitely learning sooo many things.. about life, reality, work and relationships.. hahahas
i love this line - it's not good to be popular in the corporate world - i totally agree..
im facing the music right now.. sometime it's good... sometimes it's not..
but im really grateful to some ppl for teaching mii lots of things..
im just seeing part of reality.. there's more to come.. haiz..

with attachment going on, i felt as if i've lost my social life.
felt lonely many times.. no bf, no social life.. nothing.
im down with colleagues, interns, BFF and family,
im grateful that at least there's still someone there..
though i sometimes wish for more..

toking about interns..
there is someone in there who never fails to make mii think twice..
there is someone in there who never fails to make mii laugh..
there is someone in there who never fails to be there for mii..
there is someone in there who never fails to entertain mii..
there is someone in there who never fails to teach mii new things..
there is someone in there who never fails to accompany mii..
there is someone in there who never fails to help mii..
there is someone in there who never fails to impress mii..
there is someone in there who never fails to make mii curious..
there is someone in there who never fails to make my heart beats fast... heeeee (:

each someone represent the ppl im closed with.. hahahas. INTERNS... TP... lols
wat's challenging in there is that, i really realli reallie wish that i can do better everytime..
i dunno if that's called greed.. haiz..

i spend some time to day reading my old blog and realised that i sometime quote many nice phrase.. LOLS.. i feel like rewriting some of them.. but dun waste time la.. i shall share a new one now..

"I couldn't confess it even once.. but I think I've been rejected about a hundred times.. XOXO"

here's a video to share..
it's from the You're Beautiful drama... What should I do - Jang Geun Seok version..

feel like blogging.

2009-10-17T11:01:00.003+08:00

hahas. there's nothing much for mii to update here.
had not been feeling well and i know well enuf why is it so.
emotionally tired. physically tired. mentally tired.

nowadays, i dun seem to be able to sleep.
everytime im alone, i kept thinking of him.
as i tot of him, there are smiles.. there are tears.
the time we spent together. it's really regretful.
being the one saying the last words, it makes mii wonder alot.
did i do the right thing. or did i made a mistake?
should i had waited or should i had given him more chance?
but at this point of time, i just felt that the result will still be the same.
i can't trust him anymore. i can't be confortable wif him anymore.

at the same time, haiz.. let's juz keep this silent..
i'm just not sure. i'm just dunno. i'm just clueless.

heard of Lee Seung Gi's song - Let's Break Up?
although I like the 'lie lie lie lie lie' part.
there's this part of the lyrics that makes mii cry..

"Let's break up..Let's not meet again..Even if sometimes we are sad..We can only smile at the memories..I've always lived for you..I know you better than anyone else..Now I'll have to send you off for your own happiness..Forgetting the love we have shared..Let's live like that.."

back from long hiatus! (:

2009-10-03T20:25:00.002+08:00

wah.. the last time i blogged! hahas.

quite update in between the late blog and now..
1) MP Groupings
my group consists of myself, joanne, jay and geetha. we did an internal MP for VTB Capital.
it was a bittersweet experience. well, i dun wan to go further about this!

2) Huanyi Fly Off
yeah.. she left singapore! lols.. leave mii alone here! lols..
ur absence r felt and i really look forward to ur vacation! (:

3) SIP (attachment)
i had been attached to RBS - Royal Bank of Scotland - in Singapore Change Management Dept.
been there for 3 weeks now and i really like it alot there.
cant say much bout work however it was really great to be there!
i like my team member alot too, despite being busy all the time, hahas!
love the ppl attach there too! joanne, yizhi, alvin lim, alvin tan, valerie, ronald, caixue, zhi yuan, nicole, si kai.. not forgetting the orq ppl - nicholas, wei choy and wan ying. AND MYSELF of course. haahas.

4) Hari Raya!
lols.. i still havent really go out with my frens! no time.. weekdays totally off due to attachment. so now down with weekends only. haiz. i hope we manage to go out together this year! BUDAK SHAZRA!~ hahas. (photos to be uploaded soon!)

apart from all this. im blogging becoz im not feeling that good nowadays. as usual.
going through a hard time right now. experiencing 2 set back recently.
to describe how bad that setback is.. it's like..
if i live my life for 3 reason. I've lost one of it.
but to be optimistic.. it might or might not be replaceable.
however, it's possible.

at the moment of sadness, i was impressed by someone.
that person impressed mii that much till im dumbfounded.
maybe bcoz i've always look down on that person that i was dumbfounded.
it's not that i really look down on that person.
just that, i have never had great thought about that person? lols.

well.. i dunno.. im random keep listening to Goodbye from Air Supply.
i know the reason well y.. and i juz keep humming to that song. especially the chorus.

"..you would never ask me why. my heart is so disguised. i just can't live a lie anymore. i would rather hurt myself. than to ever make you cry. there's nothing left to say. but goodbye.."

and to add on to the broken heart, this song really reflects my feelings. in a way or another...

I'm smiling without me knowing
My heart keeps on wanting you
Should I smile and hold you in my heart
Or hide you inside pretending not to know

I want to be a good person for you
so that you can lean on me
I know well that it might not be comfortable
But that is a job for my heart.

Thump. Thump. My thumping heart
I turn around to hide it

Love is helpless
The heart doesn't move the way you want it too
No matter how hard I try to suppress it
I am missing again
I think I'm going to love him

From time to time I become afraid
Because it feels like it isn't mine

Love is helpless
The heart doesn't move the way you want it too
No matter how hard I try to suppress it
I am missing again
I think I'm going to love him

I love.. I love you..
Maybe this tearful happiness is love
No matter how hard I try to stop, it doesn't happen.
I love you. I will only love you.

well, i will end this blog with..

"subconsciously following.. and I consciously avoid it...
I know well enough why I am like that.. but I still keep wondering over it...
I told myself to avoid you.. I told myself to ignore you..
but why are your words keep repeating in my head..
and why is your face keep appearing in my dreams..

I keep telling myself it's your fault.. and keep telling myself you are the cause of it...
but then again.. I have a part to blame.. and I'm helpless about it.."

what is this feeling?

2009-06-25T21:39:00.003+08:00

recently, things hasnt been very good to mii..
being lied to and i still cant believe it..
MP groupings is out..
what is this feeling?
sad? shocked? angry? unhappy?
well.. it's all mixed up.. so wat does it make up?
goodness.. is this really the way out?

10 weeks of major proj.. 10 weeks...
although it's my idea.. i dunno how to do this man..
i dunno how to start.. i dunno to end this..

i dunno.. im really tired now..
after netball game, i just dun wanna think of anything..
tmr AYG... haiz.. the mood juz sink down..

PS pick up my call pls.. i need u the most now..

it's over..

2009-06-23T11:52:00.002+08:00

well.. i didnt update for quite some time.. hahas..
more than 2 weeks? lols.. i also dunno..
despite having a 2 weeks holiday, which i was supposed to enjoy it till i drop dead..
my 2 weeks for filled with so many things.. but no doubt, i still did get some rest..

right after the WEM paper on friday, i straight away went back to my village for my cousin or relatives wedding.. someone close la.. hahas..
many things happen there.. for example, i reach at 7pm-8pm like tat la..
and i didnt expect to do anything, once i'd reached.. so i wore really slack.. like how i normally do in Singapore.. but bad idea.. coz i was told to take part in some kind of religious reading la..
since it's religious, it's obvious i SHOULD be fully covered la.. but i tot, it doesnt matter much and just join in.. just to feel awkward being looked at by the olds and the youngs.. but hu cares, the mandatory thing is tt im contributing to the readings.. lols..

and i was super surprised.. i didnt expect syafiq parent to build the house right next to mine.. it was like... even much closer than neightbours.. on the second floor, i can see wat he doing and he can see wat im doing.. but hu cares la.. we met for like one day and tat's it.. and abt the house thing, im not gonna live there.. so it doesnt affect mii much.. hahas..

back in Singapore, my 2 weeks was full with AYG trainings and duties, competition proposal meet-ups and of course OUTING!~ i had outings with shuxian and gang, say haow and cheemeng, and many more la. hehe..

AYG for fun to a certain extent.. juz dun like the fact tt i kena 3 weeks duty +++ everyday.. even after requesting for change twice, they still reject mii.. now they deserve it.. thanks to my competition, i cant contribute much.. hahas..

speaking of competition, finally submitted it last sat.. and the result is this week if im not wrong.. hahas.. deep down in my heart, i felt guilty towards ronald.. coz he really need to do lots of work.. not just his part, but for my part as well.. coz it's like, im busy with AYG, and he really didnt complain much and help mii out all the way.. den as for my part, he always need to look thru and read thru again to correct my grammar errors and all.. im really grateful to him for being my partner.. and yes, i owe him lots of drinks and starbuck it is.. hahas.. so competition, it's over (maybe).. why maybe? coz im hoping to go at least top 6..

and this week is the first week of school.. and im supposed to go back sch tmr for SIP briefing, photo taking and maybe MP briefing.. not looking forward for school yet i need to put in all effort from now on.. haiz.. it's MAJOR PROJECT for GOODNESS SAKE and i SWEAR im regretting my PROPOSAL NOW.. and i wonder who will be in my GROUP!~ i dun wanna suffer like RISK again.. once is enough.. so.. yeap.. holiday is OVER!~

feel sorrie for 2Cube.. i promised an outing with them during the holidays but i didnt manage to organise nor attend any(if there is one)... hope to organise one soon during the weekend to make up for it.. hoping and i wun promise.. coz i dun wan to break tt promise..

and here i am in Singapore alone.. coz my family go LANGKAWI without mii.. it sux coz the holiday timing is different.. haiz.. but okie la.. FREEDOM!~ can go home, can dont go home.. but then.. wen im alone.. i sleep earlier than i usually do, i go out less and i go home early.. hahas.. but i wun be spending tonite home.. hehe.. (:

okie la. i've finally update my blog.. and i finally stop my certain habit..
and i finally declare.. it's over between us.. hahas.. i manage to overcome tt habit..
and yes.. NAPFA is coming.. i dunno whether i wanna pass it or fail it.. hahas..
and as some of u may noe, i injured my leg recently..
wah.. the scar, so big!!!~ can cry okie!~ haiz..

MOST TIRING WEEK!~

2009-05-29T21:27:00.002+08:00

i didnt update for quite some time.. hahas..
it's been the most tiring week (as the blog title had stated so!~ lols)
last weekend, been chionging assignment.. haiz..
monday, i had WEM presentation.. haiz..
okie la.. nothing much to comment.. hope mr chew is nice enuf.. to give higher marks.. lols...

den chionging RISK presentation till 1am in skool..
together with atiqah and wang ying..
all of these must thanks to freaking someone.. i shall not comment much abt tt person la..
coz with my current temper, i might juz throw things at anyone at anytime.. lols..
just some few things to say..
if u have at least some sense of responsibility, u wudnt do so..
if u can even do tt to ur gd frens & classmates, im really speechless..
u have just been someone whom i wanna work with the least!!!

tuesday, risk presentation.. although difficult, it was fun afterall..
it also marks my last presentation for the sem.. i guess.. lols..
with all those late nites.. lack of sleep..
i finally give myself a good sleep on wednesday..
and at tt night, i start chionging for RISK test..
haiz.. i juz blank during the test..
no confidence in passing.. haiz..

and finally again.. i finally rest!!!
gonna have another test next week.. WEM last test..
den im sort of free from all those studying..
"sort of" hahas.. coz i still got the competition..
which im determined to do well..
and also.. i might consider joining another competition..
which is outside school competition..
im still considering it.. so i dunno yet la..

so im gonna have a very good rest this weekend..
yes yes yes.. hahas..

Personal Notes
i didnt get the chance to do so..
congrats to those tt make it to main comm..
i was glad.. coz whoever i vote for, make it to top 5..
i hope u guys will do well in this AY & JIA YOU!!~

and i finally updated my blog songs.. hahas..
lots of new and old songs..
G.O.D songs uploaded.. and many others..

just some few other things to share.. which i like it alot.. lols
"I will love you today.. and I will not wait till tmr.. coz..
for the remaining days of my life, today is the youngest.. "

G.O.D!~

2009-05-21T20:22:00.004+08:00

omg omg omg!
i was totally happie wen i saw this video..
and i was sort of in tears of joy and too happie to be true..
this just makes my day.. and im gonna use this happie mood to chiong my assignment for tmr's submission.. hahas..

it was such a nice sight to see the G.O.D members singing along wif Kim Tae Woo...
this just makes mii really really really hope tt they would reunite very soon..
they are my turning point man..
they are the ones who makes mii love korean entertainments and songs..
they are my first fav. korean band and it was a long wait..
i've loved them from late 2004.. and i've waited for their reunion for years man..
although joon is not in korea.. he still participate in the MV from LA..
btw, Joon is Yumcha in Speed Racer.. hahas!

a small corner in my heart hopes tt Yoon Kye Sang would be there..
guess he really gave up singing.. TT^TT
seeing them really makes mii remember all those old songs.. hahas..
and how they had changed.. wow wow wow wow..
i noe this is exaggerating.. but they just ROX!~
DANNY AHN, SON HO YOUNG, PARK JOON HYUNG, KIM TAE WOO & YOON KYE SANG LOVES!~
G.O.D FOREVER!~

yup!~ just to share the loves wif my sky blue frens forum peeps!~
Groove Over Dose loves!~

VOTED!!! (:

2009-05-20T21:48:00.003+08:00

i didnt update for quite some time.. lols..
y? coz i wanna let ppl see WHO to vote.. lols..
tmr is the last day of voting.. it ALMOST slipped off my mind..
and yup! (: voted! lols..

the weird thing is.. as i was voting.. somehow..
my heart beat very fast.. lols.. yeah.. it's weird..
even my hand shakes... i cant explain y.. but it's juz happen..
well.. im wondering too..

nowadays.. i've been having lack of sleep!!!
3hrs of sleep everyday.. damn it lei..
always chiong-ing 3am onwards.. den morning go school.. T^T
im really putting in lots of effort for risk...
y am i so unlucky to suffer from loss of data from my lappie..?!!!!
now i juz have to continue to use my sis-in-law's lappie for the time being..
while im waiting for my next pay to buy new lappie.. or juz continue to depend on my desktop..

i got alot of things to buy nowadays. .
more formal clothes.. new phone.. new lappie.. new shoes... RAAWWWR!
patience hari.. u'll have tat chances soon.. very sooooon..

i've been feeling tt something is missing nowadays..
y? i just feel like i have to talk to someone.. but who?
as i was browsing the phone, wen i tink i shud tok to this person..
i tot to myself, maybe i shudnt..
and to those tat i can tok to, i tot, maybe i shudnt...
WHO CAN I TOK TO? haiz..
i just wanna tok to u..

anyway... congrats to my seniors (my course first batch lei!!!) for graduating!!! hahas..
and i hope syakira is getting better for her heartbreak.. and amirah... rest well! (:

now.. i just need to surpass this week and next week..
den im back to normal..
sorrie guys for MIA-ing.. well..
this is just so expected..

on the side note.. i just need to include this conversation..
y? juz read and u might just understand the reason.. lols..
Khairul Johann says (11:26 AM):
in sch?
~*Hariyani*~ says (11:28 AM):
nope
at home
Khairul Johann says (11:28 AM):
facebooking right
~*Hariyani*~ says (11:28 AM):
nope
im doing proj
lols
Khairul Johann (11:29 AM):
dun need lar
u smart
write that in ur blog
i said u smart
~*Hariyani*~ says (11:31 AM):
lols
u say bad things more than u say good things
Khairul Johann says (11:32 AM):
u good
sweet
charming
(?????) harmful
sexy
see
i said good things
~*Hariyani*~ says (11:32 AM):
-_-''' nt sincere lols

PS try harder johann! lols!~

STUDENT ELECTION!!!

