LOVE & FEELINGS

im still recovering from FOWC.. hahas.. the word recovering make it sounds like wat sia.. hahas..
im still resting.. hahas.

it was really great to be a GL.. im lucky to get really enthu freshies regardless of FOW or FOC.. i think they were really great.. as a GL im really proud of them..

although i was demoralise being a GL in day 5... im glad it doesnt make any bad impact on mii much on the last day.. in fact i really chiong on the last day... i dun care if o lost my voice or anything.. haiz.. but yeah freshies.. positions does not matter.. wat really matters is tat we make the best out of FO and make it the most memorable FO in our lives.. just like how i really enjoyed my FO wen i was a freshies... being a GL is really an unforgettable memory to mii..

on the first day as a GL.. i was looking at places where i used to sit wen i was a freshie.. the sports complex [at venos area], the sports gallery [the place i always sit and eat] and see my GLs.. i told them.. i was once there... and it was a great feeling.. i make really good fren from FO.. i make lots of frens from GL.. in fact, thanks to FO, i got closer with other fellow GL from other empire.. hahas..

this is also the first time i lost my voice due to shouting.. hahas.. seriously.. i also go for 3 days camp.. so my voice limit is till there.. wen i need to survive for 6 days.. hahas.. by the 4th day.. my voice is MAN liao and i really start coughing..

i understand there are always internal conflicts here and there.. but from the bottom of my heart, i would like apologise if i hurt anyone in a way or another..

my last word for FO is.. I LOVE KOMEZ!

i really got lots of things to say.. but squeezing 6 days here seems a bit too diff for mii.. but let's recap special moments in FO...

Day 1
I got to know my sub-empire and heads.. seriously, in a point of view of a GL, it wasnt tat good.. coz seriously, i keep getting confused.. and wen i got confused and it's prolonged, i would get agitated.. but yeah.. the freshies having fun and making mii laugh really help things better.. as others had said, FOW is more difficult than FOC.. yup! tat's right.. coz we have the responsibility to make them stay.. i make new frens from my sub empire such as Jed, Joey, John, Jasmine, Elizabeth, Carson aka charles, Farah and more..

Day 2
here is wen i got to know who is enthu who is not.. those ppl who came back really make my day.. coz at least i know tat my effort or other GLs effort in day 1 makes them come back.. even if there's other reasons.. day 2 is the most fun day for mii and the freshies.. we play and chiong all the time.. hahas.. 3 cheers for komix!

good job in ur night performance.. u guys makes us proud.. and the hand sign song and all, i know it's a lil rush.. but if u r interested, we can still teach u.. hahas.. im so addictive.. coz this is the first time i got all the hand sign for the song.. and tp school song, after 2 days of memorising, it got paid off.. although i forget here and there.. hahas..

soem of the GLs gathered to make FO better.. so we all put in effort and thx to JY, we created a cute cheer.. hahas.. from there, im slowing bonding wif my empire.. i really like tat.. but guys, in life, we really got to learn to give and take.. coz, out of millions, billions, trillions of ppl out there, wat makes u think tat they will always listen to u? and sometimes, to bottle things up is better than speaking it out.. coz no matter wat.. u've created a gap between 2 ppl.. only time knows wen it will close.. but it's definitely not in 7 or 10 days time..

Day 3
huntgry.. i think u guys did great!!! moving as an empire is not an easy task.. i know lots of shouting and all.. but yeah.. we are a team! and those who got injured, rest well k.. so sorrie tat we GLs didnt take care of u well enuf.. thanks to this whole bunch group of ppl, tat i keep on stressing on safety.. it's really important.. coz if there's alot of injured ppl in an empire, it affects the empire as a whole...

time was rushing.. we were forced to ask the freshies to go off.. didnt get to say proper goodbye.. we GLs had a heart to heart tok.. im glad... but not all can speak up just like tat.. seriously.. sorrie freshies tat waited for us at CPF.. even i didnt go CPF.. coz really, there's a need to wash things..

Day 4
a new beginning for FOC.. a really bonded Komez GL come in to welcome the freshmens.. we meet at 9 am for breakfast.. hahas.. tat day, i was in charge of crowd control.. i saw afif, edwin and ivan.. hahas.. my TKians... afif is in my empire.. but den i think they were not in a very luckily situation, they didnt get to go for the camp.. wasted effort for packing, coming and queueing.. sorrie guys..

ice breaking was more organised.. less confusing.. more fun.. seriously, got lots of cute guys.. but yeah.. not meant for mii.. boohoo.. i tend to be toking more wen eating.. this is one of the habit tat i hate to change.. everyone tat knows mii knew tat I DUN TOK WEN I EAT.. but yeah.. must try and make an effort.. so yeah.. for the first time, i took so long to eat.. which really, i dun like.. and moving places wen im eating is another habit tat i dun like.. if the gap is like 1 seat away, okie la.. i will give and take.. but if it's from one corner to another, wah, im speechless.. there i had internal conflict wif someone.. coz seriously, tat's not the right way to tok! but then wen i try to think of myself, sometimes wen i tok, i always give a not happy face tat may causes other ppl to be unhappy.. so yeah.. i held myself back.. in life, we really need to learn how to control ourselves..

Day 5
got to know peng chen, keith, gary, shi hao, eugenes, douglas, kelvin, kelwin, faris, jasons and many more.. hahas.. i put lots of guys name.. gals got cosina, rachel, joanna, nicollete and many many more.. im not really good in memorising names.. but i will make an effort k!!! hahas.. a lil cock up at the teaching hand sign and school song but it was okie afterall.. great job to komez for chiong-ing so hard...

at night, i was demoralise as a GL.. i was crying since the Komix briefing.. no1 saw mii crying.. until selina came to mii.. u noe how it feels.. it's like.. i've been using myself to the max.. my voice, my strength, my energy and yet i still hear some of the GLs not doing anything.. i really wan to know who tat person is.. seriously.. coz i got hurt bcoz of tat.. it's like, i cant run long distance, but in FO, i really make an effort to run at every station.. try not to sit at the station.. try not to look tired in front of the freshies.. try to keep on cheering.. but it's really beyond my strength... but i keep pumping myself.. keep telling myself.. 6 days in a year is all i have.. this 6 days is wat i need to keep on sacrificing for myself, freshies and Komez.. but i hear there's ppl keep on not doing anything wen my energy is finishing, not cheering wen i already losing my voice and coughing.. i really understand how yunru and kandis and bumble bee felt.. they r great GLs.. of course, i think bumble bee better... i think she really make an effort to help mii out wherever i cant make it.. as for yunru and kandis, although we r not tat close... but yeah.. i think u guys r great.. seriously.. thx for all the effort in creating cheers and making mii laugh..

night performance.. was great too.. hahas.. GLs performance was too funny.. i cant stop laughing.. hahas.. really great... we did the CLASSIC CHEER! yeah!!! hahas.. great job to the cheering team.. hahas.. seriously.. wen i see Daniel using the mic to cheer, it looks like he's singing.. hahas.. im very bad.. btw, he's kandis bf.. they make a great couple..

Day 6
in life, MUST GIVE AND TAKE!!! wah... cant take it.. i bottle things up.. but if ppl mess it up, i'll definitely blow off.. tat's how I works.. just forget la.. in the end, i apologise for ANY unhappiness.. cant believe tat i GIVE IN in the end.. i really hates to do give in all the time.. but from the bottom of my heart, im willing to forget wat had happen.. if i can accept it, so can u..

really tired.. but i chiong all the way.. the lin between being a GL and participant is really thin.. coz i really wan to help them in huntgry.. but great job to Komix.. u guys learn fast!!

boohoo to yvonne for announcing the result in tat manner.. I TOT IT WAS A TRIAL!!! some more, it was too suddenly and NO DDRUMROLL? wah.. i was stun wen the result was out.. it's really unbelievable.. first time in FO i cried so much.. i noe my position tat i cant show it.. so i keep holding it.. but it just burst out wen i see others cry.. the slideshows, i cried too recalling tat times in FO.. i cried wen the year 3 tok and cried.. it was even more touching wen the freshies keep saying we love GLs.. seriously.. i keep bursting to tears.. i dun cry easily but tat day.. it was too sad.. it's not the result guys.. i swear.. the result does not matter to mii at all.. but these tears are becoz I personally think tat i didnt do much for u guys and it's already the end.. i cant turn back time.. this experience make mii realise do not take things for granted..

u freshies are great!!! whether in FOW or FOC, u guys r too good.. we GLs r proud of u guys.. bcoz of u guys, we GLs r more bonded than ever.. wen i see some of the freshies cry as we were crying, i was touched too.. not tat im sadistic.. but it's a sign tat they care.. wen we were having GL briefing, the ppl keep cheering at the gallery.. waited for us to go CPF.. hahas.. on day 3, i told Selina, i die die dun wan to go CPF.. at last i went.. and i was like the last batch to go off la.. hahas. it was too painful to leave things like tat.. so i went.. played games and tok to them.. hahas.. it was really great..

