18 july

11:14 PM Edit This 0 Comments »
today ended up with a sad day...
i thank jasmine, jolene, hafiz, latinos, mum, sis in law and pheiyani for making my day...
i thank those who have hurt mii alot today too for making my day[sad!]...
i thank myself for spoiling my own day... coz if u look at the sad things tat happen, it always rooted down to myself... even if i dunno in wat way it is me, i would say, it is still my fault...

im so stressed up... by people.. and sorrie to those who got stressed by mii... but if i do stress u so, tell mii... i had never intended to hurt anyone...

wen im hurt, i always feel like being stabbed... and wen im crying, i felt super vexed and rueful... now i cant breathe so well..

one sentence to one person...
'do u believe in white lies?'

i juz lied to one person... and as i was lying, at the same time, i was crying... the more the sentence tat person says, the more tears drawing down... i tot the thing tat happen was the happiest thing in my life... but it turn out to be hurtful... mayb bcoz wen u have too much hope and expectation, u felt more hurt thatn anyone else... y?! y treat mii tat way? wat have i done? have i done a bad thing? den tell mii la!

1 july

12:09 AM Edit This 0 Comments »
hmmm... friday... i had SAS... i was on the urge of crying... during SAS... coz... i couldnt catch wat ppl r saying... i juz have to let this out la.. coz i cant stop thinking of it...

during SAS grp discussion, they r toking in chinese... i couldnt catch wat they r saying... thus i couldn't get into the discusssion... i really felt invisible at the back of the team... in the end, to stop myself from tearing, i took another book and do things myself... i try to be in the team but i juz couldnt stop myself from tearing... it make mii feel very pain in the heart... i seriously very hurt... till now... i could like catch some few things from wat nicholas is saying and den i will be lost again... how i wish... really really wish... this thing doesnt happen... it really hurts mii... and it happen again and again... like now, i feel a sudden pain in the heart...

forget sad things... i went to TPSU sub-comm camp... so fun! my FA was Glenn and Yu Ting... Grp member, i'll try to recall all k... haha... zakiah, gloria, wun yun, dorothy, anna, amella, jacintha, Kai Ling, zach, zhang yong, ah sing, brendon, joshua, gideon, caleb, ronald, dennis, jenny, ah chou, amanda.... AH! i cant remember all... kk.. my group name... RIGEL... haha!

den next day, went to Anak Baba Band practice... den pack for todays show... den rush down to NDP Padang... haha.. met alvin oon and richard tan there... den had dinner wif pheiyani fren... at raffles city BK... met CHIN CHAI[my CarePerson = FormTeacher]... he's a loner...

den reach home and the first thing i do is sleep! and at nite i receive 8 smses and 3 missed call... i didnt hear my phone rings la! haha!

today had peranakan show... my finger wanna die liao play rebana! haha... the joget medley was crazy.. imagine 20 mins non stop semi quaver... haha... kind of fun la... den go home! went out wid Say Haow for dinner... den reach home again... at 10pm... slack and den tok to some frens like SOB and nick... haha... miss them! miss 4 COM! miss my SECONDARY sch life... i wanna turn back time!

kk.. that's all for today! haha! see u wen i see u!