2009-05-16T21:02:00.006+08:00

okie.. thanks to SHAWN JONESY LOW.. hahas..
he's my HEAD GL in RELIEZ..
and he's running for MAIN COMM in TPSU this year..
so yup! he SERIOUSLY need ur VOTE! so vote for HIM okie? (:

the other two GLs from Reliez running for Main Comm in TPSU is Desmond Lee & Haziq..
so remember to vote for them as well..
PS there are other fellow GLs running for their own school studies club..
so check reliez blog for details alrite? (:

as for IITSC..
Desmond Yip is my fellow GL in Reliez..
and i PERSONALLY RECOMMEND tt U VOTE FOR HIM for Main Comm AS WELL!

and vote for this rookie dude aka RENO YEO WEE KIAT as well lar~
VOTE for HIM if YOU LOVE HIM.. lols
den LET HIM KNOW THAT YOU LOVE HIM.. lols
if not, he might juz THREATENED to kill HIMSELF...
or BE GAY FOR LIFE!~ lols..

as i've promised!! (:
loves.Hari \m/

very confused...

2009-05-14T12:32:00.003+08:00

i very the lazy to upload photos today...
i've been very lazy nowadays.. so pardon mii..
once i've restored all my energy back, i'll be very HIGH again..

yesterday.. hmm.. it's like a "nth-much" day to mii..
so i very quiet... very serious in ttl.. and juz dun smile or laugh like usual..
so while eating at Design school canteen yesterday... jasmine c. keep saying...
"y so emo?" "today i feel like i dunno u" "today u very different" =X
"u very random & happie go lucky.. y nowadays u change?"
even others say.. i smile less.. u____u
always HIGH & happie, why today so down... TT^TT

sth serious is happening to mii... very serious..
i feel sad all the time.. i feel confused all the time..
with other pressures like school work and all.. i feel like my life is seriously WRONG!
it initially started as a JOKE!~ y am i feeling the pressure??

to wtf guy.. i tot we choosen the path to be frens?
but y do i feel even our frenship is drifting apart?
i am trying very very hard.. and i can juz lose it at any moment..

i dunno already.. im seriously at my wits end..
i cant take anymore initiative.. and im tired.. extremely tired..
i'll just MIA from now on.. MIA for good..
afterall, few more mths and im gone for SIP..

i'll just seek solace in other things.. like stage management, music, netball etc...
u know how i was looking forward for tmr's netball practice?!
and now i juz realise i can't go tmr... WEM test.. TT^TT
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!! damn it..

i've planned my schedule.. to make mii extremely busy...
just like amirah say... being busy will make u forget things faster..
and yeah.. hopefully it works for mii.. although i doubt so..
but i will put in all the effort.. till i'm prepared and ready to say...
I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Personal Notes
wah.. election is coming up..
for TPSU, i noe who to vote already...
but for IITSC.. this is the very confusing part!!
i have sooooo many ppl tat i wanna vote... lols..
but i will only vote for 2.. and only 2... i need to be impartial and calm..
i cant believe tt i saw ppl hu cannot run still run for main comm..
good luck man.. i definitely didnt anticipate it as much as i did last year..
for those who dunno hu to vote for, can ask mii! (:

chiong chiong chiong!~

2009-05-12T02:19:00.002+08:00

this is my 2nd night chiong-ing project..
the night is the time only time i could do my project..
24 hrs = day + night..
day go skool, study and socialise..
night at home, study and do proj...
where's my sleep??? lols..

RISKS assignment topic one..
New Zealand added up together 400++ pages..
Hong Kong add up is 300++ pages..
Singapore - CAR (580) + Basel 2 (300++) + etc = 1000++ pages!!!
this is the amount that i'd read or gg to read in few days.. -_-'''
last night chiong draft 1... horrible..
now, chiong draft 2 to show in the afternoon.. i GG liao.. lols

past few day.... no msn..... no dramas......... no video..........
facebook still got abit... lols.. but really..... i didnt touch these for days!~
i felt empty somewhere.. hahas..

my busy-ness come at the right time? i dunno..
maybe, by being busy i will forget things faster?
but at the same time, i dun wan to lose the frenship between us..
maybe, i juz have to be normal.. and juz exclude those feelings..
like how i can spend 30 mins trying to sleep and tat 30mins is full of you.. lols..
knowing tat i ONLY have 3 hrs to sleep, it still take mii so long to sleep..
wen i was finally falling asleep, i was awaken by someone else's calls.. haiz..

let's just stay as frens.. and just keep myself busy...

PS: Congrats Say Haow for FINALLY passing ur DRIVING TEST..
no worries.. i wun SIT in the CAR if u r driving.. UNLESS someone there to accompany mii.. LOLS =X kidding larh!~ u owe mii & chee meng jap food!!! lalalala!~

FOOD!~ lols..

2009-05-09T16:51:00.003+08:00

my morning call of the day.. lols.. i wasnt feeling well yesterday nite la..
so i slept really early last nite.. hahas.. she's my cousin's daughter anyway... lols..
wen will i get my own NIECE / NEPHEW? lols... hopefully this year.. hahas!

let me start with the words that irritate mii yesterday morning..
hahas.. yesterday was supposed to be NO-SKOOL day for mii..
but thanks to the UP-YOUR-SERVICE workshop, i need to go back to skool.. next week as well lor!~ lols..
$20.50 for 4xUP notes, one notepad, one pen and we spent 3/4 of the time watching video..
SIAN BIG TIME!!! lols
so the irritating words are:-
UP, Basic, Expected, Desired, Another Step UP, Suprising, Unbelievable, Criminal.. lols..
ppl hu went for the course wld understand y... lols..

den wen to lab. iniitial plan was to study or do proj.. sian.. we did not achieve any of that.. lols
we go cam-whoring again! lols.. coz mii, jasmine chow and jasmine lim wore the same top! lols
sorrie Huanyi.. didnt mean to left u out! but we will go buy the same top together okie? lols..

den mii and Huanyi went to Orchard for some Korean Food! lols
here is my fav bibimpap.. unagi bibimpap! lols
den we decided to tok tok tok more..
the best place wld be wisma atria food republic.. coz i think the view at the side is nice.. hahas..
and so we did.. and we at again.. so now i noe y im not feeling so well last nite..
i think i ate too much.. lols.. hahas..
hmmm... actually..
i have lots of things to tok about.. but den...
nvm la.. juz hope for a better day now..
coz, wherever i tot of certain things or see someone,
i feel like crying..
and i think im really stress nowadays..
looking at the rate im eating now.. haiz..
hari.. u took great effort to lose weight..
r u gonna gain it all back???

PS: i went for stitching today.. at polyclinic..
coz i think at night, the wound open up.. haiz..
thanked god it's on my head.. coz i wudnt be able to see it..

07 May 2009

2009-05-07T18:31:00.004+08:00

the timing of the rain yesterady realli reflects my feelings..
maybe it's just some coincident la..
but yeah.. i tot i wld never cry... but im a gal afterall!!!

the 3 BFF are heartbroken..
[spot the 3 heartbroken PM]
amirah is heartbroken with the WTF guy..
(literally wat the F*** guy.. called by mii.. coz he's such a B%$$^$%^D)
and im heartbroken with the wtf guy also.. (it's wat the fish anyway...)
and syakira is heartbroken over her BROKEN phone.. =X
wat a luck huh? lols..

u noe how much i appreciate that today is a no skool for mii?
it's like.. i cldnt sleep yest..
and i dun have the mood to get up today..
i just feel like lying on my bed.. the whole day..
just stare and do nothing.. and i did that till 3pm..
had nose bleed today.. again...
im like bleeding like nobody business.. haiz..

finally, i told myself to get up.. shower.. and go out..
i plan to go ECP today.. to relax...
have a break.. throw my capsule bottle away...
and finally, decided to visit my ex-colleague..
i took bus 13 la.. den nearing the Marine Terrace there, my bus met with a small accident..
i was sitting at the back la.. den wen the bus brake hard, i couldnt react any faster..
so i think my head knock onto the door bell..
it hurts badly la.. i feel slightly headache.. slightly blur..

and im nt the only one hu got hurt.. others also..
some fall down and scratches their leg and many more..
the worst one was this small boy la.. i think he broke his arm or sth like tat..
he was crying badly la.. and just my weakness la.. i cant see kids or guy cry...
so i go help him la.. good thing i noe one clinic nearby..
wanna go polyclinic, but it's quite a distance..
so i brought the little boy and his grandma to the clinic..
den i just cancel my trip to ECP and took cab home..
coz i was having bad headache..

den met my sister in law at my blk lift..
i was wondering y she look at mii from head to toe la..
den she say i got some scratches on my hand..
den i say i noe.. den i told her tt got an accident juz now la..
den she say i was bleeding... for once i tot it's my nose-bleed la..
but it's not.. T^T
she was holding my head ar.. den i see BLOOD on her hand!~
yeah.. there's like a cut on my head la.. haiz..

good thing she's a nurse..
she help mii clean up the wound..
[30 mins after cleaning up.. still bleed abit]
cannot really see la.. coz it's at my hair area..
but bleeds alot.. and non-stop...
what a luck...

no mood.. den got hurt.. tmr got skool...
man... i dunno wat to say la..
i keep telling him tat im okie..
keep joking around so as to make him felt less guilty..
but then, at the same time, i was tearing badly...
i told myself that im hariyani and hariyani dun cry..
but i think i burst out lar~
wah.. this is embarassing.. dunno how to face each other now...
07 May 2009.. not a good day man..
and i just wish that today ends faster.. coz i dunno wat's gonna happen next..

and since i wasnt able to throw away the capsule bottle..
i might as well give it to the owner.. hmmm...
i'll turn it into a mission ba..
mission of finding the Capsule Letter.. lols =X

Swine Flu!~

2009-05-06T21:43:00.003+08:00

well.. i noe i didnt update for few days.. lols..
basically, the reason was either i'm pissed off or stress or somewhere tat line..

ever since the H1N1 Flu in Sg turn to Orange alert.. haiz.. we need to take temp everyday..
wat does tat reminds mii of? SARS.. yup!~
but the thermometer part... haiz.. ASK US TO BUY OURSELVES!!!!
lols.. and ppl really know how to take advantage of the demand..
they practically increase the price of the thermometer for profit!~ wt...

i heard other skool like get cheaper rates for thermometer.. den us?!~ %^$%$%$&^%
in the end, i manage to get a thermometer at $10.. haiz..
this pict show how abnormal i was wen i first use it.. lols

the FLU ALERT in skool also require us to take temperature time to time..
so we had this am & pm stickers.. interesting.. but troublesome..

the reason for this pict is to show u the stickers! the orange stickers is for am...
and the green one is for pm.. everyday change colour.. lols..
nowadays, mii and others like keep taking picts la..
fun fun fun!~ lols
and the following pict shows how i was working hard in the lab.. lols!~ =X
[like real!!! ><>

this pict was taken today.. lols.. we were doing RISK tut and WEM.. lols..
den suddenly we started to take pict..
jasmine keep stressing that it's our last year already..
haiz.. i also noe how time is running short on us.. T^T
if u r wondering wat im eating.. lols. it's juz some chocolate snack tat jasmine c bought for mii...
it's nice larh!~ but too much is a NO NO!~ lols

on a side note..
i've finally told myself to stop..
but wen i was doing so, sth just happen that tell mii to give myself another chance..
and thus, i go on..
and again, another thing juz had to happen on the same day..
and i just have to tell myself that i must stop..
and as i was avoiding tat person today..
tat person show up in front of me like nobody business..
y be cruel to mii? y be unfair to me?
it hurts.. it hurts.. it's painful..
what should i do? wat u wan mii to do?
be frank and let's be clear bout this..
i dun wan to be a mad person going from one end to another end continuously..
seriously.. what can i do?

HeartBroken...

2009-05-03T21:42:00.002+08:00

It's funny how someone can break your heart... And you can still love them with all the pieces..

Dear Heart, I met a Boy... Prepare to Shatter. XOXO

I wondered if I was making a mistake...

What happens when he's your prince charming but you're not his Cinderella??