1am +++ selina waited for so long to go back wif mii.. hahas.. den keith live at simei.. so i decided to drop him off despite the not in the way thingy.. hahas.. he's my freshies.. i got the responsibility to send him off.. yea yeah.. i think he's really cute.. peng also la.. opps! someone dun get jealous or angry hor!!! =P i wan to cause trouble at times too.. lols.. im really sadistic..

another same last word... KOMEZ! u rocking rocks my socks!

sunday
went for tuition wif heavy eyes and sore throat.. den went out wif say haow.. met wif tat yi, shep, ben, john and many more at parkway.. hahas.. it was a surprise.. hahas..

now is Week 0.. need to prepare lots of things.. hahas...
i really really really hope tat I got into FBI classes.. 2ndly, i wish i could be a good OL.. and lastly, i wish i will be more bonded wif my chronos peeps.. it's not tat we r not bonded.. but i wan to be more bonded.. coz we r small u see.. so it's easier..

today, had OLTC refresh 1.. basically, pack things, tok to my mates again.. it was fun! cchronos rox! hahas.. love them.. they always take care of mii.. hahas.. meeting them again later.. hahas.. although i have a small urge to be LT head which i think i wont.. hahas.. but still i wan to be a great OL! a lil disappointed tat im not able to scared the freshmens.. hahas.. i want empire shirt.. hehes..

the FOs peeps all go crazy.. we all keep cheering FO stuff.. A C C, K-O-K-O-K-O-M-E-Z, P is for powerful, JUDO, AIKIDO, VEVEVEVEVEVENOS..

but im definitely looking forward for regatta and jam n hop! and sat outing!!! hahas... it's gonna be fun i hope..

okie.. i need to get busy... as in.. sleep.. hahas..

yesterday, i just came back from OLTC.. seriously.. im still tired.. the moment i reach home, i went to create my empire contact list den sleep.. i was so tired to the point tat i anyhow type the email.. hahas..

2nd April
report at 12pm.. i came 20 mins late but i wasnt the latest k! i was considered the earliest.. hahas.. as per normal.. ice breaking session.. my FAs are Melvin and Berlinda.. hahas.. i think they are good la.. it's my first time working with them.. hahas..

there's 5 empires.. hahas! mine is CHRONOS! the theme is age of mythology.. the other empire are ares, hemes, zephyrous and poseidon.. hahas.. im the god of time!

My group members are.. i try to remember all of them kays.. but seriously can remember those that stayed for the 3rd days.. hahas.. okie.. they are... jian hua, wee you, jia bao, dave, andy, amzhar, jeremy, cheryl, lynnete, amanda, zhi cong, christopher, bao lin, fang lu, katherine, jonathan, benjamin & ivan.. tat's the MAX i can remember! hahas.. i played lots of game! 2nd time doing flag.. hahas.. i love to disturb yuan hua (in between) and chris (topper, si niu nai)... hahas.. JIan Hua is bcoz he dun get the game.. last day den he knew.. ahas.. den christopher.. hahas.. he damn tall lor! some more, tat time he wanna say higher but he say top-per.. so funny.. and si niu nai game.. i was playing wif him la.. den his action is the ohm ohm chukky chukky action! hahas.. den chukky chukky at the nene there.. hahas.. imagine la... hahas.. everyone laugh lor.. we re-match twice also! hahas.. too funny... amzhar, zhi cong, cheryl and jeremy is my flag makers team.. while finishing them, we keep playing games.. hahas.. so im sooo much closer wif them.. lynette is my FO fellow GLs.. so of course i noe them.. benjamin is a nice guy.. andy, after this camp, my impression of him changes.. seriously, i've never like him.. coz of some reason.. but this camp changes my tots.. dave, i like the way he laugh! wen he laugh, his right shoulder will shake more vigorous den his left should stay put.. damn cute lor..

at night, night-walk.. hahas. my team is wee you, jian hua and zhi cong.. im the only gal.. hahas.. zhi cong likes to bully mii la.. hahas.. but then.. it was fun.. coz i got to noe them better.. especially jian hua.. coz i bonded wif wee you at TBC - bumble bee and zhi cong while making flag.. Darren is irritating la.. he scared mii lots of time.. and i scream like hell la.. hahas.. the eng 1 was the best station i visit..

3rd April
i hate the wet games.. especially the station outside audi.. ketchup+water is damn disgusting.. and the flour+water tat kena my eyes is damn pain... im not gonna say who did tat to mii.. but i hope tat wun happen to anyone else.. it's really pain.. i was tearing (not cry arh)! hahas.. performance nite.. i spend lots of time practicing the dance.. first time.. hahas.. it's really interesting.. hahas.. overall, the perf night was damn funny!!!

4th April
treasure hunt and final clash was fun! final clash.. haiz... i got slap on my face... WHICH STUPID ASS DUNNO HOW TO AIM AR? hahas... the water bomb went straight on my right face! damn pain.. btw, i was the lollipop holder.. so can say, im the most wet especially my leg.. the dick guy damn funny also.. hahas.. he like in front of mii like so many time... to burst my lollipop.. hahas..

my empire won the best cheer! of course la! i really like all the cheers! especially...
XI XUA XUA XI XUA XUA XI XUA XUA WOOT WOOT!
XI XUA XUA XI XUA XUA XI XUA XUA ~TONG! ~TONG! YU-TONG!
SI NIU NAI SI NIU NAI! HE NIU NAI HE NIU NAI!
HEN TUO NAI HEN TUO NAI! CHI NI NAI CHI NI NAI!
ITTE ITTE YAMETE! ITTE ITTE YAMETE! ITTE YAMETE! CHOTTO MATTE!
ITTE ITTE YAMETE! ITTE ITTE YAMETE! ITTE YAMETE! CHOTTO MATTE!
WOOOOO~

lastly.. chronos and zephyrus combine empire to be zenos! hahas.. damn cute! here's their cheer... Ghostbuster Tune
There's sth strange.. in the neighbourhood... who do u call? ZENOS!
god of GOD... we gonna shit ur pants.. who do u call? ZENOS!
we gonna blow you, blow you, blow you tenene! 4 times

5th April
komez day aka OTC refresh 3.. hahas... i didnt noe there's so many refresh.. hahas.. FOs is in 2 day time.. im super excited.. i hope i could be a good and caring GL... i really work hard to be one.. and i really wanted to be one since im a freshmen.. this is my turn to be GL! hahas..

had station games.. and then, mass GL cheer practice.. i REALLY REALLY REALLY like the classic cheer la! dun scrap it la!!! i REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted to go all out to defend the creator of the classic cheer.. seriously.. he did a great job! woohoo!

i have to rest!!! coz 6 days of FO coming up! so yeah! tat's all for now..

it's sad tat Singapore doesnt get to experience the 4 season.. if there's winter, we could learn how to ski.. hahas.. niwaes.. i just completed Spring Waltz.. as this is the last and final season of work by Director Yoon Suk Ho (he directed autumn tale, winter sonata, summer scent and spring waltz), i tot it would be a sad ending.. hahas.. he must be genuis to direct the drama of 4 seasons.. and all the drama were hits! lols.. okie... enuf of the director.. lols.. Cast is Seo Do Young (i was interested to know his drama coz of unstoppable marriage) and Daniel Henny.. lols.. it's always the male cast..

niwaes.. got to say bye bye to holiday and welcome camps and school! i'll be going for OLTC later.. freak.. i havent pack my bag.. hahas.. hope it will be a good one.. i dun have good feeling bout it.. but yeah, let's make the best out of it.. hahas..

i was browsing my workpad yesterday, saw my stuff and was looking for some other stuff.. and i end seeing photos.. i think it shud be wen i was sec 3.. i'll post it here..

this pict is big sia.. niwaes.. this was the period where I like kenny.. hahas.. long hair.. freaks..

this one also.. it was early in the morning.. i think we all just bath.. hahas.. i guess at tat time I was truly obsessed with kenny.. if only i was stronger.. hahas..

this is my classroom.. cant see much though.. i think we were celebrating lisa b'day.. so i took the chance to take photo wif piggy and inspirational bear twins.. hahas.. those were the happie times..

and last.. the unexpected picture.. i was always wondering how would Kaiwen look like now.. so here is the latest picture i could get.. this shud be in the late January this year.. i guess he lose weight.. hahas.. and more handsome now.. i noe tat almost none of my classmates had met him since graduation nite... so here u go guys.. if u miss him, go CALL him la.. hahas..

i think he is doing real well in his golf now.. hahas.. it's his interest.. im sure he will do his best.. study well too ya! FIGHTING! =P

tat's all for now.. im rushing actually hahas! just tot of updating before going for OLTC.. so i'll see u guys soon wen im back.. hehes..

hahas... i really think that im a blur cock la.. during the latin perf on the 27th, there was a hole on my shirt and i didnt realise it at all.. everyone was like saw it liao and i think they were kind enuf by not telling mii, coz i seriously think it's embarassing.. but yeah.. i really blur...

den today.. i had a cut on my middle finger.. about 1cm long.. again i didnt realise it until i saw a blood stain on a paper.. i was writing the indemnity form for OLTC.. hahas.. i saw a blood there.. den i was thinking, haiz, must be my pimple (coz i alway unknowingly scratch my pimple.. and sometimes it would bleed..) wen i watch my hand den i realise tat i got the cut.. coz it hurt wen kena water.. damn ass rite... right now, wanna type wif middle finger feels painful.. hahas..

i manage to finish snow flower.. haiz.. no impact.. i wish to see more of kibum.. but the drama makes mii think of my late grandma.. it was around 2 years ago, november 10.. the time wen she passed away... the whole incident happen damn fast..

tat morning, around 7am.. my aunt went back to her house after sleeping over.. the night before, we aunt feels tat she got no hope already.. her words makes us scared.. so i called my 1st bro to come back from overseas.. in case.. so she went back and my mum decided to sweep the floor in my grandma room.. as she was sweeping, she glanced at my grandma and she felt that her face had changed.. she wake us all up..

woken up wif a shock, i was half awake.. i sat on the bed with nothing in my mind.. it was all blank.. my mum started crying.. all of us saw she gave out the last breath.. my 1st bro den take her pulse to check... in just a moment, she was gone.. she looks like she was sleeping except for the fact that her heart is no longer breathing.. i was stunned... it was happening too fast.. my mum told mi to call my cousins and my aunt back.. the make it there in less than 5 mins.. wen they came, her body is still warm.. but it is turning cold.. slowly turning cold.. my cousins all came in crying.. especially my 2nd cousin.. he was being loud.. but my mum and my aunt keep calming him down.. the most sad person would definitely be my mum and aunt.. my mum had been taking care of her.. my aunt, who couldnt be by her side at the last moment.. if only she stay longer.. she would be able to see it.. my 2nd brother, who was working night shift, came back at 8am.. only being able to see her dead... i saw him holding her hands.. it was such a pity..

i had my regrets now.. at tat time, i was afraid of corpse.. so i didnt dare to go near her.. im always a distance away.. if only.. if only i dared myself up and stayed by her side.. i didnt even dare to bath her.. i just kissed her goodbye for the last time... den they covered her face...

i still remember.. one month later, my b'day... i cried.. coz she didnt get thhe chance to celebrate it wif mii.. at tat point, i feel that, she manage to spend everyone's birthday... except for mii.. i felt real sad.. the first Hari Raya without her.. all of us cried.. it felt different.. the house felt different.. and on tat year, we spend it at my aunt house.. not at my house..

time passes.. this year would be the 3rd year.. slowly, we felt tat she's someone near us.. i've said this before.. but i once experience hearing her cough in her room.. i got up to the room, it's empty.. tat feeling of dissappointment.. every Hari Raya, she would make the most troublesome kuih.. and im always the one helping her out.. now, i didnt get to eat it any longer.. coz the way she makes it, it very traditional.. maybe, im the only one in the house who knew how to make it.. i cut my hair after she left us.. i knew she love my long hair.. and i've always kept it for her to see.. but now, i dun think i'll ever keep a long hair..

tat's the story... experiencing death right in front of my eyes.. at time like this.. i just feel tat i wan to play wif her.. again..

last wed, while going for tuition, i waited for the bus for 30 minutes!!! den today, the same thing happen again! wat's worst, 2 bus come at the same time!!! im so pissed.. haiz..

well.. went back to sbff recenly coz of Son Ho Young b'day!
생일 주가 함니다 오빠! hahas! 요외헤, 사랑해요!
i anyhow spelt tat.. hehes.. niwaes, i really miss u MISCH! hahas.. miss u, chihiro, keyle, lin, suni and yaps! hahas... u guys had been great since 2 years ago! hahas... time flies so fast that it's been more than 2 years that i knew u guys! hahas! let's keep in grooving together! hears my love from Singapore! hahas..

27 March
latin perf! hahas! i think i misunderstand Raodah's sms.. it's shirt.. and i wore a polo shirt there.. secondly, my shirt got hole.. on the hand.. lols.. i didnt know how i got tat! it was perfectly fine wen i iron it lei.. haiz.. the perf was okie.. i just hate the fact tat it sound super weird wen i roll on the konga.. i really feel like quiting music totally.. haiz..

den fun part was after tat, of course.. hahas.. cynthia bought ice cream for mii.. den we r supposed to send the trolley tat we use at SAA.. so, on the way to the SDC, i sat on the trolley and Pheiyani had to push mii... hahas.. den we switch places.. i was eating ice cream at tat time, so i had no choice but to push the trolley on one hand.. hahas.. i keep on banging on the wall... hahas.. den at the lift, i met hakim there.. hahas.. he knew mii? lols.. we got stuck at the lift coz the trolley cant go in.. so hakim help us by pressing the lift button first.. hahas.. den wen we reach the SAA office, haiz, the office door can open one side only! so we had to carry it in.. the embarassing part was we make someone wait for us.. lols.. den phei, blur blur, push the trolley to the right and hit my leg! if course pain but yeah, it wasnt so bad.. after tat, while on the way back to the band room, we saw our pictures at the alumni column! hahas.. my face got 2! one was the alumni nite and the other was the Hady Mirza concert.. hahas..

den wen gg back home, i realise tat i didnt bring my ez link and i had only 60 coins and a $5o note.. tot of taking cab but luckily Phei brother is fetching her so i asked for help to drop mii off nearby... hahas.. i really envy phei.. her brother is always willing to fetch her.. haiz.. all my life, i've always went back alone (well at least not wif my family member).. apart from wif my bf, it's either mii alone or along wif my frens.. haiz...

den at night, i went out wif Hafizah.. hahas.. waited for her for at least 40 mins.. haiz.. tat's always happen.. if it were to be other ppl, i would have been super pissed.. lols.. while waiting for the movie, i ate the milo McFlurry.. hahas... i think it's damn nice lor.. hahas.. den we went to watch STEP UP 2.. hahs.. i dun wan to watch la.. but she insisted.. so i watch lor.. hahas.. no bad la.. i really like Moose (Adam G. Sevani).. he's super cute and funny... hahas.. he's born in 1992??! tat's young rite! hahas.. after, we simply headed home.. hahas..

28 March
i went to MOE building to take the 'O' level certificate.. hahas.. not mine.. but my bro.. hahas.. i was so lost la..the MRT area was under construction.. so i had no idea where is the place at all.. i guess i was lucky... i simply walk and walk and walk den POP! the place is beside mii! hahas.. not bad rite.. hahas.. was slightly lost at the MOE building.. didnt noe it was so strict.. just to take the cert, i need to queue to scan my IC.. hahas.. den at the cust serv, the guy tat i approach was so funny.. hahas.. mayb it's the way he converse wif mii.. lols..

29 March
went out! hahas.. i went to orchard to buy present for Say Haow.. hahas.. den met him at the Paya Lebar platform.. opps.. i was slightly late.. hehes.. den we went to buy movie tickets.. hahas.. we were cursing the woman where we bought the ticket coz we got row A.. we were like thinking, wouldnt she be confirming it wif us first? hahas.. den say haow tot row A was at the most front.. den i was having doubts coz it's not GV wat! hahas.. den i also got scared.. while waiting for cheemeng, we went to NTUC and bought sushi! hahas.. cheemeng came 30 mins later den we went to buy snacks... while we were there, costllan reached.. hahas.. we decide to prank him.. hahas.. since he dunno say haow, i asked say haow to approach costllan instead.. hahas.. costllan face was so shocked la! it was so funny.. i wish i record it! hahas..

den wen we entering rite, i was fighting wif costllan.. coz he said, y go in so early.. den i said, we sit and tok lor.. costllan give way but the place was still being cleaned up so we have to wait.. the funny thing was, the guy who tore the ticket didnt even see the ticket but knew we going to watch shutter.. hahas! den costllan blamed mii for toking so loud.. lols.. but i was thinking, the guy actually listen to our conversation lor!!! hahas.. yet he look so blur... lols..

den we decide to go in 5 mins before the movie.. hahas.. just happen tat i make eye contact wif the guy who tore the ticket... den he was pointing to the entrance indicating tat we can enter liao.. den the guys(say haow, cheemeng and costllan) laughed at mii! saying it's embarassing.. hahas.. truthfully, it's more embarassing for mii la! coz im the one who make eye contact wif him! lols.. hahas.. funny funny..

den cheemeng sat first.. hahas.. purposely.. lols.. followed by costllan.. den mii and say haow.. cheemeng den say, "costllan, u r dead!" hahas.. cheemeng knew im scared to watch horror movie... lols.. so the person tat i could attack is costllan and say haow.. costllan was like so confident tat it would not be scary.. hahas.. but then, at last, HAHAHAS, he got close his eyes!!! hahas.. i was disturbing him all along la! i keep on pulling his hand so tat will see the ghost.. hahas.. in the end, i scream the most!!! hahas.. the guys was laughing at mii all along coz i close my eyes wif my shirt.. lalalas.. in the end, the movie event became a laughing matter.. since i've watched the thai version before, i roughly noe the story line.. so i was scaring costllan all along.. hehes.. after tat i stop la.. coz i tot i was being a spoiler.. den he start bugging mii again and again and ask wat happen next.. lols.. funy funny...

after the movie.... again, mii and costllan were arguing on where to eat... lols.. i said Bedok.. den costllan accidentally said, "it would be too convenient for mii" hahas.. den i quickly change it to paya lebar.. by then, i was really determine to go there and eat!! say haow and chee meng also agrees wif mii! hahas.. but den, costllan is the only one who disagrees.. haiz.. so we were arguing till we boarded the train.. den i give way lor.. no choice.. if not later, he will go out at bedok alone.. lols.. so we ate Long John Silver.. even wen we sitting down ar, must argue.. it's like say haow and costllan sat down liao.. den cheemeng dun wan to sit beside mii and i dun wan to sit beside him (jokingly).. den i told costllan to move and sit wif cheemeng.. hahas.. at last, i end up sitting facing costllan.. isnt it a call for an argument.. lols.. so we first argue on who go order.. hahas.. i win, i didnt go and order.. say haow order for mii.. den costllan lucky lucky got the food first.. hahas.. i told him to wait for others.. hahas.. coz he ate the fries liao! hahas.. den while eating.. we keep on laughing and laughing.. few reason was costllan said 999 in malay funnily, say haow burp and cheemeng's diluted milo.. lols.. i guess we were the noisy ones there..

so we decide to walk costllan back.. coz he's rushing.. lols.. again, we keep laughing all the way.. hahas.. too high liao.. den we sat under his void deck and relax...

den all of us parted at the bedok station.. hahas.. reach home.. i realise tat i didnt log out my msn den got 5 conversation.. in the end, i tok to Ernest till quite late..