I guess I'm a fool for thinking that you're thinking of me...

Moving on is simple... It's what you leave behind tha tmakes it so difficult...

I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles... And the one that could always brighten your day even if she couldn't brighten her own..

You can soften the blow, but you can't stop the sting...

To the world, you may be one person. But to me, you are the world...

Everytime we talk, my heart skips a beat...

Telling me to stop loving him is like telling me to stop breathing..

I know you're going to go places.. and do great things...I just wish you had taken me with you.

Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?

[PS: thanks syak.. u just make mii EMO by just watching the video... LOLS]

hahas.. i dun have much to update..
just that I had been feeling real sad & heartbroken recently..
and Syak show mii this video that makes mii EMO..
the vid link is on my PLURK!~ lols..
PLURKING is FUUUNNNNN! plurkplurkplurk`

im writing this capsule letter now..
and the one who deserve it will receive it soon.. lols
but somehow, i feel that it's abit weird.. LOLS

i hope to start changing starting from tmr..
i realli hope.. just like how i wanted to put a stop to everything..
i think it's more wise to start a new chapter of my life now..

Landscape & Nature Outing!~

2009-05-02T22:09:00.003+08:00

lols.. okie.. i had a tiring day.. but i think it's very the worth it!
somehow, i develop an interest in photography & nature!~ LOLS
it's like every little things i see, i also wanna take..
lols.. it's like my pri.sch BFF project larh!~ hahas..

i'll try to post very little today.. lols
we started from Raffle Place MRT..
down there not much larh~ but then sth interesting was gg on there.. lols
we saw a bunch of ppl filming larh~ hahas.. very the interesting..
so we tot it's was for the Vasantham channel.. no offense la.. but the majority at the BTS was indian.. so we ignore it la and continue taking picts..
den somehow, wen we were taking pict of certain leaves, someone approached us and asked us these [in malay]:-
she: u all taking picture isit?
me: yeah..
she: taking picture of what?
me: plants?
she: chey.. i tot u all taking pict of the stars..

so she told us abt the stars.. lols.. it's BOLLYWOOD stars larh!~ LOLS!
she told us there were Akshay Kumar and Sunil Shetty.. lols. i noe them but still.. not a fan..
she was telling us how much she wanted to take pict with them to the extend that she went to tok to the director and the security guys.. lols.. pls la.. we like sooo NOT interested can? LOLS
PS: sunil shetty looks better in real life larh!~ =X

den we proceed to Tanjong Pagar.. lols.. down there quite nice.. and HOT!~
walk ard alot already till we almost drained out.. lols..
HOW TO FIND 7 species in a single place? lols!~
u noe how lucky we were? we went to a Shopping Mall and saw this place.. wah.. damn nice.
but we had to climbed (sneakily) to take those nice picts..

next stop was Braddell, Toa Payoh Spring..
initially, we tot it was a wasted trip.. as we cudnt see anything nice there..
but we decided to walk further in to try our luck.. lols
yeah.. we saw a whole bunch of leaves and ferns.. many species.. lols..

the final destination was at Dhoby Ghaut.. ahas..
nt bad larh!~ but by the time we reached there, we were totally drained out, exhausted & look quite shag liao..

we decided to have a relax trip back home.. so we took bus..
hahas!~ i had fun cam-whoring CANDID picts in the bus larh!~
it was totally unglam but we had FUN laughing!~ lols..
reached SingPost, we had delifrance for dinner..
and had a wonderful chat again!~

it's like, mii & Hafizah had been best frens since pri. school.. lols..
although she was like abit tom-boyish back then & always disturb mii, we were still CLOSE till now.. we had our fair share reminiscing the past! again!~ lols..
like how we used to disturb ppl.. more like how she used to disturb mii larh!~
we recalled every single classmates of us.. and wonders where & wat they doing now.. LOLS...
let's have a reunion soon.. we are apart for 6yrs over already!~ hahas..

pictures are uploaded at FB.. i lazy to upload here.. lols
Part 1 : http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2020044&id=1462447626&l=bbd0a7a3d7
Part 2 : http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2020045&id=1462447626&l=a990d0c9da
PS: part 2 is like our selca picts la.. nature picts are part 1.. lols
for the candid picts, must wait for Hafizah to upload it.. LOLS!~

Personal Notes
i was having alot of fun today..
but despite all these, i do have sense of guilt for not studying or doing research today..
haiz.. how i wish i have more time.. lols!~
and somehow, i have weird feelings today..
it's like.. i feel that i can cry any moment..
the feelings were heartbroken, but there's nth to be heartbroken about..
i feel sad, but im enjoyin myself.. lols
WHAT IS THIS?!~
had something happen? sth tat i had not realised it yet?
OMGAWD!~
i hate this kind of confusion..
sometimes, i just hope i dun have any feelings..
so i wun feel sad, happie, in love, heartbroken..

another thing..
i dun seems to be learning my lesson..
it's like.. i noe i had experienced this kind of feelings before..
but then, even if i noe i shudnt repeat the same mistakes...
i dunno wat's the correct step that i shud take..
dear god, please enlightened mii..
i noe things happen for a reason..
and i hope u make mii strong enuf to go thru all these hardships..

Reminiscing the Past~

2009-05-02T00:04:00.004+08:00

i've been talking alot with amirah nowadays..
and she makes mii misses my past.. lols
like wat she said.. so many ppl had change.. and yet we r still the same..
is it we cant change or we refuse to change? lols...
well, watever it is.. this is who i am.. (:

im gonna upload some pictures from the past..
hahas.. according to timeline, i hope.. lols...
from white blouse & green skirt.. to yellow banana uniform.. lols..

this pict below... from top left - sec 2? yeap! lols.. *gg clockwise direction*
followed by Cik Nur's wedding, Graduation..
below is ChildAid concert and my colleague in NTUC..
some r in TP and the rest in SP.. lols

this collage pict.. lols.. it is supposed to stress on certain ppl..
for example, pheiyani.. hahas.. those hu know her, wudnt be able to recognise her in these picts..
she totally change.. hahas..
and say haow, u used to be so cute and chubby.. now young man liao hor!~
and of course mii.. hahas..
from my uber long hair, to short hair.. lols
PS: i spent 3 yrs in skool wearing LONG SLEEVES and TIES! lols
ChildAid photoshoot.. hahas.. [it's a annual concert btw]
im one of the fews hu got the original copy..
it was my first time going thru professional photo shooting..
could still remember how long it took, the super bright flashes & everything.. lols.
this was taken during the concert itself..
this was the time where i was still active in LYP band.. lols..
this is one of the few concerts where i realli enjoyed myself.. LOLS..
enjoyed disturbing ppl.. DUH!~ hahas!
tat's the past.. now back to reality.. lols..
as hinted from my last post.. i will upload the posters of SS501 now..
hahas.. amirah, i juz wanna make u JEALOUS!~ lols..
i wun upload other posters la.. to be nicer.. lols..
PS: i found my DBSK posters today!~ hahas..

i will end today post with picts of my cousin's son.. lols.
this kid arh!~ LOLS.. so small yet so naughty...
wen i was still in my dreamland, this kiddo purposely drop himself onto mii.. lols..
on my shoulder some more.. [my popular injured shoulder]
so yes.. this kid below became my wake up call this morning..
it's like.. i slept really late last nite larh!~
niwaes, isnt he very cute?!~ lols
i just love kids! =DDD
Y AM I THE YOUNGEST IN THE HOUSE?!~
now i got no1 to disturb or bullie.. lols

Something Happen to my Heart~

2009-04-30T21:53:00.006+08:00

I quoting this from Franky..
"Cinta hanyalah sebuah kata sampai seseorang datang dan memberinya arti"
Translation
"Love is just a word until some1 came in and give its meaning"

it's true i think..
to some, love is just or simply a word..
but to some, love has its own meaning and definition..
some says beautiful, some says sweet and many more..
so my dear, wat's ur definition?

it's a wonderful feeling that I dun regret experiencing..
a simple (: and Hi can make my day..
a missing sms can spoil my day..
my life is depending on all this?
Hari! go get a life?!

is it time for a change?
but do i even have the courage to make that changes?
waiting for you is like waiting for a drop of rain in a drought..
tat's just the reason y i hate 'waiting'..

okie.. im like gonna start posting picts again! hahas..
this LT head over here, called CHRISTOPHER wong, started the SPAMMING game..
as evidence, this is the pict!
and some idiot start spamming.. this was yesterday.. by today, it exceeds 200 comments...
i apologised to those who were tagged.. i noe it sucks.. to delete emails.. hahas.. i had my share!

aniwaes, anyone watched soccer last nite? hahas! I DID! I DID! lols
luckily i fall asleep after 1st half.. lols.. here's the score!
so today.. instead of spending the day studying or doing assignment... i end up cleaning the house... again, im like not doing any justice to my right shoulder.. i carried heavy newspaper and blah blah.. haiz.. wen i wanna put my salonpas on my shoulder i realised that im left with only 1 pair!!! ARGH!hahas.. i found lots of candles juz now.. so decided to play ard with it.. haiz.. am i tat bored?! LOLS

i was also clearing my CDs and posters.. i didnt noe i had TAT many posters.. lols..
and i juz wanna show my SS501 CDs.. hahas.. my LOVE!~ lols..
at night, im supposed to go out and eat arh!~ but it got cancelled at the very last min..
so, all tat i could do is EMO at home.. LOLS!~ while emo-ing, my mum's colleague came.. wah! she D*** KPO can? wanna see the kitchen, wanna see my room and all.. URGH!~ but okie larh!~ she's quite nice and she also brought lots of FRUITS~ HAHAS..

got boread again.. i went to play with my ee-yor!~ hahas.. my precious!~ LOLS
i think IM CHILDISH nowadays! hahas! *looking ard* where's the MATURED mii? hee (:

okie.. im wearing my FO shirt.. lols.. i kept wearing RED today.. this morning i was wearing the i-support shirt.. LOLS... RED is LOVES!~ <3>

im ending this post with lots of korean words that i learn today..
i put the translation there also.. go check out! hahas! =DDD

I'm currently addicted to this song title Something Happen to my Heart..
I just got it's korean lyrics juz now.. and im like so gonna romanised it tonite.. hahas.
now, i can read korean words at a faster speed liao!~
but still, lots of words, i still dun understand.. hahas...

and i finally catch up with some of the dramas tat i used to watch..
it's like ever since FO, i totally stopped watching dramas and variety show..
and im like gonna control my addiction.. coz time is running fast on mii..

Pict Blogging!~

2009-04-29T20:25:00.006+08:00

lols.. im trying this for the first time and i had lots of fun doing this..
wat to do.. had 7 hrs break juz now.. im sure damn sian to this extent one!~ hahas

this started at 9am, RISK lecture..

this point onwards, all is taken in the library.. hahas..
while trying to study!~ Hari!~ try harder! lols!~

details on how i fall, feel free to sms mii..
it's the BIGGEST laughter ever.. LOLS

레노 - 남자는 사랑을 몰라..
okie.. this part.. hahas!~ random..
the 'he' shud noe this part very well!~

so long never write korean.. so i was playing ard.. (:

hahas! apart from this.. i had an interesting incidents to share!~ lols
it's scary to mii though... i was happily sms-ing while on my way back home today..
den suddenly, i realised tat some1 had been following mii from Eunos MRT station over there la!
obviously, i cant suspect tat person straight away.. so i decided to test it..

so i U-turn while acting to happily sms-ing..
[i was bugging wk on phone.. lols.. coz i'm scared!]
i went to sweet talk to buy bubble tea.. he's still there..
so i continue walking until im nearing police station there..
and he's still behind mii.. den no choice, i had to enter the police station liao..

the policemen asked mii what can he helped mii with..
so i told him i was stalked and the man is outside..
but by the time he went out to see, he wasnt there anymore..
i wun go in details bout wat they asked mii..
but to ensure my safety, they send mii home..

the moment i reached home, my mum was dumb-founded..
coz i was accompanied by 2 policemen.. LOLS
luckily my dad not at home.. if not, worst.. he would be asking lots of questions..
wat's funnie is... my mum actually tot i did bad things.. -_-''
mum, ur level of trust arh!~ LOLS.. but good thing she didnt say much.. lols

last thing.. hahas..
this semester would really be a big challenge to mii..
choosing topic 1 was a challenge that im testing myself..
being involved in a national level competition would be another challenge to mii..
no doubt, im nervous and scared.. competing with JCs and all..
but im ON for this CHALLENGE man..
it would be a good exposure to mii and it would be sth new for mii to learn..
no matter how tough it would be, i WILL TRY my BEST and do my BEST man..
huever my partner is, let's do this together man!~
wat bothers mii is... y must i face 2 challenges at the same time.. LOLS..
but nvmm.. JIA YOU! it's the experience tat MATTERS!~

My Condolences..

2009-04-28T20:25:00.003+08:00

heys Sarina..
i think u r a strong gal..
wen u were telling us wat actually happened to ur dad..
u held firm and control ur emotions well..
i noe u held some regrets here and there but..
let bygones be bygones..
just be stronger to be a better person..

u noe we, SHAZRAs, will always be behind u supporting u..
take care man.. u have more responsibility now & take care of ur mum well..
even if ur dad is gone, im sure he will always be by ur side taking care of u..

yeap! i had this shocking new around 11pm last night by shah..
got it quite late larh!~ if not i would have gone down yesterday night itself..
but it's better late than nothing...
and im glad that Ain and Zakiah are willing to accompany mii this morning..
despite us having lectures at 9am and SIP..
this is wat i mean by strong frenship..

this is a sad occasion but somehow, there were happie side in it..
such as mii meeting Ain and Zakiah after some time..
and we go cam-whoring coz i wear TUDUNG to skool..
(guilty that im happie wen my close fren is in mourning)..
so to respect it, im gonna only post 1 pict of mii wearing tudung today..
and i wun upload it on FB.. yep! here it is..
hahas! today i realise tat..
if i dun wan to be noticed in skool, the best way is to wear tudung.. lols..
coz no1 practically recognise mii.. LOLS
until i approach them larh!~ hahas.. =DD
had fun disturbing ppl..
but still i must thanked zakiah and ain for accompanying mii straight to class..
LOLS.. it gave mii a motivation to wear tudung in the future.. LOLs

this is wat happen wen i lazy to write the long answers on the projector..
while doing WEM tut juz now..
i was looking at the window the whole day...
watching the sky getting darker & darker..
seriously, i was slightly scared larh!~..
it is the calling for EXTREMELY heavy rain..

runnig here and there the whole day..
i didnt even eat breakfast or anythhing..
was supposed to print notes at lvl 6 lab juz now..
but bcoz i saw someone, i decided to go other level labs!~
lols.. juz kidding.. i was juz shocked!
but at least im not stalking or anything.. lols!~
until like 2pm, with the persuasion from Huanyi..
i decided to grab a bite larh!~ hahas..
and tat's like my late brunch.. lols..

i was soooo tired today..
tat the moment i reach home, i decided to read more about MAS Supervisory Framework Monolouge.. hahas.. this is wat happen 30mins later i guess.. hahas..
mii with my eeyor as my pillow, earphone and the notes im reading.. LOLS.
im realllli tired!~ but im really trying my best.. haiz..
the pict is taken by my irritating 1st bro...
i guess the medication gel tat i apply on my shoulder is too cooling that it makes mii fall asleep! lols!

niwaes, i'll stop here b4 anyone complaints that i post very long again..
despite mii wanting to write MORE!~

One Sided Love..

2009-04-27T21:13:00.006+08:00

Isn't that what people say?
That one-sided love is the hardest.
Always like a master handling his puppet.
Always like a kid playing with a toy.
Love is said to be the greatest feeling.
Perfect in its own way.
Yet flawlessness doesn't exist.
So there must be an error.
The mistake of a one-sided love.

The way that love is warm, it is the same way cruel.
Though it may be a blessing.
It leaves behind a victim to suffer.
In this case, me.

You have no idea what you left me with.
All the memories you threw away, I chose to gather.
The thoughts of you walking away.
The question of why I wasn't good enough?
Self doubt which refused to fade.
Each and every tear fell for you.
I spent hours in the rain...in the dark.
The only places I could reach for comfort.
The only shadows that taught me to escape...
Just for a little while.
And all the wishes wasted on you.
The whispers I choked out into the night.
The times where I could hardly breathe...
Just because you were you.
Just because you broke into my heart.
Just because.

Well...now I'm tired.
To a certain point where I can't stand you.
So take the chains off of me.
Take all the things I've done for you.
Consider them my last.
And still you won't know how precious...
My heart was in the care of your hands.
Goodbye.

I say a one-sided love lacks faith.
That this kind of love can't clash with destiny.
And that love might mean something delicate and pretty...
In the beginning.
However, just like a rose...
Everything beautiful has to wither and die...
In the end.
And this is the conclusion of this one-sided love story.
Heavenly to tragic.

But don't people also say that, to a finish there is another start.
So hope shouldn't fail or diminish.
As these petals of pain disappear.
Love will bloom once again.
This will always and forever be fate.

I like tat poem.. lols..
just happen to read it and I think it's true!~
to mii..
no matter how many million times I told myself to stop,
I couldn't reach for the brake..
and thus, it causes an accident..
and the wound are just waiting to be healed..

the injuries could be serious.. or slightly a scratch..
no matter what, it still depends on myself whether I'm able to overcome it..
and also, it's up to me to forget about the incident..

back to reality! what can I say..
I was slightly pissed with Mr Ang larh!~
since Friday, he bugged mii over the financial status form..
i tot it was the form that was given to mii by Ms Lina..
in the end, NOPE!
it was sth that he was supposed to pass to mii..
and im supposed to pass it to the class to fill up!.
in my head.. it's like..
y ask for sth that u didnt even pass it to mii..
but im gonna forget the incident.. coz it's a small matter.. lols

secondly.. wealth management..
i tot today's WEM lab is abit too fast la!~ it's like..
so many website to go, so many printscreen..
so many things to analyse and so many criteria to think about.. LOLS
in the end, I JUZ WANNA GIVE UP OKIE! hahas..

thirdly... RISKS..
and yesh.. im taking the risk for RISKS assignment.. LOLS
i noe i took the MORE DIFFICULT topic..
but heck larh!~ im gonna chiong man!~
it's like in my class...
20 ppl took topic 2 (subprime) and 2 ppl took topic 1 (supervisory framework)
and i happen to be in the minority grp along with valerie..
ms jo did warned mii that topic 1 is tougher.. but still..
i took up the challenge..
it's like i feel like doing topic 1 from the moment i read the intro larh!~
it's not that im daring to take it or blah blah..
i juz dun like subprime larh!~ everytime, assignment kena subprime..
and last year subprime is very complex okie!~
and i tink, i will learn sth more if i took topic 1..
it's okie man! mii and vale will help each other this time round..
it's my last year, and i juz dun wan to be competitive with those taking topic 2..
but somehow, i feel guilty coz i like pangsey my grp!~
sorrie guys.. but this time, let mii follow my instinct can?
i noe u all will support mii no matter wat topic i took..
no matter wat, we can still help each other in terms of studies and theory!
we still doing WEM assignment together, remember..? lols

hmmm.. wat else is there?
nth much larh!~ since i only got 2 subject.. lols
my feelings had been in heaven and hell today..
i can be extremely happie at 1 point of time..
but can be extremely pissed at another point of time.. lols
im considered crazy already if i had laughter and tears to these emotions.. lols

oh ya!~ i juz remembered!
i was slightly late for my RISK lect juz now..
wah!~ they lock the top door! WAH!~%&%$^*%^&%
it's like i went up already & now i need to go down again.. LOLS
i juz hate STAIRS!~

and i juz cant kill my habit of calling ppl loser! lols
the moment i see my 2cube & vice versa..
LOSER word will for sure come out!~ lols..
and yeah.. i hate wtf recently!~
so if u got nth better to do, dun bug mii wif wtf...
i might juz blow off at u!~
with my current short temper, u just dun want mii to get pissed off!

talking about pissed off! lols..
someone PRACTICALLY ignored mii in ITAS today..
hmmm.. wat can i say~
juz ignore back or think of a revenge soon or watever!~

lols! im like still got one last thing to say! lols!
I DUMB DUMB go and carry the CPU with my right hand juz now!
obviously my shoulder couldnt take it!~
after tat, it got smacked by Jasmine Lim.. TWICE!~
imagine the PAIN!~ juz to eat my desert juz now can be... urgh! painful..
HEAL FASTER CAN?!

hahas! no more liao! =D

haiz...

2009-04-27T00:33:00.006+08:00

shoulder ache like crazy!
hated words like LOSER, wtf, wth and all the swear words in the WORLD!~
spend hours typing Wealth Tut answer...
had nose-bleed today..
sitted in front of the com for too long today...
chatting, waiting, playing, tagging..
and im ending my night with a HAIZZZZZ..

tat's how i feel right now..
haiz.................

i purposely write so small..
but i dunno whether it's small enuf..
im hating today and all this is thanks to 1 person..
i waited for 7 hrs for goodness sake! until my eye dried up.. until my butt hurts! watever larh!~
im predicting tat my feelings will turn 360 degree tmr! once he apologised! T^T

Doctor Check-Up for Shoulder

2009-04-26T13:08:00.002+08:00

i just came back from seeing doctor.. lols..
for my shoulder la..~ the doctor is really long-winded.. haiz..

me: Afternoon Doc.
Doc: Hi! So how can I help u miss?
me: err.. my fren fall on my shoulder yesterday and my shoulder had been aching since then...
Doc: okie.. lemme take a look at it..
(so he went to check.. OUCH! he press it hard! LOLS)
Doc: hmm.. you've strained ur shoulder... slight serious..
me: okie..
Doc: when did this happen?
me: yest evening.. while playing netball..
Doc: okie.. here are some few things that u need to do..

1) No weights on ur shoulder for at least 2 weeks..
[I'll try to put things on my left hand then.. ]
2) Avoid any straineous movement on ur right arm..
[I'll try]
3) No NETBALL for at least a month..
[NOPE! i'll still go for NETBALL! ]

after saying all those stuff and other stuff, i left his room waiting for medication..
i got 2 tube of gel to be applied on my shoulder everyday..
[HELL NO i'm gonna apply it everyday! it stinks and im not gonna stinks of medication to SKOOL! T^T]

NO NETBALL FOR 1 MONTH!
OMG! OMG! cannot lei!
i STILL need to go TRAINING!
maybe switch position la.. i take the less effort one la..
HAIZ..

Personal Notes
I've been getting anaemia recently..
it's like it's been years since i had those attacks ar..
it's really worrisome.. and i dun wanna tell my mum tat..
haiz... eat more IRON eat more IRON!
lols! NO CAPSULES for ANAEMIA ALSO!
capsules got side-effects!
JIA YOU!

Shoulder! HEAL FASTER!

my SHOULDER!~

2009-04-25T20:23:00.002+08:00

oh great.. i guess all this happens due to LACK of SLEEP? lols

before i actually tok about my shoulder.. let's mii share more about the Human Wheel Barrow Challenge.. hahas

yesh! it was a success! we manage to BREAK the world record and we also manage to CREATE new Singapore record! woohoo! hahas.. although I'm a official, im still proud that I'm part of breaking the record.. and i'm also proud to those who create the longest endurance wheel barrow record and of course the endurance wheel barrow record..

Largest Human Wheel Barrow!
hmm.. we are supposed to break the 1044 participants record and we broken it by having 1400++ participants wheel barrowing la!~ i guess great job were done in persuading frens to come and take part in this event.. hahas..

Endurance Wheel Barrow!
this is where each pair must be able to remain in the wheel barrow position as long as they could.. i was taking care of the biz grp and i think that team did well la.. their spirit were there.. he wanted to maintained till15mins and he did it.. hahas! great job! =D

after my own timing, i was supporting the cheerleading team! okie.. they were super high! even in tat position, he was able to cheer alog with their supporter! hahas!~ they aimed to be top 3.. and they got 2nd! great job! they were very determined and even after they dropped, their spirit were high and they went over to the winning team to congratulate them.. tat's a god sportmanship spirit! good job! =D

Longest Endurance Wheel Barrow!
the attempt is only for sportsman la.. hahas.. and panha and pheiyani is in it.. and personally think tat pheiyani had good spirit.. she endured the endurance part long enuf and still manage to have energy for this event ! good job! wah.. it was amazing to see all of them got up together! it was such a sight.. beautiful.. and our record touched 74 ppl! GREAT JOB! =D

only after all of these are done, den i can wheel barrowed! lols! i wheel barrowed with Hafiz, ELF member! hahas... it wasnt easy.. but i was laughing all the way larh! but it's really fun! hahas!

morning was SMU and evening was wheel barrow.. imagine i had a busy day tat day.. so i practically needed lots of energy and without mii realising it, i had 5 cans of red bull + 3 bottles of water and 1 can of mug.. wen i told my mum, i was scolded by my brother.. lols! okie.. i promise i wun drink sweet drinks for one whole month!~ LOLS..

with all the red bulls, no matter how tired i am, i cant sleep! i had sugar rush and i was practically damn high larh.. so i was chatting on msn all the way.. but while chatting.. i wasnt feeling very happie.. it's like sth happen larh and i juz got really sad and stressed up!

thanks to elijah, chee meng and wee kiat.. they like gave mii some advice and encouragement.. i was really stressed up over that matter and i really couldnt sleep thinking bout it.. and yeah.. i didnt sleep! i was awake till 1pm today.. 1.30 like tat i fall asleep infront of my computer and woke up at 4pm like tat.. den at 5pm i went for Netball game with my frens..

so i had 3 match altogether.. and at tat very last match, as i was trying to get the rebound, i slipped and fell.. and unluckily, wen i fell, one of my fren loses her balance and fall on my right shoulder! it was damn painful at first.. i dunno if i was crying larh!~ i think it's like mix with my sweat and all.. and i was sitting down enduring the pain for like 30 mins la.. right now, just to put my right arm up, i feel pain already sia.. maybe tmr i go and see doctor.. haiz..

i juz hope that it heal faster than wat i am imagining now.. it's like i got competition in July.. how to play if im injured.. wat's more, we lack of players.. heal faster heal faster!

Personal Notes
I made alot of frens during the wheel barrow event la.. i met ppl from Adventure Club and ELF.. ppl like andy, nigel, zi yang, faezah, su, nina, desiree, hafiz, zul and many more.. hahas.. they told mii to join AC la.. but sadly, im on my 3rd yr already and i dun think i can commit myself to any CCA right now.. i juz wanna graduate well now..

secondly.. to whom it may concern..
i dunno whether u r using mii or not la.. but if u are.. pls stop it..
coz i dun want to hurt myself or urself..
if u even consider mii as a fren, even juz merely a fren, i hope u can stop it..
i put so much trust in u.. and i dun wan to believe u r tat type of person..
i juz wan to have a good relationship wif u.. so please... be truthful to mii..

thirdly.. to whom it may concern 2..
the only way for u to get to noe mii better is by talking to mii..
making every effort to read my blog..
ask mii wat i like, my interest and so on..
if u r so laid back, how will things move on smoothly?
im putting in lots of effort, cant u see it? haiz..
i'll juz ignore u from now on..