Dramas I'm currently watching
They Kiss Again (TWDrama)
Fated to Love You (TWDrama)
Magic Ring (TWDrama)
Snow Flower (KDrama)
Who Are You 두구새요 (KDrama)

I've just watched the longest 24 months (장근석 Jang Geun Seok (the cutie hottie), Danny Ahn(g.o.d)).. i watch it coz of danny.. it's his debut movie.. hahas.. it was a great movie!!!

I started to watch who are you coz of Yoon Kye Sang.. hahas.. from this movie, i personally felt tat he had improved in his acting skills tremendously since he became an actor.. i supported him wen he was a singer.. now he's a actor, must continue to support him..

Snow Flower.. hahas.. i hope to finish watching it by today.. i watch this show coz of Kim Kibum.. he was the main actor there.. i felt tat he didnt come out much la.. but his name is leading actor.. it's more about the female lead.. in fact, it's all about the female lead.. hahas.. so u guys may consider watching it! hahas.. the female lead is Go Ah Ra.. the female lead for who are you also.. hahas.. i dun really like her but okie la.. she's not bad.. she used to have scandal wif Kang In? really? lols.. must find out liao.. lols..

Tat's all for today! need to watch They Kiss Again 2 and Fated to Love You today.. hahas..

hahas.. i didnt update.. it's not tat i didnt want to update.. speaking truthfully, i've been on the blogger site since 21st of march.. but then, i didnt update.. hahas.. tat always remind mii tat i didnt shut down the com for more than 5 days! hahas..

20th March!
went for Says Haow's and Jackie birthday bbq.. it was so great coz it's like class reunion.. hahas.. i saw roshan, ken, jan, CR, phei, Jokhie, xx, hen, sh, liying, lisa, meina, julian and many more! hahas.. but den, im the only malay there la! which means tat none of the malays except mii came.. hahas.. i definitely cant missed out on Say Haow's b'day celebration.. he my best fren afterall.. although im super tired from chalet..

we den tok, play and laugh.. oh ya.. chee meng was there too.. coz he is say haow's fren mah.. so, tat day, there's 3 FBIans.. hahas.. phei, mii and him.. meet pei shan too.. hahas.. everyone tot pei shan is my fren instead of Say Khong's gf..hahas.. im glad we r still close as ever.. hehes..

i left early coz im super tired.. and early is like 11 plus la.. hahas.. i took cab wif julian and meina.. lols.. the rest of the guys went overnight cycling.. ken (im too used to calling u tat) aka kenny said tat they cycled from ECP to Tampines to Kovan to Paya Lebar den back to ECP.. hahas.. if i was there, i think i would be the most noisy person.. hahas.. i would keep on complaining.. hahas.. i still remember wen we went for overnight cycling on new year.. they wanted to go there (kovan) but i heard someone said down there is creepy.. so i dun want to go.. hahas..

niwaes, Happie Birthday Say Haow and Jackie! hahas..

23rd March
I went for a picnic with my family.. hahas.. it's super far la.. and im like one of the young adults there.. so i was teaching my niece how to cycle.. the funny thing is tat.. i ask my niece (her name is isha(in short)... she's primary one..
yani : do u noe how to cycle?
isha : i know! i know!
yani : 4 wheels or 2 wheels?
isha : 2 wheels..
yani : u sure? u go call ur mummy and ask her...
isha : (talking to her mum) mummy! i can ride 2 wheels rite?! i can rite??
yani : (almost believed she could, i went to grab my hp) she really can? lols

in the end, her mum told mii tat she cant!hahas! primary one can cheat to mii so convincingly.. hahas..

so i went to teach her using my nephews bike.. hahas.. after tat i could tuition.. i tot it was near... damn la.. i walk for 1 hr! by the time i reach there, i was sweating badly liao.. hahas.. after tat, i go home!

24 March
got OTC refresh 2! hahas.. seriously.. i was dragging my feet there coz i heard got final clash.. i seriously dun like final clash.. secondly, the shirt code was white! so if i kena water bombs, it would be obvious... hahas.. i ran alot on tat day too.. hahas.. the treasure hunt was okie la.. hahas.. final clash, KOMEZ won.. hahas.. i was the defenders all along till the last part.. i became attacker.. seriously, i cant attack at all.. but i killed 2 ppl.. and bash the lollipop.. hahas..

went for latin band.. hahas.. i go there 45 mins den go OTC again..

Mass GL cheer..i think it's okie lor.. i mean seriously.. i can memorise 6 pages in one day.. adding another 2 page, okie la.. but haiz.. the ppl dun like.. wat can i say.. haiz..

went to FBI chalet.. walau.. tell mii last minute.. also, the place so ULU and dark.. so far.. haiz.. but i like it alot.. the lecturers tat always there for mii.. ms grace, ms lina and mr sahlan, ms jo, ms sarah, mr ang, mr chew and mr toh.. hahas.. my seniors and all were there too.. hahas.. shen yang, chee seeng, beeny, jun kiat and all.. hahas.. 2 ppl per class! mii and sharon, joyce and wang yi, shitty aka zhi yuan and louise.. hahas.. no C186.. hahas.. had lots of laughter la..

den mr toh send sharon, wang yi and mii back.. hahas..

25 march
went for latin band practice yesterday.. i was 1hr late... hehes.. den went to parkway to eat ice cream.. hahas.. wif phei and say haow.. den meet ivan at SP... after tat go home! so i did nothing much yesterday..

i've been falling asleep early nowadays... im seriously tired... hahas..

26 march
have been joking around wif my bro.. hahas.. watched videos.. new idol drama - fated to love you.. hahas.. i think i will like ethan again.. hahas.. inthe drama, he is super funny... hahas.. at the same time, im still watching they kiss again.. the latest episode, is okiela.. cant wait for next episode though! 4 more days to go!!! walau.. such a long wait.. and i've decided not to sub single dad in love coz i dun think i got the time.. hahas.. so sorrie..

going for tuition later.. den go jogging wif my bro.. haiz.. jogging wif my bro is like going through 3XNapfa test.. hahas..

Coming event
27 March - Latin Perf and D&D
29 March - going out wif cheemeng, costllan, jonathan, zhi yuan, say haow, say yang..
2-4 April - OLTC
5 April - KOMEZ day
7-12 April - FOs
16-18 April - Week 0
18 April - FBI Semester Briefing

tat's all for now.. hehes..

hahas.. im back! had 3 days 2 nights chalet at Costa Sand Resort Pasir Ris.

The first day, that idiotic Dion pangsey mii and Selena at White Sands... we r suppose to meet each other at 3pm.. Call him like hell never pick.. we wasted 1 hr there.. and at last, he called mii back at 7pm.. i was super pissed wif him.. den reach at the chalet at 4pm.. hahas.. only sean and kc is inside.. hahas.. kc waas sleeping wen i reach there.. here is how he looks..

we den watch movie from KC's laptop.. hahas.. slowly, other ppl come.. den we went for dinner at BK.. hahas.. go pasir park to play playground after tat went arcade.. there, i saw some poster tat seems very familiar.. hahas.. the dance group consist of aizad, hamizan and etc.. he it is..

then... halfway during the arcade period, i went to my class chalet.. hahas.. it was nice to see all of them there.. selina accompanied mii.. i bought them some cake.. hope they like it ar.. hahas.. after sitting there and talk and eat their corn.. hahas... mii and selina head back coz she need to go back home... back at Komez chalet, we played games.. one of it is the drinking game where if u failed the mission, u have to drink.. since there's malay, they didnt drink alcohol.. we end up drinking tap water.. but seriously, it was puking.. wen u drink too much.. i had 5 full cups.. i wasnt the worst though.. hahas..

den we play Polar Bear till 7.40 am.. it was a long game.. hahas.. but we had fun!!! hahas.. i really love the game.. i den went to bath while the rest went for breakfast.. after that, i sleep till 11am.. i was sleeping on the first floor together wif bao.. hahas.. the way he sleeps is so cute..

then, i was woken up by ronald who wanted to go swimming together wif the rest.. i taupok DION!! my revenge.. hahas..

after swimming, we went for lunch at Kopitiam.. hahas.. not bad ar.. we talked talked and talked! so fun! after tat raining, so had no choice but to kill time at arcade again.. hahas.. halfway thru, i went to collect our bbq food.. i confidently tot 2 person is enuf.. so mii and din went to the carpark to collect the food.. den it was too heavy that i had to call YC.. hahas.. so guilty for disrupting his sleep.. hahas.. after tat, i went to help YC who is still learning how to blade.. basically, i have to blade together wif him.. he was using sean's blade tat do not have any breaks at the back.. hahas.. imagine, he cant blade well den having problem stopping.. so he always almost fall.. i think the most painful fall he had was wen he was trying to reach my hands but couldnt.. he then fell BOM on the floor.. hahas.. really pain sia... hahas.. he glide in between both my legs.. i cud have fall too! hahas..

fire was set up at 6pm.. the charcoal sux.. give lots of harmful smoke.. hahas.. and it was so BIG la.. so we had a hard time wif the charcoal.. but yeah.. things was fine! the food is nice.. it's still okay.. i love the satay and stingray.. hahas.. the chicken is nice too la.. but the seasoning, cant really taste.. YC volunteered to cook! since i helped him in blading.. hahas..