SMU!~

2009-04-24T13:07:00.006+08:00

hahas!
i went to SMU today, early morning for iCREATE ar..
i'm a volunteer there.. lols!
stupid Louis put collar shirt not t-shirt la..
so i wear like bloody FORMAL!
and i seriously need a new pair of heels, coz it HURTS like mad..

so yeah.. we saw the IIT exhibition there..

conducted by a pair of alumni hu practically ignored mii wen we first met la.. lols
their names are sunny and randall.. lols
they are from CDS.. if im not wrong... lols
so initially they are like that la.. AS type.. hahas
like this! (look below.. lols)

but then, thanks to rui xie, we both start cheering.. lols..
yes.. cheering! to hype up la.. den they stunned.. lols

so.. the standard mii... i keep bugging them at their booth! lols
until.. they sian with mii.. hahas.. so they join mii happie..
yeah.. happie calling mii NOOB! lols..
juz bcoz i cannot do his signature! *thanks ar sunny!* lols
but in the end! they became FUNNY PPL! hahas..

the ppl in session 3! hahas..
some lady hu cannot take pict.. LOLS..
but still thanked her for taking it for us.. LOLS
B1 ppl..
lvl 2 ppl.. (EMO)
EVERYONE! lols!
hahas! that's all!

side track abit..
this is wee kiat(left) wif his fren..
LOLS.. i forgot his name.. oh ya..
if im not wrong it's BORIS.. lols
i had lots of fun sms-pranking him yest..
during the dinner.. lols.. LOSER lor.. haha
can see his face like abit scared liao..
den purposely ask to do part 2-4 of the prank.. lols!

i'll end off here la..
coz i need to go back skool for Human Wheel Barrow Challenge liao! lols!

Absent Minded Mii

2009-04-22T16:54:00.002+08:00

haiz.. wat can i say?
ever since school started, there had been lots of things in my mind..
even at home, i can be soooo absent-minded...
few example of my absent-mindedness would be..
1) i pour warm water instead of HOT WATER to my CUP NOODLE..
2) i keep hitting my knee on the bed..
3) many more!

soo many things that i need to think of!
my class, my family, my work!!! ARGH!

i dunno wat to say about the class la..
im in such a dilemma.. im always caught in between lecturers and my classmates...
no matter how hard i try to stretch myself, im just one!
only those who are close to mii could see the burden in my shoulder..
maybe, im not a good class rep.. haiz...
am i being bullied?! damn it!

my family.. yes, we are in the RED right now..
and i really hope ppl could at least try to do their best for each other!
relying on mii doesnt help at all! im still studying!!! damn it!

work... haiz.. if only students are good listeners! haiz...

i met my old flame recently.. haiz. by accident...
and now i kept thinking abt him..
it's weird as i was sitting next to him..
he tried to tok to mii and i tried to be as cool as possible..
but my heart was beating fast.. maybe nervous..
i dunno.. he told mii that he recently broke up wif his gal and etc..
pls la.. dun tell mii this kind of things can?? u broke my heart enuf to be telling mii this kind of things.. so wat u expect mii to do? im happie wif my current baby now.. and tat's all i want..
maybe u shud learn to appreciate and love others more than urself..
keep ur ego aside pls.. there are some few things tat u juz cant get even if u try hard..
if u get wat i mean..

let's end this post on a brighter note!
and again, it's 2Cube who brought lots of laughter to mii..
we've been meeting each other for breakfast..
we've been chatting on mass convo almost every night..
dun keep the spirit down.. this is the only time i could chat wif u guys..
once im on major project and attachment, i'll be as good as MIA..

and another thing.. wee kiat..
wah.. tat guy damn funny..
i totally love to disturb him larh..
wherever i see him in skool im sure to POKE him..
yesterday, i saw him 3 times.. the first time i saw him, i DID POKE him..
the second time i saw him, i was slightly in the bad mood, so i give it a miss..
and the third time i saw him, i was in a pissed off mood, so yeah.. i let it go..
but there wld be no next time man.. hahas..

next big thing for mii.. hmmm
1) LT 10 dinner!
2) iCREATE
3) Human Wheel Barrow Challenge! (im a official! YEAH!)
4) Mathix Dinner
5) Up Your Service Workshop!

good luck to mii with this lots of things to do..
i need to buck up in my studies...
JIA YOU! GAMBATTE! FIGHTING!

Week 0 Orientation! 2Cube!

2009-04-18T23:46:00.010+08:00

machine gun.. tat's how i describe my cough.. i've been coughing after FO.. and until now, i still haven't recover... i told myself not to push myself and dun go for week 0.. but in the end, i went.. telling myself, it might be my last week 0..

so i went.. and i was super disappointed that i got Dip IT.. most of the Mathix is in FBI and i was wondering, y cant i be there?! saded, i dragged my heavy feet and went to LT10... wen i enter LT 10, i was glad to see Qi Yang.. and thanks to him, i feel better with all the Mathix cheers.. and so the first freshie tat came in was Kah Yuan.. my class.. hahas.. i became more excited as my freshies came alot earlier than others.. hahas.. pitied qi yang as his class like got 1 guys for a very long time -and that's Jian Hui.. hahas..

things became alot better during ice breaking session.. the class bonded much faster than i tot.. wow.. all this is thanks to the power 6 that the class form.. hu practically play a fool during games..

LT cheers are boring.. but they are impt.. the whole LT wasnt cheering.. as a OL, i tried my really really best not to be demoralise.. seriously, i realli put in lots of effort.. and in the end of the day, only my class in the LT has been cheering.. and im proud of it.. by nightwalk, we were able to tok naturally.. and i realli feel like im freshie along wif them rather than im their OL.. they had been great freshies..

Day 2.. although i didnt sleep together wif them.. i wake up early (i catch 2 hrs of sleep onli!) to make sure i meet them on time.. and i did.. and im thankful to those hu stayed all the way.. and thankful to those hu came back early on the 2nd day.. wet and dry station games.. although all my stations arent tat wet, i sincerely hope my class had their fun.. i see more and more of them opening up, again, im thankful.. i've been feeling thankful to them for their cooperation.. i dun realli need to shout much.. and they wud listen to mii sincerely.. maybe bcoz they noe im coughing badly, but watever it is, im thankful.. final showdown.. seriously, i've never realli been like mascot or sth like this la.. but thanks to 2 cube for sabo-ing mii, i was selected to became the mascot of LT10.. wah.. im was superly nervous, superly unwilling but.. for 2 cube, im willing to be the mascot.. yeah! :D

here are some picts to share on Day 2! LT 10 C222 aka 2Cube
they all went back home.. and i tot the class shud like meet up early on day 3.. and come in together as a class.. i've been messaging some of them at night.. and tat night, i was realli tired practicing rowing.. my arm really ache.. i slept at 2am and woke up at 6.30am to shower in the morning..

thanks to the draggy briefing, i cldnt meet the class on time and i felt really terribly sad la.. and wen i enter the LT, i saw a handful of them only! i was shocked and scared la.. deep down i noe they wld come but then, there's this 0.0000001% of mii tat thinks maybe the whole class not coming on day 3.. but i hold on my faith in them and wait patiently.. although slightly late, they came together as a class.. except for kim yong hu overslept! lols!

PC training all boring.. and i had some unhappiness during this period.. but again, im glad that my patience had been enduring well.. i keep hoping i dun burst out la.. but 2cube never fails to make mii feel better... goodness... im very grateful that i still attend week 0 despite my unwillingness.. they are juz a bunch of wonderful ppl.. they are so sweet..

here are some of the picts.. cant upload everything.. not enuf space.. lols..
mii and clarence..
mii and elijah..
mii and jonathan..
Regatta... to fight the war.. seriously, i wanna win badly.. again, i think bcoz this might be my last rowing.. but then, realli sad tat i didnt win.. although i realli know i did my best, im still disappointed.. so who cares bout the final result.. wat matters to mii now, i'd make more frens.. wonderful freshies from LT10.. they r great ppl..

Jian Hui from C223..

saturday.. i didnt sleep the whole night.. settling so many stuff and all... then in the morning, i went to polyclinic for the usual check-up.. this time round, change doctor.. and he gave mii another appt in 3 mths time.. it was a long waiting time and by the time i reach home, it's like 1pm liao.. rested for like 1hr & ard 2pm i started toking to the 2cube guys.. i had lots of fun.. and thanks to them i learn many new UNNECESSARY things.. and i dumb enuf to ask Ernest weird questions.. thanks ar thanks.. tok for a very long time wif them.. all of them are like joker.. and i think it's a good thing.. but halfway thru it, i cld feel myself getting greedy and wanted more.. i dunno.. this kind of feelings, shudnt think of it much la.. the more i think of it, i think i will be crazy la.. right now, i juz wanna concentrate on my final yr and tat's it...

Personal Notes:
i always tot, how come ppl can cry when they are touched..
especially those who are leaving.. i had tat feeling on the 2nd day..
i was so touched by 2cube, that i was crying and smiling at the same time..
they not only gave cards/letters to their OLs, but to the other OLs in the LT..
when they gave mii the big card and the picts, i cant help it but cry..
i was too touched by them.. they are so sweet.. i really hope 2 cube can bond much better than this and became a great class.. although i tot, it wld be better to get a fun CP..
they gave mii the motivation to join next yr OLTC again.. although, months ago i've told myself, i will not join on the 3rd yr.. but now, im considering again.. but for some reasons, i might need to consider this carefully..

Sick Sick Sick

2009-04-11T02:39:00.004+08:00

okie.. this is definitely after FO effect.. lols...
as i've said in my facebook, im feeling terrible right now..
im down wif fever+sneezing+coughing....

i told i wld get better today, but nah...
it got worst so i went to see doctor and the doctor was shocked by my voice...
i told him my voice is not because of flu or sth..
but bcoz i've been shouting for 6 days... hahas..

all the medicine is so drowsy la...
i practically slept all day...
wherever im awake, i either cough like mad or sneeze like nobody business...
goodness.. i definitely cant make it for Sentosa tmr..
i dun wanna faint under the hot sun...

so, i juz finished visiting my freshies blog...
and do some linking arh...
realli love them man.. they are all so sweet...
and im glad that most of them enjoyed FO..
regardless of camp or workshop...
it's the experience tat matters... hahas..

had a horrible time chatting wif KHAIRUL JOHANN..
he kept saying tat im violent and etc..
in facebook, we chat over 47 comments la...
he siao man.. so long never chat wif him and hehad turn out like this...

thanks ahmad for trying to make mii feel better HOWEVER tat doesnt help!
how can u say i look like a mermaid... den u say my hair looks like one..
i appreciate the effort but try better next time!!!

and stupid Julian.. never stops calling mii Barney..
wherever he say mii on msn, he wud definitely disturb my name.. LOLS
but seriously arh, realli laugh out loud when i see him liking all the activities that Ahmad did..
even wen Reiney wall Ahmad, he like tat... LOLS

Today is Ernest bday and i manage to wish him Happie Birthdae online.. LOLS
today's is emylee's bday but i didnt manage to wish her on time... feel guilty now..
maybe i shud juz wish her a belated happie birthday before i go sleep...

due to sickness, i have totally no appetite la...
every food seems tasteless to mii.. every drink too..
haiz.. i wish i can recover fasting...

im like having semester briefing this coming tues..
and i have no f**king idea wat i have to do to the MP form... heck la...
i will call Jerry Ang wen i feel better...

after sem briefing, time to pack for IIT Orientation.. okie..
im super duper excited.. i wonder which course i will be taking..
i hope FBI again! coz easier mah........ hahas...

kk.. im gonna like check my facebook one last ime and then go sleep...
need to rest more...
so im off to go!

Freshmen Orientation Camp!

2009-04-09T21:14:00.002+08:00

hahas! i juz changed my layout again!
stupid layout got prob after like weeks..
so this is the temporary skin... and the dumb mii again didnt save the links....
so had to redo the links part all over again..
im sure i missed some links..
if so, tag mii and i'll add ya okie?!

so FOC was over yesterday...
i went to shower in skool...
so while waiting for the others to finish showering, i received a call from my mum to rush home...
for some private reasons la..
in the end, i didnt manage to join the empire at cpf...
i misssed both la!

okie.. the ppl from camp is definite much more than FOW...
and i realli love the peeps from RELLO...
again, im like bragging my sub-empire but sorrie la..
the time for mii to mingle in other sub-empire is realli limited..

the peeps from rello are realli high.. they r good...
most of them took the initiative from day 1.. which i like it alot la..
coz during FOC, my stamina level had depleted so much!
my ankle hurt all the way.. i had headache for all 3 days...
i manage to hold the headache until the last day where i request for panadol..
but suay, no more panadol.. since i cldnt take it anymore, i cried (okie.. im a CB)

my empire scored last for the first 2 days...
with strong determination and perseverance from Reliez, we chiong last day..
and we manage to get 3rd...
if we were given another 1 day, we CANNNNN get first..
but again, first, second, third or last doesnt matter...
wat matters was we all had a common goal and we achieve it together!

wen the FOW peeps came back, they all damn high la...
they were all like GLs... hahas!
good tat they learn sth from FO...

my sub-empire got lots of ppl la...
and there are fews tat i can remember very well..
since it will sounds bad if i cant remember some of u all names.. i will mention those tat alot ppl know la..
but my poke frens are brian, bryan freeman, clement, xuan le...
my december mates, charles and eugene...
my malay-look freshie, allison...
my pea brain freshie, Gerald...
my damn high freshies, Pam, June...
my joker freshie, Roman...
my dance partner, Ken...
and many more...

during the last day, i cried alot..
with the year 3s leaving.. and i juz cant help it la..
i cry wen i see others cry...
thinking back also, this might be my last FO...
coz im not sure if i still got the opportunity to join at the 3rd year..

realli love it wen all the Komez and Zilra gather to cheer!
cant believe it that i still remember the cheers...
and juz coincidently, today marks the 2nd year anniversary for Zilra..
some of my frens msg mii to wish mii anniversary...

"Dear Zilra-ians

I really appreciate the time we spent together 2 yrs ago..
u peeps are the first few frens tat i made in poly...
i treasure all those memories and im glad that im still frens with some of u guys!
Frens Forever!!!"

i will not upload any picts today.. coz i got no time..
im like down with fever la + slightly fluish + no voice + sore throat + cough...
wah... i feel damn terrible... no appetite to eat..
im sure many GLs are falling sick also la...
i hope all of them are recovering well...
the freshies too.. they chiong last day!
good job!

this coming saturday, there's Sentosa outing for all FO peeps..
will be playing final clash...
for more details, pls visit Reliez blog.. the links are at the side...
(damn... wet games in the sand?! ewwww)
i hope i can make it this sat la... but again.. im not confirm yet..
i have polyclinic appt on tat day.. hopefully, i can postponed it..

blogging again...