halfway thru, we had a KOMEZ talk.. all bout komez.. new cheer, settle the t-shirt design and identity.. wah.. so rowdy.. at tat point of time, i just felt tat i cant be bothered to talk.. hahas.. den, after eating Tat's satay (he bbq it only), we all clear up and play polar bear AGAIN!!! hahas.. this time round, i spot the POLAR BEAR EASILY.. i love the part where im the HUNTER together wif KC... hahas.. i damn TAIKO.. hehes.. i was laughing badly at tat point of time.. hehes.. and the last game was sooo irritating... YC is damn good la.. hahas.. Bao also! i think he very good in this game.. hahas.. but yar! thanks to him la! he's the hunter and he killed mii... im innocent! im a VILLAGER! hahas..

after tat, they went to play the drinking game(this time round wif alcohol)... so mii, din, emm and ella go to sleep.. hahas.. at tat point of time it was like 3.45am la.. hahas.. den was woken up 3 hours later by cedric.. i stoned all the way till they say, let's pack! hahas.. i had 6 HOURS of sleepp in TOTAL!

we took the shuttle bus and went to have breakfast wif ella and emm.. hahas.. we down there tok and tok till 12noon.. hahas.. 3 hours non stop sia.. hahas.. den go home! hahas..

so now.. i want to sleep.. den go fot Say Haow's bbq!!! hahas..

i juz came back from the airport.. hahas.. my bf went for an studies exchange programme to Japan organised by TP.. envy him.. hehes.. went out with him this afternoon den back to his home to take his luggage... we went together with his family except for his brother.. just nice in the car.. hahas..

went to buy last minute things with him.. the weather is cold so must make sure he got enuf warm clothings.. hahas.. he will be there for one week till monday.. haahss.. im gonna miss him.. we went to parkway.. eat our favourite ice cream at scoopz.. had our lunch cum dinner at pastamania.. walk walk, shopping shopping etc.. it's been some time since i had so much fun with him..

saw some few lecturers at the airport.. hahas.. i saw mr kubo.. den he was like "why are you here? u also going for the trip?" hahas.. den he tot my bf parent is my parent.. so funny.. hahas.. den i introduce my bf to him.. of course he dun recognise him coz he dun teach him in skool.. hahas.. just hope that he would have a safe journey there.. and wun get sick..

after sending him off.. i went off with his parent for dinner den his dad drop mii home.. hahas.. it's so awkward without him around...

so now at home.. subbing single dad in love ep 2... hope to finish it by tmr morning before i went to chalet.. coz once i go chalet, i probably got no time to subbed for the whole week...

3 days away.. i was thinking if i shud bring my lappie along.. probably got no time to play just like wat sean said.. hmmm.. i finally settled the food stuff earlier.. thanked god they could deliver them coz if not i have to buy the stuff.. hahas.. im slightly lazy to do so though.. haha..

today i started watching 1% of anything.. and it seems fun to mii.. but i dun think i would be able to finish watching it.. so i will just have to wait till friday to watch it.. lalalala..

tat's all for today.. will update again on friday.. haahs..
PS Happie Birthdae Nicholas Lim and belated birthdae to ChuHui.. i forgot to post it tat time..

had a late nite yesterday.. i end up waking up at 12.30.. had a bad scolding from my mum and decided to quickly go out to avoid her.. so i end going for my tuition early.. hahas..

lesson starts ar 2pm ad i had a tough time with my student today.. i dun think she was in the mood to study today.. so wat happen earlier was, she end up giving up on every question i gave her.. it happen again and again till i lost my temper.. of course i dun beat her or anything.. but my heart boils.. then things change when i told her to do her own work while i went to solve other questions.. haiz.. and tat's the start of my bad mood..

den i decide to walk home.. imagine, i walked from marine terrace den back home.. as i was dragging my feet without thinking the route home, i end up walking to the same route that i used to walk to wen going back home from TKSS.. slowly, all those memories came back.. memories of mii and 카이웬.. althought we are not together, but we always meet each other at one point.. i still remember, how badly i wanted to avoid him coz he pissed mii off during bio lesson.. hahas.. den suddenly he appeared in front of mii.. i broke the silence of the road.. i mean.. the place doesnt have many ppl walking by... it is eerrily quiet.. and thanks to him, i screamed out loud.. slowly, i enjoyed walking home with him.. one thing that i do not understand at all is, how can a person go missing just like that? he is the only classmate of mine that i had not been in contact with since the release of O level results.. i missed all the times i spend with him.. wherever i take bus home from parkway, i always make a wish, as the bus passed by the busstop we use to sit and talk, hoping that i would see him.. but then again, i was thinking.. even if i saw him again, what can i say? that i missed him? that will just make him laugh like hell.. he is a mischievious guy who jokes on everything.. but it is really a fact.. i really missed him.. my bf always talked bout him, wondering the same thing as mii bout how he missed toking to 카이웬.. but then... haiz.. i got nothing to say bout him man.. i just wished that, one day, along the road of my life, i would meet him again.. i wanna share my life story with him.. i got alot of things to say, alot of things to joke about, alot of things..

den, as i was passing by his house, i also passed by 단's house... he is the exact duplicate of 카이웬... although i dun tok much with him.. but he make a deep impression in mii.. but got to admit, i've stopped thinking of him for quite some time.. but 카이웬 is definitely someone i would tot of wherever i tot of TKSS, bus-stop and biology.. and the moments that i tot of him is almost 4 times a week.. i just hope that one day, i will be able to forget 카이웬... really..

hahas.. im going jogging later.. hahas.. i gain lots of weight sia.. the last time i checked my weight was during sec 4.. the moment i took my weight, during my weight management session, i was shocked like hell.. hahas.. i really really must lost weight.. must make an effort! T^T i wanna lose weight!!!!!

im meeting say haow later.. for dinner.. today is definitely not a day for mii to stay at home.. coz my mum at home.. i dun wan to get nag by her.. really got to avoid home..

im really really looking forward to komez chalet! hahas.. i wonder how would it be like.. hahas.. the last time i really enjoy my chalet was the ZILRA chalet.. hahas.. althought half of them got drunk till the point they bug us in the room, but it was fun wen we fraktisya them! hahas.. and i wonder how would C183 chalet be.. since i've never been to their chalets before.. hahas.. so exciting..

today is They Kiss Again 2 Episode 14!!! cant wait to watch.. i think it would be sad since ZS is going to server the army.. haiz... and exciting also as ZS is finally graduating!!! hahas.. wah.. i really cant wait to watch it.. i cant watch it from my laptop, coz it lag like hell.. so i need to wait tmr morning then can watch.. but then, it would be without sub.. i wanna share joe cheng picts here.. i got lots of his.. isnt he a hottie? hahas


that's all for now.. im signing off! `Hariyani

okies... im blogging again..

so far, this holiday, i've been spending my time on the net...
hahas.. no wonder i always got scolded by my parents...

Whenever I'm at home, I would either watch tv or surf the net..
Wat's up on TV?
Few shows that I'm watching.. Kawin muda, Rahasia Hati, Manjalara etc... all these are not to be missed malay dramas.. If I have the vid source, i would sub it..
Den... What's up on the net?
Well.. again.. dramas.. hahas.. my kdramas, jdramas and twdramas are all waiting for mii to watch.. hahas.. recently watched the time between dog and wolf by lee jun ki.. it rocks! i really love it... and love lee jun ki in short hair.. hahas..


My current craze now is kpop songs.. Eru, Super Junior, DBSK, Lee Seung Gi.. these are the current.. hahas.. okie la.. Indo songs too.. thanks to my bro that psycho mii.. hahas.. Joe Cheng also.. I think he's super handsome.. =P

I'm intending to sub Single Dad In Love because of Shin Dong.. hahas.. im still considering.. It's seriously not easy to sub.. for example, i took more than an hour to sub a 4 mins videos(which is TKA cut scene)...

Aparts from net.. i had lots of gathering.. like recently, i had KOMEZ outing.. hahas.. it is the first outing that i had participated since OTC.. lots of things clashing.. in fact, it did clashes but i was lucky enuf to get morning flight to Sg.. hahas.. I went overseas.. I went to Korea and M'sia.. I really love Korea.. I don't mind going there alot of time.. Maybe i should just migrate there.. hahas.. And m'sia.. yup! to visit some of my relatives.. hahas..

Exam results.. okie.. no need to tok la.. hahas.. im glad i passed CORE.. even though i got C+, my overall GPA is not affected.. i got above 3 of course.. hahas.. and again, im jealous of Ernest Quek results.. he did alot better than previously la! i just dun seem to be able to win him! I wanna go to Engineering Course!!! hahas..

Coming events, 3 chalet clashes!!! Komez, C183 and LYP.. damn.. den on the 20th, got Say Haow's BBQ.. it would tiring.. For Komez Chalet, I'm one of the organiser.. hahas.. as usual, FOOD! hahas.. For C183 chalet, im so sorrie guys.. just happen to clash and i cant help out.. So i will drop by for you bbq ks? For LYP, sorrie.. out of my reach.. cant attend..

waiting for OLTC.. the dates are not confirm.. if it just happen to fall on the week after next week, im dead.. coz i got OTC meeting on mon and tues and performance on thurs..

FOs coming out.. im looking forward to it.. and again, i was thinking, i might be dead by 6 days.. hahas..

tat's all for now.. =p

Finally a new layout.. new cbox.. but i think the rest are mostly the same la..

hahas.. similarities between the first and second blog is it's both pink and black..
i personally like both colours...

and yeah.. i hope to update my blog often.. but not tat easy.. hahas..
but i will try.. hahas..
i'm managing lots of things la.. so cant really make it.. hahas..

see you guys around..

i tot this is really cute.. ahas.. ive been addicting to they kiss again 2.. that i cant stop waiting for the episode every week.. hahas.. last time i dun really like joe cheng.. i tot he has a weird look.. despite of his height and more.. i think he's cute, handsome, cool and many more.. hahas.. i've fallen for him! haha..

here is something interesting i found.. credit goes to iswakfansubs.blogspot.com

soooo many things had happen past few days.. hahas..

i cant remember much.. but juz gonna highlights important dates.. hahas..

after my OTC camp.. i had been busy going back and fro to studio.. lots of things to settle due to Baba 'H'andBells show.. since iim the Stage Manager.. for example.. damien had been calling mii back to pack things up.. create my mic plan.. and things to bring plan.. den my christmas.. tat doesnt seems like christmas.. hahas. i spend the whole day in studio.. packing things.. at first by myself.. den jokhie and phei was forced to help out.. hahas. really grateful to them.. coz im scared to be in studio alone.. hahas.

26 dec.. the show itself.. i slept super late la.. and only had like few hours of sleep.. den was rushing to Arts House aka the Old Parliament House.. this year, our concert is there.. hmmm.. okok la.. the place is cool.. the price is cool too.. hahas. i was busy the whole day.. and only manage to eat at 4pm.. BUT! wen i went to take my food.. i realise tat ppl HAD EATEN my food.. i got pissed.. coz i really wanted to eat my Fillet O Fish.. haiz.. so i juz went out of the backstage and sit in the toilet.. for like 5 mins.. den go and have fresh air.. come back... do my wiring work again.. tat seems to be so messy! den damien ask mii whether i had taken my lunch.. the time is like so late how to take.. den say haow told him tat i hd not eaten.. he was aasking mii y.. and den he told mii to go and eat.. i juz make the excuse tat i had no mood to eat lor.. den he say.. "Yep! u r right.. wen u r doing work, u wudnt have the mood or appetite to eat" truthfully.. i was god damn HUNGRY! but i was juz to pissed tat i dun care how hungry i was.. coz the day before i had McSpicy Meal and tat's all!

so continue do work.. den MIC-ing again.. while being super busy, i was seriously like mechanic la.. i was lying down doing my wire.. den simon approach mii.. he ask mii to eat.. i told him later.. den he was like.. u will get injured in empty stomach... den i told him my fav sentence.. "law of inertia.. once u start, u cant stop!" hahas.. so i continue doing my work.. den he continue asking mii.. till the point where he asked mii, "Mee Goreng or Chicken Rice?" i answered chicken rice.. less than 5 mins later.. he came wif my food.. hahas.. den no choice, faster finish up my marking and go eat..

how's the show.. the perf was okie.. BUT! i had a tough time! the sound system is not there.. ppl cant hear a thing.. i was like.. HEY! im on my max! the higher i go, feedback! or crack on the speaker... and i wasted alot of time! TX to the spoiled 24 channel mixer! really.. the fault doesnt lies on mii.. DI box.. i brought the DI box on my own accord.. no1 instruct mii to do so.. arent u suppose to be thankful instead or angry wif mi for not bringing enuf.. OMG! at tat point of time.. my regrets is there.. everyone was asking mii, y i didnt play.. instead im stuck at the mixer.. it's not tat i dun like.. haiz.. how shud i say.. im nt gd enuf man.. to be handling this alone.. haiz.. forget it.. Overall, i was happie.. coz i had ppl like jokhie, cheemeng, say haow, biingyih, simin, chuanrui to make my day.. we had lots of laughter together.. and tat's unforgettable.. definitely.. den i wen out.. go home in the morning.. hahas.. i went to CR house.. plan to stay there ovrnight.. but better not la.. den moment i went to take a cab, my bf called and ask where i was.. den we end up walking late at night.. till morning.. den reach home at 7am.. sleep.. woke up at 12 which is late la.. den go to skool to do PBL 2.. hahas..

den i continue rotting at home.. sleep all the time.. hahas.. im restoring my energy.. my phone had been in silent mode for 3 days now.. i tend to either dun reply sms or reply late.. had lots of missed call also.. most from my bf.. i think he was wondering how come i didnt reply his calls and smses.. hahas.. he called my house but no use la.. i pulled the wire line out.. it's been some time since i actually shut myself down.. my msn may be on but im not there.. im seriously rotting myself.. hahas.. but yeah.. weekend is not the time to rot! coz im finishing my report.. everything.. tat i didnt do.. including PBL 1! im seriously behind time! the funny thing is tat.. wherever my mum called my phone, i wil definitely realise it.. hahas.. dunno y la.. TIME FLIES! she's coming back in 2 weeks.. luckily it falls on the weekend.. hahas..

one concert down. i tot it's over.. i juz an email tat says SingBells Fest 08.. wah.. more coming in i think.. since we had invested in HandBells.. he being promoting it alot.. i feel like playign handbells too! hahas.. but again.. in the proposal.. Im the STAGE MANAGER! can i be the musician instead.. coz.. during the show.. i was thinking, if im a musician, if im there playing, my worriesis tat will i play a good show.. but wen im the stage manager, ui had too many worries the whole day.. afterall.. since i've experienced both side.. both had it's pros and cons.. den again, i ask myself, y do i even learn music at the first place.. im not gd at it.. i realise it recently wen i play the drumset after so long.. my rhythm arent there any longer.. i guess... percussion is the only thing left for mii.. haiz..

tat's it for now.. i need to go cook! mum! faster come back.. im sick of worrying for the household.. makes mii dun wan to get married. haiz!

heys! today is Hari Ray Haji! yeah.. my mum called this morning and ask... in Singapore Hari Raya already arh? hahas! i guess she had lost track of time.. hahas..

nothing special about this year raya.. my mum not around so no cooking! y i didnt cook? coz i just came back from CAMP! hahas! im so excited to share things from my camp!

Orientation Training Camp 07/08!
the theme of the camp is movies! and my group name is Komez which means Comedy!
other groups are Phantos(fantasies), Venos(Romance), Fyrtho(Horror) and Accion(action) if im not wrong la.. hahas.. this camp is the most unforgetable camp coz THIS IS THE FIRST TIME my GRP got 2nd! hahas! KOKOKO-M-KOKO-MEZ! woohoo! im super happie.. and the scary thing is.. there's 6 FBIs in the camp.. mii, jolene, alex, ernie, shawn and zhihao... i think ar.. and all of us r in each grp except for Phantos.. and Phantos got 1st.. izit the suay of FBI.. i dunno.. u can think bout it.. hahas... zhihao, shawn and alex in fyrtho, jolene in venos and ernie in accion.. hahas..

there's 50 over ppl there.. and so sorrie.. i couldnt remember all the names.. actually, i didnt make the effort to do so also.. y? i dunno.. i juz cant remember.. hahas.. this time, most are experienced GLs.. im considered freshies there.. hahas.. got ppl like bumblebee, selina, jiayu, xiang, rachel, lynette, denise, nigel, justin, sean, eugene, ronald(bestGL), shah, show, ella and trust mii many more! hahas.. the one tat i said r those tat close to mii.. hehes! and of course some others.. wat are we? *CAULI* cai.. i dunno how to spell but it supposed to be a white veg.. OOOOOOOoooo! caulicai! caulicai! OOOOO00000! hahas! our FAs are... woohoo.. best FAs i ever had.. Tat Yi and Farhan.. hmm.. i knew them since FO and seriously, they dun look frenly at all.. especially TAT YI! hahas.. he said it himself tat he looks scary but he's very friendly! hahas! yup! tatyi is nice! FARHAN! woohoo! he's super cool la.. he's super duper nice and funny! hahas.. he drank our sweat! hahas! i drank other's sweat too.. it sux but i dun regret it! hahas!!

hmmm.. day 1.. we had ice breaking even before we were asked to do so.. we had frenship games and lots of games too.. den eat den station games! wet weather games tat turn out to be the TP places la.. hahas.. we were very bad.. haiz.. we dun like to cheer so much.. we arent united at all.. and we had a long scolding from our FAs.. BUT!

day 2!
WE WERE SUPER DUPER HIGH! we cheer and cheer non stop.. we shout and shout non stop.. and the FAs loves us NON STOP! hahas! we took their scoldings CONSTRUCTIVELY! and we changed immediately the next day.. we sleep quite late also.. hahas.. we had the not-so scary nightwalk.. mayb, it's my scene tat wasnt scary! hahas! and it was SHAWN's b'day! hahas.. Shawn Ng.. i didnt noe he was the programmer for this year OTC.. hahas.. worst still! i didnt expect him to be there at all la.. and it's definitely a pleasant surprise.. the sad thingwas tat.. early tat morning, i saw SHAWN, i wanted to say happie birthday.. i manage to say HI only... coz my other ZILRA mates tat im not so close wif suddenly JUMP from behind and i was left alone.. the feeling was so sad.. but thx god.. i manage to meet him in one of the station games and my bday present to him is tat, my whole team sang HAPPIE BIRTHDAY to him.. i hope he like it.. he was shock i guess.. coz first, he didnt noe i knew and secondly, he didnt expect the whole komez to sing happie birthday to him! of course we dun play games all day.. we did the school songs too! hahas.. we had to memorize the school song.. hahas.. and also remember the TP song Sign Language.. FINALLY! i've mastered all! hahas.. woohoo! Nightwalk.. i got the IT skool.. hahas.. imagine.. so scary eh! hahas.. but the scene was okok la.. it was SHAWN ng.. AGAIN! hahas.. and him alone! hahas.. we had lots of ghost stories.. and this ghost stories make mii scared.. the most is the FARID's story.. now i know 2 TP place tat's scary.. the track and squash court.. some other stories is quite interesting also.. we had a long series of ghost stories tat was really interesting to the point tat i neglect my duty to do solve the murder case.. i didnt expect the story to be TAT complicated.. coz the first vid, the main was TOM! but in the end vid, which is the answer of who is the murderer, the MAIN is SHAWN! hahas.. and i saw lizhen act as the news broadcaster.. hahas.. den we had a late night debrief.. a debrief tat ends at 1am like tat.. i was sleepign halfway.. sorrie..i didnt mean to sleep but i was freaking tired tat day...i ran alot... ran in the rain and many more. haha.. lols..