2009-04-05T01:44:00.005+08:00

okie.. it may seems like i just blog twice but the time difference is less than 6 hours.. LOLS

i wanted to sleep.. seriously...
but i happened to pass by a blog...
and i juz got caught on it...
at tat blog, it shares the beautiful love of a couple...

distant lover...
everyday showering love thru sms, letters, gifts and calls..
encouraging and supporting one another despite the distance..
it was really sweet...
live each day with hope that day will pass by very fast...
so that they could re-unite again one day...
2 years of waiting.. it's pretty long...
but they had just started the journey (of waiting)..
and they still have over 500 days to pass..

how i wish i could go thru such beautiful love story...

PS: Earlier i was waiting for my Ice Cream to melt..
but now, it'd turn watery...
i was too engrossed on that blog...
that I forget everything abt my ice cream...

Freshmen Orientation Workshop!

2009-04-04T22:35:00.008+08:00

FOW is over... now it's time for FOC..
seriously, i had lots of fun...
at the same time, the responsibility that i have is alot heavier wen i was a GL in Komez..
in Komez, i was considered a new GL..
so i make lots of mistakes and learn alot..
but in Reliez, i still learn lots of new things..

my sub-empire was called RELLO...
rello ROX! hahas..
they really go mad on the last day larh!!!
was expecting to see MARK on the 2nd day, but he didnt come back...
i was really thankful to those that came back and persevere for all the 3 days..
seriously, it's not easy.. but u all r juz the best la..
not juz my sub-empire but also RELIEZ as a whole...

i realli love all my sub-empire GLs..
i think they are very cooperative and they really help each other..
im in not position to comment abt the others in the other sub-empire la..
but i believe, everyone of us, GLs, plays a very impt role in RELIEZ...
like wat Jessy said, RELLO owned laaaaaaa!

good job to those who created the dance dance cheer and foam foam cheer..
it's damn good la...
although we learn the cheer on the first day of FOW, i think RELIEZ did well...
we r all freshies like tat, learn cheer on the first day and we perfected it as days goes by...

while im still on the topic of sub-empire...
the freshies! WOOHOO!!! hahas..
preslie, shahrir, al, charlene, sherlene, vera, yeesin, hafiza, ann, sean, kimberly, diwayne, samantha, verina & soo on... im sorrie if i didnt mention any names or spelt wrongly...
u guys came back and had contributed alot in RELLO & RELIEZ...
i sincerely thanked u guys from the bottom of my heart...
im nt really good in expressing this kind of thing...
but im seriously thankful... thanks!
im super damn happie to see u guys step up to lead... GOOD JOB!
u GUYS ROX!
hope to see u guys on FOC day 2!

no matter how tired i am..
it's realli worth it... even if i have blister on legs or other part, it's OKIE...
for u guys, anything...

RELIEZ as a whole got lots of good freshies too...
im apologies again if i cant recall much names but i love u all LOTS LOTS k???!
u all ROX! RELIEZ ROX!

i wanna thanks all the GLs who is always advicing mii, trust mii thru out...
we still have FOC and let's ROCK the CAMP!

so here's i got some picts to share... sorrie, but some pict are juz blur la..
didnt get to take much photos also.. so yup!
RELLO!
hafiza & lixing!

mii and al...
mii and shahrir..some of RELLO...

some RELLO GLs..
Alvin, Yessy, Derek, Mii, Fathin, LeeShen, Aizat, Vanessa, Nicholas, Jessy, Dinesh
RELIEZ GLs!!!
last but not least...
RELIEZ!
alright! now gonna preserve energy for FOC..
which is tons more tough than FOW..
but JIA YOU! GAMBATTE! FIGHTING!

나가 다른 사람을 행복해던 만드는 것을 가지고 있던 경우에 유감스러운.
그러나 나는 최선을 다했었다.

Personal Note:
I saw Terence while i was taking FOW pict (forming)
whenever I saw him, I cant help it but i will think of Clifton.
i dunno if anyone else felt it this way ar.. but i cant help it...
i went back home and look at the newspaper cuttings..
as much as i dun wanna remember the truth...
i must accept reality that he's no longer here...

Rely On Me

2009-03-29T23:48:00.003+08:00

rely on me...
had been a phrase that keep on playin in my head...
rely on me...
was the phrase that my bf use wherever he console mii...

i think it's just in me that i'm the type of girl who is independent on her own...
maybe bcoz i mature too fast or sth like tat...
& it causes mii to be a domineering person...
im always the one who makes the decision..
always the one who initiates...
to the point that im tired of doing so...

thinking back...
from secondary school to polytechniic...
i realise that i'd lost many things...
i lost my smile...
i lost my passion...
i lost my confidence...
and many more...
some, i know where it all begins...
but some, i dont know where it started...
even if i cld turn back time...
im not even sure whether i'll do the same thing that i'd did..
or change for a better...
i juz not sure...

everytime my bf said 'rely on me'
i took it as a joke...
and replied 'like real' or 'like i can'
but behind those words,
he was being serious and sincere...
and it makes mii feel that im egoistic...
as a guy, he definitely have pride..
but then, im just being the one ignoring it..
as his gf, tat shudnt be sth i shud do..
i realise, im nt a good gf...

instead of taking the initiative to lead...
i shud have taken the initiative to follow him...
i rely on myself too much tat i had forgotten to rely on others..
nt juz my bf... but my family & friends as well..

even after i've said these..
im now in doubt as to whether i shud start relying on other...
im scared to rely on others..
im not confident enough to rely on others...
but slowly, im losing all the energy...
slowly, im losing all the energy to make others to follow mii..
im tired... and restless..

this is wat i feel like doing now..
sky gazing...
& wondering...
can i... rely on u?

Confessions of a Shopaholic!

2009-03-28T22:45:00.006+08:00

YEAP! It's the shopaholic outing! hahas..
i just realise that i haven't pay amirah the ticket money yet.. LOLS
niwaes, the movie was realli funnie laaaaaaaa...
it's NICE and it's realli worth it to watch..

we had out LUNCH+DINNER at PASTAMANIA first...
since we came earlier than the movie itself.. LOLS..
forgot to take picts of the food.. T^T
but yeah, i LOOOOVEEEE the apple crumble..
except for the fact that syakira make some sound tt triggers my stomach ache.. LOLS
plus amirah who SHOWER mii with the crumbles..
thanks arh thanks...

realli had a fun time chatting at Pastamania..
toking abt COLD JOKES and how others are doing..
catching up with each other and everything la!
topics will never run out on us...
and we just love laughing!!!

syakira with her "no skill" of selca.. hahas..
in the cinema while waiting for the movie to start!
EXCITIIIIIIIIING!!!

the movie is soooo nice..
it has been some time that I really enjoy watching movie..
lots of laughter with a tiny bits of romance..
and they have nice soundtrack too! =D

all these are taken at some playground near Century Square...

this is really random ar..
amirah juz suddenly feels like kicking syak...
and we juz started posing for it..
i realise tat it's not easy to lift up our legs for even 3 SECONDS! lols

& lastly, if u r wondering y are there so many picts of amirah...
it's bcoz we(mii & syak) can't let here hold the camera...
apparently, her hand "shakes"...
and all the picts tat she took turn out blur.. LOLS

PS: original picts are uploaded at my facebook...

Personal Note:
syak was right... we always meet up, eat and watch movie..
how about a real outing where we go to ECP or sth to enjoy ourselves?
i shud plan one soon... lols..
and i already missed laughing alot today...
i wish everyday was like today where i can laugh ALOT!

and I'll end this post with this picture!
SARANGHAE!!!
사랑해!!!

Happie Birthdae Say Haow

2009-03-28T00:40:00.005+08:00

hahas.. yesh.. his birthday falls on the 24th but we went out on the 26th instead...
and as usually, it's mii and chee meng tagging along! hahas...
the location was at Vivo City and the birthday boy came REALLI LATE! HMPH!!! hahas

our first stop (like amazing race like tat..LOLS) was Haagen Daaz...
if u are wondering y desert first...
it's because we were worried that we will get too full for desert after dinner...
so we had the fondue! love the fruits.. but the ice cream is realli realli realli mini scoops!

since there's only 3 of us, it's realli difficult to get the shot of all of us in...
but thanks to the staff there, we manage to get one!!!

after Haagen Daaz, we dun feel hungry to eat dinner..
so we decided to blow the cake first.. LOLS...
since the open space is DARK
all our shots are super duper bright with flash...
we all look slightly toooooo white..
so here comes all the edited version.. LOLS

im nt the birthdae gal, but since i'm in the middle, i had to hold the cake...

oh man... i love this picture..
this picture looks like instax photo rite?
while the 3 of us keep rotating to take the picts...
i must comment chee meng's skill in taking pictures...
take a look below..
hahas! either his face is missing or got cut! LOLS

after getting tired of taking pictures with lots of flashes spot in our eyes,
we finally had dinner at banquet... LOLS
eat, tok, eat, tok...
we went back early coz some ppl got work the next day.. hahas..

Personal Notes:
since the 3 of us rarely brought camera to take picts
despite the numerous outing,
shud say i did really enjoy this outing..
not to say i didnt enjoy the previous outings,
but this outing is one of those that i can never forget..
My Jap camera, our Jap faces, chee meng cannot aim & etc..
I realli enjoyed the day..
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New Layout!~

2009-03-25T15:59:00.006+08:00

this time round, i've decided to change my layout to a more simpler type...
so, i hope there would be no more problems viewing the blog..
the sad thing is that, i didnt manage to save the links of my old blog..
so, I'm missing many ppl links..
whoever happen to drop by, please tag!!!

OLTC!!!!
my empire is called Mathix!
other empire are like Biox, Chemix, Physox & Lithrix...
sounds familiar? YEAH
subjects in Sec Sch... hahas..
my empire mates are Sarah, Zul, Chermaine, Evan, Alishia, Alicia, Ke Xian, Cheryl, Fang Lu, Liyana, Leslie, Jamie, Yvonne, Lin, Jun Yan, QY, Yi Cong!
(sorrie if i miss anyone but i think this is it la... hahas)
our FA are Dave (my chronos mate) & Valenisha
the prob wif my empire is, there wld never be full attendance in a single day...
for example, the last day, we were the smallest.. hahas!
but QUALITY is better than QUANTITY!
WE WON THE BEST EMPIRE!
hahas! im so HAPPIE la...
2nd time i'm in BeSt eMpIrE! hahas!
the ppl there are nice.. seriously.. i think we bonded fast..
but of course, not every empire is perfect...
some few things are realli juz TOO BAD!

the amazing race at the Pasir Ris Park is juz.. tooo much...
hahas! run run run.. till my leg ache! hahas...
mosquitoes there! blood sucker sia..
but.. it's fun!

during first day of OLTC.. haiz..
result came out!
i dint worst COZ GPA drop..
but by 0.02 onli.. hahas..
cant believe my FI got C+... i realli study la!!!
wth... but damn happie that i got 1 Z and 1 A... hahas..
the rest okie la.. hehe..
glad the result didnt affect my mood for the camp..

recently also...
OTC Refresh 2
wah.. at ECP... some sort of amazing race...
again, run run run...
wah.... i cant believe i actually dig the sand like a DOG juz to find a PIECE of paper..
but again... it's fun!

so, this week is my resting week coz i'll be busy packed next week onwards..
due to FO and then continue to Week 0..
den school reopen..
this holiday doesnt seems long AT ALL!!!

but thanked god.. i manage to go overseas for 1 week...
i went to malacca... bought lots of stuff!
FOR MYSELF.. hahas...

this is the gift that i bought for my BF...
was conned (nt literally)
but take a look at the gift first...

wondering wat this is?
it's juz a wax... made out from my hand..
(i had to suffer hot and cold repetitively!)
i had my doubt that it's my hand..
but wen i saw the ring mark...
IT IS MY HAND! hahas!

how i got conned?
well.. the banner states that double hand charge is RM20..
colour RM10 and base RM10..
total = less than RM 50
so i went to make one...
and it cost RM100!!!

how come?
double hand = double charge.
so total = 20 (double hand) + 20 (colour) + 20(base) + 20(solid fig.) + 20(lining)
the thing is, the person doesnt warm mii wen i ask the price at first, doesnt inform mii and the banner didnt states so!
but nvm la.. i think it's NICE!
moreover, IT'S RM!

and YAY! my fren Steph juz give birth recently to a baby gal!
her name is Claire... OMG! she's cute...
so they gave mii this cake voucher.. hahas

yesterday!
when i was sleeping, i somehow dreamt about how to fix my desktop...
amazing rite? hahas!
so i woke up and straight away went to try la...
OMGAWD!
it WORKS! lols!
after fixing, somehow, i was very tired...
i end up eating a tub of ice cream.. YUM YUM!
GOODNESS! IM GAINING MORE & MORE WEIGHT!!!

what's today plan?
HMMMM.. i'll be going for tuition later...
after that, go PP wif BF...
go buy wrapping paper to wrap Say Haow's present..
his bday was yest and mii and Chee meng celebrating it tmr...
after that, go dinner and ECP!
got fren chalet to go...

Right now, I'm just multi tasking...
Blogging, watching video, facebook and uploading music.
I must really REST...
can't afford to get sick..
FO coming! 7 more days!!!

What coming??
Say Haow's Bday outing
Outing wif Syak and Amirah
Reliez Refresh ++++++ outings
Freshmen Orientation
BF bday..
(yeah, bought present liao... way too advance, i know!)
Semester Briefing
Week 0
School Open!

tat's all for now!!!
i'm signing off!
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Vacation!