day 3.. we had station games.. err.. carnival games.. hahas.. this is wen Farhan drank our sweat.. i drank first.. den some too.. den farhan drank the rest.. hahas.. den first time i jump into the skool fountain.. it's super dirty! opps.. got lots of slimy things.. and i step on painful things too.. but i didnt get hurt.. i was surprised tat non of the peeps in my grp got painted.. oh.. u get painted if u drop the cup and need to roll on the dirty stuff if the cup go below certain point.. the fountain is wen u enter the expected zone la.. which i did.. and practically swam the who fountain.. hahas.. den being all wet at every station, we went back and do HUNTgry.. hmm.. okok la.. i didnt get stress like i did last time.. i wasnt the leader.. i was the time keeper and i lead the IIT skool stuff.. hahas.. slap myself for not being able to name the skools in IIT.. hahas.. thx mingshen! hahas.. den dun have FINAL CLASH! hahas! so we had longer huntgry and finish earlier.. hahas.. i was holding my tears wen we had the final debrief.. wen i see farhan.. he was holding his tears and i was oh no oh no.. dun dun! BAD Farhan.. i didnt go for the dinner at CPF building coz today is Hari Raya.. i had my duty as the only female at home! hahas! lots of things to do and clear.. hahas..

the moment i reach home.. i eat.. hahas.. i eat alot.. my bro ask.. WAH! HOW MANY DAYS U DIDNT EAT?! i said, 3 DAYS! den i went to clear the house and wash up.. after tat i went to SLEEP! my bro wake mii up to ask for PSP.. den he saw mii sleeping liao.. he ask again! U KNOCK OUT ALREADY? HOW MANY DAYS U DIDNT SLEEP?! i said 2DAYS! hahas.. U GO TO CAMP TO TORN AND DIET ARH?! said my bro... hahas.. i cant be bothered and sleep again.. lols.. and irritatingly, he woke mii up early in the morning for breakfast.. hahas! purposely.. he doesnt do tt la often la.. usually, he make for mii or i make for him.. but it's suppose to be him to make today coz he work morning shift.. my OLD but cute bro.. hahas..

here some photos from the camp tat i secretly took!
act pirate.. hahas..

cross pose.. eugene act cute there!

mii and farhan.. hahas.. he rox!

no chance to take wif tat yi.. but he rox too.. he give lots of good quotes tat i LIKE! an example is:
dun strike wen the iron is HOT but strike until it gets HOT!

tat's all for now!

another sunday comes! hahas...

it was term test week.. hahas.. let's go thru each paper...
OOPG - okie la.. i have to say i didnt study... i wanted to study.. frankly... but den, tat day, i went to sim lim to buy memory card for my PSP... den put lots of new games inside tat i got caught in the game.. i started to study lecture 2 at 11+pm, on my bed... den i fall asleep... juz to realise tat i woke up at 6am! so u can imagine how rushing i was.. hahas.. so if i flung tat paper, it's my fault...
CORE!!! - hahas.. sorrie ms jo.. i had disappoint u.. i study.. this time i really study.. but my mind went blank... this is the second time in my life tat i went blank.. i still remember the first time i went blank was during sec 4 wen i flung my A maths paper, badly! i remembered i score below 20.. hahas... so CORE will be a repeat history... i think i will score below 10.. and yes, i noe, some ppl saw mii write ALOT.. but trust mii, im juz bull-shitting and repeating.. so now im preparing myself for the worst.. im super disappointed also.. coz alot i dun understand the question.. haiz.. if only my eng is good.. haiz haiz haiz haiz.. but i dun hate core.. at least... not yet... hahas...
QUAN - ARGH! mii being super confident! i deserve it.. THE VENN DIAGRAM! hahas.. i was super confident tat i wun make any mistake.. WAH! at last, i think i lost quite alot.. at least, alot of QUAN.. it's suppose to be an easy paper! AARG! and the last question.. i forgot to square root it.. walau! i hate myself! hahas! but QUAN i definitely didnt study.. i did.. i studied normal distribution.. which is not tested..wasted!
DBIS - one of the subj tat i really study other than core.. i can answer la.. juz tat im not good at reasoning.. i think i wun do badly for dbis.. but i made lots silly mistake at the last question.. haiz...

after last paper, im supposed to meet ernest in skool.. but yeah.. something happen.. den i waited for jasmine lim who came out super late! hahas.. hardworking gal.. den went to SUSHI shop.. and bought a unagi bento.. hahas.. 5.20 bucks.. shud be reasonable.. and it's nice! of course got unagi(grilled eel) den got some veg.. the uncle so nice as he gave mii seasoned jelly fish and minced baby octupus in my bento.. after, thumbs up! hahas.. i love the unagi big time! hahas!
den i was thinking of going to studio on tat nite.. but got call from my auntie tat some neighbour passsed away.. it was my fren's grandma.. i still remember tat grandma.. she suffered from amnesia.. and yeah.. they cant sit tight at home.. so the ahma loves to walk at the playground there.. and she always forget how to go back to her home.. the amazing thing is, she always come to my house! haha.. wherever she got lost, she come to my house and ask mii to sent her back... and tat is the case tat im at home la.. if not, my bro would... hahas.. and tat was years ago.. she den was bedridden for quite some time.. her children got tell my mum bout her condition(indicating tat she may passsed away anytime) but she survived long enuf.. to this point.. so yeah.. i decided to give their house a visit.. replacing my mum.. hahas... yeah.. wear tudung again.. and discover new way of wearing it.. haha! end up, i didnt go to studio.. and i got 10 bucks from my bro for tat! hahas!

sat, i didnt do much but sit at home and watch drama.. i was watching a korean drama call i am sam(i am your teacher).. cool and interesting story! although the main male character doesnt look tat good, but it's a definitely a funny show to watch.. T.O.P was so cool in the show! he's from boy bang called Big Bang.. hahas.. he looks cool wif his short hair.. now he looks like kang in! hahas...

sun.. went to studio.. finally.. hahas.. SM become paper cutter and photocopy gal! hahas.. i was in te office most of the time.. coz i didnt get the chance to play.. hahas.. i was told to photocopy 15 sets of my concert brochure.. den i need to cut it into 2... it was okie la.. im the only one who is doing the cutting and it was so sian.. hahas.. den, i helped biingyih print his chord notes.. which was so INVISIBLE.. hahas.. cant see the printing.. so i need to re-print.. i wasted 5 mins or so looking for the contrast button! hahas.. den help damien wrote the song sequence big big.. i mislook the sequence and printed 7 copies.. i wasted tat 7 copies! and of course the ink.. i volunteered to use marker to cover the mistake.. but i think damien got pissed and told mii to rewrite and reprint.. i feel so bad now.. den went to settle my SM stuff.. FINALLY.. and head back home... otw to the bus stop.. jokhie pangsey his sis, mii and CR! basket jokhie! biingyih is diff coz he took 62.. hahas.. so long never meet biing.. last tim eused to disturb him alot! hahas.. now, wen i see him after a long time, so awkward to tok.. like juz now, we were walking in pairs to bus stop except for pheiyani.. which means, mii and biing, jokhie wif CR and pheiyani behind.. den while walking, the other 3 walk like old man and woman.. den mii and biing was on the same speed.. so we awkwardly walk side by side.. I WAS TRYING to create a conversation wif him.. which end up like.."oh.. so u're in Temasek JC... in TJC band? izit cool? how's skool? fun?" lame rite! to change to awkwardness, i turn back and ask the guys to hurry up.. hahas.. MET the rapsody choir today.. was super surprise to see young ones there.. THERE, i was introduced to them.. to some, again.. hahas.. some ladies there recognise mii as percussionist.. damien always introduced mii in a nice way.. hahas.. like juz now.. he said "let mii introduce u guys to the ppl here.. the lady sitting there, some of u may have recognise her(den some lady says YA YA!), her name is Hariyani. U may call her Hari. H-A-R-I it is.. not hurry.. hahaha!(damien laughter) she's the stage manager for this show.. actually, she's a percussionist.. in 2Four percussion and also Anak Baba Band.. she had perform wif the Main Wayang Company a couple of time.. but for this show, she's choosen to be the stage manager to widen her length..(alvin came in - "to widen her knowledge la! not her length! if er length, she becomes bigger u know!" ALL LAUGH!) (den this lady, the estee lauder lady.. hahas.. she say "smart gal! so smart!") hahaha!" i was over the moon of course.. dunno how to react and juz say, thx and smile to her.. hahas.. den teach jokhie to play rebana.. hahas.. so FUN! jokhie juz kept forgeting the beat.. hahas.. den nth much! hahas..

okok.. i wrote alot.. im packing my bag tmr for my Orientation Training Camp! hahas.. see u again!

didnt update much after my bday.. hahas.. been busy.. every night, for sure got ppl come to my house.. coz my mum going to haj on fri.. okie.. skip the details...

thursday, Quan lab test.. i was deaad worried coz i didnt study.. but i think i did okie for it.. den.. went back home coz got no CORE.. so i went to Singhealth polyclinic there to settle the CIP thingy.. thank god.. it was fine.. den went home and rush on my jap report...