2009-03-02T14:37:00.007+08:00

well.. i ended the last post on New Year's Eve...
and since then, i neither update or check the blog until todae.. LOLS
i was checking out Reliez blog wen i saw the amazing blogskin...
den i decided to have a quick look at my own blog..
juz to realise that i didnt update for 3 months long...

the second half of the semester had been a hectic period..
although im only taking like 3 subjects for the second half, it's still hectic...
lots of admin work - class, projects, assignment, presentation etc...
the normal thing that poly student go thru..

so wat had happen for the past 3 mths... hmmm
1) i had a new nephew. Md Nor Faiq.
2) TP Open House
3) celebrated 2nd bro, Huanyi's and Jasmine Lim bday
4) Valentine's Day
5) Final Exam
6) OTC Refresh 01

tat's more or less stuff had passed..
yup! new nephew.. hehe..
cute rite?!

TP Open House.
I'm the IIT guide this time round.
Although it was slightly awkward at first
(coz i didnt attend the training, things went well!)

i manage to meet some frens from TK..

Birthdaes!
yup! lots of february's babies... hahas
my 2nd brother birthdae!

Jasmine Lim's and Huanyi's bday present and cake!

On Huanyi's bday
we all went to bugis...
Ice Monster and some other shop.. hahas!

additional pict.. went out at the same day... hahas!
mii and my childhood fren, Hafizah..
Frens for mo
popular triple shots of Jasmine Lim.. hehe.
she dunno my blog so she wun know i upload here one.. LOLS

as for V-day.. i dun have much photos!
havent upload yet.. but i got one pict only..

year 2 Final Exam..
it's tough! it's tough!
but i had it done with..
hopefully, i got good results!

mugging in library!

mugging at night! CHIONG ARH!mugging in LT!

cuckoo teacher.. OOPS!!! he's nice la... always make mii laugh...
Upcoming Events
1) Reliez Chalet
2) OLTC + OTC Refresh 2
3) Overseas Trip =)))
4) Say Haow's birthdae
5) FOWC
6) Week 0
7) School Reopen

definitely lots of thing coming in still..
hopes to stay healthy all the way and
hopes to enjoy every moment of my life..
Be Optimistic and Persevere!

Hariyani signing off!
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Photos! Photos! Photos!

2008-12-31T18:46:00.010+08:00

first thing first.. sorrie reliez.. i've been missing the outings!
1st outing - my cousin's wedding.. totally can't escape.. YUP!
2nd outing - i'm having ADER test at 7pm.. i tot it was 1hr.. but nope.. more than that..
3rd outing - i still got lesson till 1.45pm!!! sorrie again.. -_-'''
4th outing - countdown... i got plans with my frenss.. so sorrie.. T^T

so tat's wat happen.. so sorrie.. i juz got too many submission, test and other..
monday - ITPM submission and FI presentation.. haiz..
tuesday - ADER test.
wednesday - SA final PART 1 consultation + group proj meeting
thursday - holiday..
friday - ITPM group discussion for comm session
saturday - ITPM comm session..

1st WEEK SO HECTIC LIAO! haiz........

okie okie.. back to the main point... i couldnt upload photos from the previous post.. so sorrie.. but yeah.. i will upload all here..

first.. my b'day photos...
the celebration...
the little miss sunshine cake was the celebration at cerntury square with Jasmine Lim, Jasmine Chow, Huanyi and Joyce... isnt the cake cute?!

home celebration.. hahas.. with my nephew, faqif.. he's juz too cute.. and getting more naughty and clever now!birthday presents!
the baby eeyor is a gift from say haow.. chee meng gave mii choc!
the other bear, the brown dog, was the exchange christmas gift between mii, Huanyi and Jasmine Chow.. the white smaller dog, i bought myself one.. hahas.. collection..

yeah.. we all have the same dogs.. but diff colour.. and this is the shared b'day present from the class... SS501 photobook!!! it's nice!!!
and here are some shots that i love from the book.. i didnt take all.. hahas.. 501 picts.. all are soo good..
SS501!!!
my fav 3 member.. Kim Hyung Joon, Kim Hyun Joon, Kim Kyu Jong, respectively!
fav member! fav member! Kim Kyu Jong!!! he's CUTE and SHY..
Kim Hyung Joon.. he's juz too cool..
this necklace is designed by Kim Hyun Joong! he's sooo talented.. i want tat necklace too.. it's very nice!!! It contains his initials, treble clef and SS501~

and my fav couple! LETTUCE COUPLE! JOONGBO COUPLE..
sad that they had left.. but received good news!
in MBC Entertainment Award, they won the best couple!!! CONGRATS!
among all the picts, the left the page 501 empty.. it's for the buyer to put their own pict.. yes.. we're are ONE!

in addition to the SS501 book.. i bought the special mini album of SS501 subgroup - Triple S..
although, it's a sub group, due to Hyun Joong drama and Jung Min musical.. it's still GOOD!
here's the CD!

doesnt it looks cool?!
here's some pict in their CD booklet..

and here's the CD!
inside the pachage got 3 POSTER.. wow! it's super worth it!!!

with all the posters, picts and cds!
i'm lovin' it!!! =P

tmr is new year!!!
yeap.. counting down..

i hope the coming year would always be a better year for mii..
hope i get good intership company..
hope i can be happie always..
YEAH!!! =P
HAPPIE NEW YEAR TO ALL MY FRENS!!!

EMO NO MORE!

2008-12-26T02:06:00.002+08:00

long long update again..
hahas.. i tend to update one time rather than everyday..
actually, wat gaves mii the idea of updating is......
RELIEZ! hahas.. wanna know wat's reliez? i will tell u soon.. so relax k!

i basket toot toot.. i was supposed to update my birthday event on the previous post..
i guess i was too sad to even remember...
yup! will update it now.. yes.. it's way long time ago!~ but WHO CARES?!

my bday! 5 DEC! yesh! remember it okie!!!
it wasnt the best birthdae i ever had.. seriously.. but i think i got the best CELEBRATION...
Y?! coz...
ITPM test 2 was scheduled on that evening... how suay isnt? yes.. VERY..
so instead of CELEBRATING my BDAY, i end up spending my time MUGGING..
den.. haiz.. sad to say...
THE TEST GOT CANCELLED! again... Y?!
coz there were missing pages on the test paper (FINE!) and the teacher make the mistakes by allowing us to continue to study for ANOTHER 20 mins.. OBVIOUSLY some ppl had already seen some of the questions rite.. so yeah.. the questions spread..
IN ORDeR TO MAINTAIN INTEGRITY, POSTPONED THE TEST LOR.. haiz..
there goes my b'day.. HOWEVER...
my good frens + Joyce celebrated my b'day together at CENTURY SQUARE...
had some dinner, a surprise cake (LIL MISS SUNSHINE! yeah.. thx!) and yeah GIFT..

i noe not many ppl contribute on my BDAY present..
i can say a HANDFUL.. thx for those who contribute and those who wishes mii..
but those who don't.. i'll take it tat u dunno or u dun care..
since my bday long past, i shall share my HONEST FEELING & TOTS...
frankly, i'm SUPER DUPER DISAPPOINTED.. HATE mii if u want..
but dear classmates, tat's how i feel..
and it seriously hurts mii alot emotionally..
i spend my bday eve crying badly.. cry in front of my BF.. he consoled mii again and again.. but one tot of the class, C183, at least 3 drops of TEARS rolled down my cheeks in less than 10seconds.. tat's how HURT it was..
it's not tat i asked for return.. seriously... but..
wen my contribution is not being appreciated.. i feel that I'M NOT appreciated either..
i dun care if anyone understand mii anot la.. but seriously...
I DUN FEEL the sense of EXISTENCE... I LOVE u GUYS for all the fun and laughter..
but it cant be helped at times.. FINE.. im selfish... tat's just mii..
im not materialistic type of person.. but care & concern is wat i asked for..
IS IT TOO MUCH for mii to ask for THAT?
forget it.. let's end it here...

my FAMILY celebrate my b'day along..
my MOM bought lots of my fav food for dinner.. i had great b'day presents from my brothers, MOM, BF and frens - cheemeng, say haow.. TAT's my life.. and i'll live my llife APPRECIATING THEM..

after my bday, it was a hectic week for MUGGING.. FI and SA.. these subjects are not easy.. definitely.. i hope i get GREAT results..

after exams obviously HOLIDAY!~ tat doesnt seems like holiday..
first week i spend it on OTCW.. it's my 2nd OTCW.. frankly, ii wasnt as excited as last year.. but, the results was BETTER than wat i TOT.. here is WHY...

FIRST DAY OF OTCW!
EMPIRE NAME: Reliez (how to PRONOUNCE? it's REALLY)
FAs: Gideon (ZILRA GL in FOW), Farhan (KOMEZ FA in OTC/FO), Claudine (1st time with her)
MAN! i almost felt like im an alien there! i keep regretting COMING!
but thanked god! i had frens like DARRELL, LARRY and DARREN to begin the camp..
without them, i would have felt weird..
i dunno much ppl there.. im the only one from FBI there..
ppl from KOMEZ was Larry, Yvonne and Aizat..
ppl from ZILRA was Grace and Darrell..
ppl from IIT was Desmond.. ++ Lin, Desmond and Edwin whom i juz got to know..
and DARREN, he's really frenly to mii even the first second i saw him.. he rox!
IMAGINE how MUCH i keep thinking WHETHER i make the RIGHT CHOICE by COMING..
but claudine was rite.. being there.. IM REALLY LUCKY..
im the few lucky ones who got in & i SHUD APPRECIATE the SPOT...
it IS a PRESTIGIOUS spot..
i got to know quite a number of ppl on DAY 1.. had dinner at MAC.. and went home to pack..

SO WAT IF WE GOT 4th on the 1st day?
2 MORE DAYS!! 2 MORE DAYS!! 2 MORE DAYS!!!~

2ND day..
if i regretted coming on DAY 1, why did i come on DAY 2...?
COZ the feeling of APPRECIATIVE overwhelmed the tots of regrets..
the ppl there appreciate mii even though i keep quiet on the 1st day..
tat's wat GEL us together.. LET's STICK more so that we will NEVER SPLIT..
yesh.. got scolded on the 2nd day, AGAIN..
actually, it's more like an inspirational talk.. but IT'S WORTH IT!
I didnt get much sleep on tat day..
i slept at 5-6 am.. and woke up at 7.30 am..
but i think, IT's WORTH IT!

SO WAT IF WE GET 4th ON THE 2ND DAY?!
1 MORE DAY! 1 MORE DAY!! 1 MORE DAY!!!~

3RD DAY!
i(or shud i say the whole empire) woke up like 1 hr earlier than the rest..
Y?! = to warm the empire up.. YESH! we were FIRST to DIE at FINAL CLASH..
Y?! = coz WE DISTURB THEIR SLEEP! coz WE DAMN NOISY EARLY IN THE MORNING! coz WE INTIMIDAE THEM EARLY IN THE MORNING!
isnt it something to be proud of?! hahas! YESSSSSSAR!

I REALLY CHIONG WET GAMES... CHIONG HUNT-GRY..
yesh.. i didnt LEAD.. BUT i think I PLAY an IMPT ROLE in being a FOLLOWER..
JUMP INTO THE FOUNTAIN.. BEING OPEN all the TIME..
RUN & RUN & RUN.. pay ATTENTION to others.. listen to other .. follow others..
HAVE FUN!! tat's wat i learn in MY 2ND OTC..

result TIME..
they ANNOUNCED 3rd and 4th position first..
and I TOT my EMPIRE will take the last position..
DEEP DOWN I DUN THINK WE WOULD BE LAST..
but thinking back, during FOC, i tot komez would never got LAST..
but we got LAST.. the feeling was too impactful tat i cld still remember it till now..
I TRIED NOT TO BE CONFIDENT.. and CHOOSE to believe tat we MIGHT be LAST..
afterall, SCORES does NOT matter to mii.. it's wat i take home tat MATTERS alot..

AND GUESS WAT! WE R NOT LAST!!!
& u noe wat I LOVE MOST BOUT MY EMPIRE...
the moment we KNEW tat WE WERE TOP 2! we are already CELEBRATING..
Y?! = coz WE'VE GONE UP! SCORES is a BONUS!!!
mii, knowing tat we were top 2, i feel a sense of RELIEF.. coz my EFFORT is PAID OFF...

SO WHAT IF WE R 4th IN THE FIRST 2 DAYS?!
WE GOT FIRST IN THE END!!! YESH!!!! 1ST!!! FIRST!!!
RELIEZ is the BEST EMPIRE!!!

i guess hunt-gry helped us alot.. with lots of MAIN COMM tasks, SKOOL tasks..
WE MADE IT! huntgry realli can make HUGE DIFFERENCE in SCORES..
wat's the SECRET in HUNTGRY?!
= SQUEEZE! SQUAT! LISTEN! DO IT!

being first, HELPS us TO BOND US better..
I COULD SEE IT.. we were too happie that we dun who is it..
we are sharing the same joy, happiness and satisfaction.. U GUYS ROX!
LET's BOND better with MORE OUTING AND MORE MORE OUTINGS!
IM GREEDY and I WAN TO CREATE HISTORY..
being FIRST in OTC.. FIRST IN FOW.. and FIRST in FOC...
of course, it's not like DIE DIE must get first..
my FRESHIE is my PRIORITY..
they had FUN, tat;s all tat matter.. SCORES are juz BONUS!
i dun wan RELIEZ to die.. I WAN RELIEZ to be REMEMBERED..
y?! = BCOZ WE ARE RELIEZ!

went home, sleep..
the next day.. GOD KNOWS how painful my body is..
my whole body is ACHING..
from my feet (stand) to my knee (injured in games) to my thigh (too much running) and body ache!
GO SEE DOCTOR, 3 days MC.. but USELESS.. hahas.. coz HOLIDAY.. kekekkee..
NO VOICE ~ SORE VOICE..
however, i dun regret it...
coz.. IT'S ALL WORTH IT!!!

now time to chiong projects and enjoy life!
will update more wif pictures soon!

it's been a while...