friday.. went to skool early in the morning for JAP presentation.. and damn! i wasted 20 mins at the library printing shop! i hate it... waited for 10 juz queuing coz got some uncivilised ppl practically block another com and use the other.. both com cant use but dunno to say.. i went to try my lluck and the com juz lag on mii.. i tried and tried until i gave up.. den quickly went to queue for IT skool one.. after i print, i met BENNY juz to find out tat the com got virus.. i dunno whether my com got infected anot.. i scared to check... hahas.. den went for the JAP presentation.. haiz.. 3minutes is juz not enuf.. so i did not make a ny script for the presentation and juz impromptu the speech.. haiz.. den... went off home.. juz to see johann waited for mii at the bus stop.. it was random.. hahas.. but yeah.. he sent mii home... got lots of things to tok about.. hahas...

den reach.. i see the time, i left likke less than 30 mins to get ready and go airport.. my sis in law boought mii a black shirt while hers is white.. we wore the same clothes and went to airport juz to noe tat flight was delay for 2 hours.. and den, after waiting for nearly 1 hrs, we realise tat flight delay again.. and now, the flight was delay to 0045! hahas! so i wasted long 8 hours there.. ate BK triple whopper which is super big.. i ate half only and felt full liao.. den stuff myself wif coffee to keep mii awake.. walk around here and there, play PSP wif my nieces and nephews.. hahas.. super childish la.. i fought wif my niece due to puzzle bobble.. hahas.. kids fight... hahas.. i was wearing tudung tat day.. so i saw few frens here and there and they couldnt recognise mii.. i was like.. YO! and they slow loading.. hahas.. mayb, wen u wear tudung, u shudnt say YO! hahas!

my mum dun wan us to wait till she fly so she decide to go in earlier.. and wen i went to fid farewell to her, obviously i cried.. and she was too.. and den she say.. dun be naughty at home.. den i was thinking, i naughty meh? hahas!

received call from her yesterday.. she landed safely at Jeddah.. thank god.. we were kind of worried y she never call ar.. hope she stays healthy there.. on the mean time, im here feeling super sick.. hahas.. coughin non stop.. but getting better today!

TERM TEST next week.. and i juz cant study.. no sense of urgency at all.. wait la.. til lnow i still wanna sleep hahaS!

YESTERDAY, went to singhealth polyclinic and do CIP.. it was god damn boring at first.. but den i met this malay worker.. who is taking care of 3 dementia lady.. one wasnt there though.. hahas.. got 2 lady then.. this 2 lady always stick to her.. wen she sits, the ladies sit.. wen she walk, the 2 ladies walk.. and these 2 ladies got 2 speed.. one of the them walks super fast and the other one is super slow.. hahas.. the fast one, i saw it la.. really fast.. faster than mii.. hahas.. the contrast is there la.. im like the normal speed.. hahas.. den, the fast lady, mdm ong.. she's active and love to take things.. so cute la.. wen i follow her all the time, she always try to run away from mii.. den she would like laugh at mii if im far behind.. den slower lady dun like mii.. she beat mii la.. the beating is not pain.. the scratching is pain.. she scratch my palm.. hahas.. coz i disturb her la.. hahas.. nice experience.. hahas..

now.. im gonna like get the mood to study.. i tot of 단 again yesterday... 카이웬 also... i need to tok him.. haiz. where is he missing to..

IT's MY BIRTHDAY today! hahas! tell u few things.. at first i tot there's no celebration due to 3 reasons.. lesson starts at 9am, no APEL and lastly, got OOPG lecture... no time to celebrate at all.. but thx again C183! u guys are the best class ever! no matter wat, i'll always love u guys.. and smile more often k? hahas...

firstly, thx C183.. here's my comments to u guys!
thx for the gigantic birthday card.. it's really my first ever big bday card... and the photos are cool! u all took it yest wen i left early! hahas.. shudnt have left! hahas! thx! thx for the cake.. the cake is cute and nice.. thx! my fav cake is mango cake.. and it's one of the nicest mango cake i've ever eaten.. thx! individual msgs!
sharon - thx for the card(it's seriously nice) and thx for cutting the cake too.. thx ya!
val - yup! there's a celebration.. it was a pleassant surprise.. thx ya!
kaixin - 사랑해요 to u too.. it was unreadable at first.. but finally manage to figure it out! thx ya!
jolene - u can write 사랑해요 too! hahas! i love it alot.. and yeah.. work hard together! thx ya!
ronald - thx for wat u've done too.. thx ya!
sebast - i will try to be more feminine.. but dun box mii like juz now la! hahas! thx ya!
huanyi - thx for the fish & everything! hwaiting! thx ya!
jasmine lim - i'll be more serious & mature in front of ur eyes.. thx for the hp pouch... really cute! thx ya!
jasmine chow - thx for the cookie! it's the sweetest present of the year(literally!) & thx for the spraying water all of mii in the bus! revenge is sweet.. ur time is near! thx ya!
wei choy - cute huge drawing on the card! thx ya!
to denver, nick, ivan, junhao, jay, alvin, chuhui, xinni, ailan, nicole & clement... thx for the birthday wishes! ailan's fren and yixiang for being there and celebrate together...

ms jo, thx for the sweet! hahas.. u r so sweet!
Benny, shawn, shen yang, ardy & fren and others.. thx for the b'day wish! love u guys!
syak, amirah, sayhaow, eugene and other TK peeps, thx for remembering my bday! hugs and kisses to u all!

here's pict time.. i dun have much.. but i'll juz upload! hahas! in sequence...
C183, my b'day cake(SO CUTE LA!), say haow's cute gift, classmate's presents, b'day card, picts & b'day wishes! later i'll upload my family gifts.. im so happie..

busy mii.. i skipped DBIS tut coz i went to collect my mum's bag at redhill.. the collecting time was 2-5 pm... and juz nice, i had all my lesson on tat time.. i was thinking, if in the morning, okie la.. i can skip it mah... but haiz.. COBAAN! hahas...

i wanna update my blog a few times few days back.. but wherever i wen to the blogger site, i either fall asleep or ppl bug mii.. hahas... now im coughing badly.. hahas..

on sat, i went out wif say haow.. thx say haow for the present.. i dunno wat it is coz i promised him that im gonna open it on my b'day.. but thx for it! hahas! less than 4 hrs and it's my b'day! hahas.. im super excited.. hahas.. weirdly enuf, daniel tok to mii.. he's the tiger beer guy whom i work wif wen im working at MP NTUC.. hahas.. it was a pleasant surprise..

on sunday, it was some gathering(prayer gathering) for my mum's sendoff.. basically, all the ladies in my house area come... hahas.. it was a tiring day, attending to them... usually, when have this kind of gathering, the guys do most of the job.. but this time, all the guest are ladies, so i have to communicate wif them no mattter wat.. hahas.. despite my age, i have to entertain them... wat to do.. im the host.. hahas..

been playing PSP all the time.. hahas... thx to my bro.. hahas.. den yest, met ardy lots of time.. hahas.. he said, im his best fren ever.. coz i help him in sth.. hahas.. secret.. hahas.. but yeah.. it was till the point that he came to my house and shake my hand... and say thx lots of times.. didnt help much.. hahas..

yesterday also.. during my one and only one hour break.. there was student feedback session wif ms grace yap.. ahahs.. and there goes my lunch.. hahas.. but goood thing is that, i dun feel like eating yesterday, mayb bcoz im not feeling well la.. hahas.. den continue wif lesson.. haahs.. OOPG lecture was alot better yest.. hahas.. mr mike is so funny la.. his analogy is funny... the whole day, i only had dinner and tat was 7pm.. my mum was wondering, how come i eat at home yesterday...

den today... this morning, CORE was slightly irritating.. i didnt get to copy one slide! hahas.. den QUAN was okie.. lifern was okie till the point where she blew off due to some guys at the back... den BREAK! wen to library to study for CMSK test.. hahas.. while on my way down to topup cashcard and bind notes, met mr mike again at lvl 8... he came out from the staircase wearing polo tee.. i saw him and act as if i didnt see him at all la.. afterall, wat's the probability tat he saw mii.. hahas.. den suddenly he approach mii.. and say.. 'hello there...' so i had no choice but to acknowledge him.. hahas.. so funny.. lols.. and CMSK test was okie.. i like tat indian lady.. pls change my tutor! i wan someone better.. grrr...

test ends early and i went off straight away to redhill.. a long journey.. but it's okie.. i feel better the moment i step into the mosque.. cool.. hahas.. den take cab home! the fare was woo hoo! nice! hahas..

and finally, i manage to contact the children's home person in charge.. and yeah.. children's home is OFF.. and im approaching the old folks home tmr.. it's tough wen things are really last minute.. im trying my best to get place.. hoping for more choices..

now, im gonna slack today.. hahas.. helping my mum to pack her bag.. need to send to airport terminal 1 at 10am tmr.. hmm.. i cant send.. actually, i was supposed to be the one.. but thx to CORE tut, i cant.. sometime, my heart really boil wen this kind of thing happen.. im super speechless now.. grrr...

and to 단, no worries.. if u give love to others, love will come to u naturally.. im sure of it..

Polaris, it doesnt move in the sky... if u got lost, look for the polaris and u can find ur way.. the same goes for u, 단.. i cant say that i will go wif u.. but i will always be there for u.. wherever u r lost.. just look back, im waiting.. but... can u see mii?

tat's all for now.. im turning 17 soon.. finally.. it's a long wait..