2008-12-10T10:34:00.002+08:00

demoralise? yes.. that's how i feel now...
i shudnt bottle up my feelings...

Dear __________

i dun noe how we end up to where we are now...
i dun know what actually happen causing us to be this way...
not knowing the start and future, it drives mii crazy.. i cant stop thinking...

u noe how much i treasure those things...
u noe how much i like being around with you...
but wat had actually happen to us?
where's the mistake?

y makes mii give up the things i like?
y makes mii give up after all the sacrifices i've made?
the tears.. the sweat.. the blood.. all gone for nothing?
wat had really happened to us??

I even tried to hate u...
I even tried to hate those things...
I even tried to hate those moments...
but.. a short moment called memories makes mii miserable...

I was concerned about your work...
I was concerned about your health...
I couldn't forget your birthday...
I couldn't forget how we first met...
and how things changes our life... our interception point...

i want to continue to hate you..
i want to continue to forget you..
i want to continue to erase those memories of us...
i want to continue to................

thanks for all the moments..
but i'm gonna release it all... forget it alll..
i hope we never meet again.. although i noe the possibility is HIGH...
but yeah.. i really hope we never meet again...

apart from the above person.. another problem surrounds mii..
it has been a while since i felt this sad...
maybe bcoz i tend to keep things to myself, and it hurts mii more..

wherever i see certain ppl, wherever i think of that certain ppl...
i cant help it but to cry it out..
but even wen i was about to cry it out loud, i hold back those tears...
it's painful.. very painful...
i guess im still the weak Hariyani..

the weak Hariyani who always cry alone...
the weak Hariyani who always cry in the dark...
the weak Hariyani who always cry in her sleep...
the weak Hariyani who always cry in the bathroom...
the weak Hariyani who always cry in the heavy rain...

for a moment, just for a moment...
i had forgotten that I'm a weak gal to begin with...

does the problem lies within mii?
can i change for the better? i dunno..

i hope i have the strength to move on..
and for now, i need the strength to study..
and the strength to forget about my problems now...

SS501 PhotoBook!!!

2008-11-22T17:01:00.003+08:00

tears almost fall from my eyes!
I WANT SS501 PHOTOBOOK BADLY!
see the price and u will understand why i feel like CRYING!
it's almost SGD100!!!
I WISH I COULD BUY IT!
but haiz... now not working part time...
the photobook is filled with 501 pages + 1 DVD (Eng Sub)
DONT U THINK IT'S WORTH IT?
i realli realli wants it badly!!!
CRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

well.. apart from that...
i've been telling myself to update the blog!
but nope! i didnt..
3 more days and it's like almost 1 month i didnt update...
let's slowly update things..

i'm not posting joongbo caps anymore..
coz i totally got no time...
and sad news is...
JOONGBO couple are leaving in mid-dec!
I'M SOOOOO SAD!!!

hyun joong is filming Hana Yori Dango now..
chances of seeing him often is slim...
but i'll wait patiently for dec, when the drama is out...

i went chalet recently..
errr, last week i think...
Sat, went Escape Theme Park...
and ended up playing with 2 boys..
Pri 6.. one is andrew.. the other i forgot... keke
Sun, went Wild Wild Wet..
played wif my nieces and nephews (cousin's)
realli tired entertaining them..
but it's fun after all.. hahas
imagine..
what a tiring weekend..
and now, im tanned...

now.. project due-ing non-stop...
tests and quizes one after another..
haiz.. wat a life...

other than tat i guess nothing much already..
i wan to upload picts..
but im too tired to do so..
so spare mii this time...

at the same time
i realli hope i could grab SS501 photobook
and Triple S album...

Birthdae coming up...
Hari Raya Haji coming up...
Christmas coming up...

it's gonna be a blessed month ahead!

New Water Bottle!!!

2008-10-25T20:42:00.004+08:00

after adidas bottle.. my brother gave mii a new water bottle..hahas..
now im like water bottle collector..
my bro says it's the latest bottle in nike stores...
but.. colour... haiz...
i dun realli like the colour... but the design is nice!!!
niwaes.. shud be grateful!
last sunday...
the guys from E4Commitment [malays]
went for an Hari Raya Outing...
didnt invite mii?! hahas
so they dropped by my house...
it's great seeing ur guys again!
wah.. realli miss u all..
it's been sometime isnt it?
thee peeps are
Din, Naz fren, Ardy, Nazirul & Sobir...

goodness, i've always seen naz fren & i think we hang out few times b4...
but i still dunno his name.. gomen!

hmmm..
skool starts.. & assignments are piling...
ITPM, SA, ADER, FI & CMSK2...
thanked god no CDS...
it's gonna be a TOUGH TERM...
PERSEVERANCE & HARDWORK is needed...
so JIAYOU, GAMBATE, HWAITING to mii...
hahas..

FI is booooring!
second lecture to make mii SLEEPY!
the first was ADER btw.. hahas..
this pict shall depicts how bored i am...

after FI, thursday...
i went to my aunt's house.. hahas...
mii & my nieces, Natasha & Farisha
end up playing Monopoly... JUNIOR...hahas..
faqif caught stealing our money... lolz
naughty naughty boy...
i slack the whole FRIDAY...
hahas.. since it's no skool day to mii...
hahas.. TGIF!!!

manage to sort my notes for this semester..
take a look at it...
5 subjects = 5 colour = 9 files
sian...
on wed...
the C186 gals aka Phei's clique..
celebrate Phei's belated b'day & Tat's advance b'day..
they saw mii passing by & called mii over..
thanks guys! =P
hahas... here's some shot to share...

loOk at the mess they did!!!

to end off this post...
had a few things to share...
the difference between FATE & DESTINY..
i used to like it...
but then.. without mii realising it...
i'd forgotten bout it...
i would like to be constantly reminded...
the difference between it...

fate is like a stone being thrown to ur back...
destiny is like a stone being thrown right in front of ur face...
fate is unavoidable coz u cant see it...
BUT
destiny is unavoidable even if u see it...

last but not least...
i'll quote some words from Love Marriage...

there is a beautiful love
bcoz 2 people deeply in love are together
there is such a beautiful love
even if you're alone

there are things you can't see
bcoz it's too close to you
there are things you can finally see
after being alone

we need to be with someone
BUT
we also need a time to date ourself...

Super Long Update!

2008-10-18T20:11:00.012+08:00

hospital is soooooooooooooooo boring..

so is treatment.. so is therapy.. so is dressing...
going back and fro hospital & polyclinic is tiresome....

okie dokie... while im super bored in ward.. so i did 3D-puzzle!

damn cool la.. but it took mii 1-2 days to figure out how to start and solve it!!!
see! it's a 4-leaf clover...

den... leave all that behind for now...
before hospitalisation..
i cleared all my poly notes...
take a look at the pile of notes!!!
for semester 2.1

semester 1.1 & 1.2

on wednesday, 15 Oct..
Happie Birthday Pheiyani...
sorrie to miss it..

i went for Hari Raya outing!
with my zilra-ians + sarina + ain
zilra-ians - Zakiah, Amalina, Shah & Hanafi..
salleh cudn't make it...

last year..
it was fun but not so much ar...
coz i dunno sarina and ain..
so, there's awkwardness at first..
but this year...
the moment they stepped into my house...
all HYPER like mad...
im still waitin for picts from Shah, Hanafi & Zakiah..
hahas..
but i got 2 picts that i took from my phone onli..
so i'll post it here..
the rest i'll post it later...

by the time i reach the last house - amalina's
i was feeling sick already...
i cudnt eat anymore...
can drink only...
i even vomitted wen hailing a cab!!!
but seriously!
i had sooo much fun!!
i realli love these ppl...
let's have lunch every week okie!!
and yeah.. overseas outing too! -)

On Friday, 17 Oct..
i went for Semester Briefing in the morning...
it was really disappointing to see the number of ppl attend...
it reflects badly on the class & mii myself as a class rep...
maybe, im really not so capable after all..

i appreciate the ppl tat replied mii back for not being able to make it..
thanks.. at least i have a reason to cover u guys up...
im glad there's at least one person that was able to make it to the top 10!
congrats Alvin!
and for those who scores distinction for subjects!
congrats to u guys too!

Japan Study Trip...
wah.. it's really attractive..
seriously, i realli feel like going..
hmm.. i dunno la.. see first...
at least till i get better?
but i think going for the Cambodia trip would be more meaningful...

i've always wanted to help out needy ppl...
but cant these trip be FREE? lols

and yeah.. Peer Tutoring...
the tot of it.. there's pros & cons rite?
damn... im speechless..

school starting soon!
in fact in 2 days time!
TTTT^^TTTT

den go home...
i guess nowadays i rarely go out..
so the moment i reach out..
I KNOCK OUT!
BUT IM SUPPOSE TO MEET ERNEST, SAY HAOW & JULIAN!!

say haow gave a mii a [WAKE UP] call...
and it was too late for mii..
but i juz gotta rush there...
afterall,
Ernest will be coming later coz he finish work at 5.30pm
and Julian would be later too due to skool..

so i met Say Haow at Tampines MRT at 6pm?
we walked around.. make big rounds for nothing...
and finally decided to rest at the library...
the moment we entered the library,
Ernest called saying that he'd reached
& will be waiting at Mac..

so we quickly rush to see him..
and he itchily went out for awhile!
while waiting for him to come back TM,
we called Julian juz to find out he's at HOME...
-_-''' SLEEPING!!!

skip the details on how we manage to met Julian...
so we straight away go to Ramen Ten!!!
coz we feel like eating Jap food..hahas
i like the lady that serve us...
she shud serve at the hotel...
she's good!

[PICT ALERT]
the moment Ernest meets Julian..
man! they go crazy!
maybe once the A level ppl finish exams..
we will call Kenny & Roshan..
den the J.E.R.K will be united after 2 yrs.. hahas...

i dunno y..
but these 3 guys.. ordered the same drink..
at first, onli ernest..
but the moment the staff says tat he made a good choice...
the others tag along!!!
GREEN TEA SODA FLOAT... -_-'''
and i'm the onli one wif Mango Soda...

Ernest enjoying his drink so MUCH!

i love my set sooo much...
got my fav teriyaki chicken!
plus sushi!
the egg tofu is good too!

ernest's food...
tomyun chicken ramen...
julian's food..
i dunno wat it is... hahas..
lastly, say haow's food..
looks good rite?

posing wif food!
Julian is a bad photographer..
coz he took mii & not the food.. -_-'''
ernest tagging along!
eat eat.. laugh laugh...
my most embarassing moment is wen I'm caught being JEALOUS!
lols.. stupid Ernest.. stupid Say Haow! lols

and Julian.. just cant stop being clumsy..
how could u recall all those funny moments in Sec Sch?!!!
hahas..

A Maths class, Chemistry class, Biology class..
damn fun... those who sit at the back confirm do stupid things.. lols..
Ahmad, Ardy, Sobir, DeRen, James, Fatin, Sobir, Kelly, Franky...
we mentioned almost everyone in the class...
i realli pity the teachers.. hahas..
Than Jor Lan, Tracy Bok, Chang Ching...
cant forget those times!

this is how they look wen they're FULL! hahas

we sat too long at ramen ten & decided to go somewhere else
where all of us can tok and chat more!
lols.. i miss Julian's jokes!
so we end up at Hans... for deserts...
ernest's choc oreo mint...
my walnut mocha.. =)
julian had the same one as mii while say haow ate eclaire instead...
they ate so fast tat i didnt get the chance to take theirs..
oh ya... among the 4 of us...
no matter how slow we eat...
there's a sequence on who will finish first...

1st: Tan Say Haow
2nd: Julian Liew
3rd: Ernest Quek
4th: Hariyani Haron

lols.. im always the slowest...

the inseparable alien and duck...
talk talk talk.. den ernest took out his water bottle!
ARGH!!! i just bought tat bottle!!!
i bought it wif chee meng & say haow...
i was planning to use it wen skool open!
i havent even open it's packaging!
hahas.. wat a fate.. lolz...

julian the alien!
dumb julian likes to give ppl nicknames!
like ernest is quack, amirah is amoeba, syakira is shark & i'm BARNEY?!
lols

den going home liao!
since haow live at woodlands, must catch train early!!
this wat happen wen the gal is the onli one interested in taking photo...

julian the bad photographer again!
in train liao! hahas...
retarded ernest... lolz
we shud go out more often!!! lols
Ernest still owe mii 2 pokes!
i wish time were longer so we could laugh more..

Saturday, 18 Oct..
my cousin came to visit mii!
argh.. my latest nephew is too cute...
can u believe it.. he's less than 8 mths old!
and yet this big?!!
cute rite? i realli feel like biting his cheek!!
lols..

tat's for now..
i'll be updating further on joongbo caps? maybe..
i think since skool starting..
i might not do so already...
coz many r doing the same things as mii..
in fact, some r even faster..
see first bah.. hahas.. =P

Tragedy after Tradegy

2008-10-09T16:34:00.002+08:00

since I'm still recovering..
I'll onli post up Joongbo Caps 27 & 28 next week...

y tragedy after tragedy?
well..
im not feeling that well..
one day before Hari Raya, I was sent to hospital due to gastric ulcer...
what happen? well, i dunno...
details will be told if u ask mii personally..
grossing to share here...

Tan Tock Seng Hospital..
Ward 11B.. tat's where u can find mii..
but now.. no use liao..
im discharged..

so i spend a week there till 6 Oct...
on Medical Leave till 29 Oct...
long rite?
wat's more sad is my Hari Raya tat im sooo looking forward for..
is gone just like that..

went thru therapy all along..
didnt get to eat for 5 days!
now on porridge and medication..
every day.. saded...
with bruises on my hand..

wun be able to run for about a month..
on medication for 6 weeks..
haiz.. wat had happened to me?
im becoming more and more like a weakling...

hope i got better very fast..
will be going polyclinic tmr..
for dressing.. haiz..
i want to be healthy as before again!!!

take care guys!