Xmas~ SiKai Bday~ Movies~

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well.. i wouldnt say my xmas had been a busy one.. but i had lots of fun~ hahas.

now on movie craze.. hahahas.. im like watching lots and lots of movie laa... hahahas.
i tink the first movie i watch after a long hiatus was AVATAR. hahhas.
i watched it with Shaun Pel Panha (LOLS) and Mr Sulaiman.
again, it's like the reunion of the CEOs... hahas.. mii being the first CEO and followed by Panha.
Mr Sulaiman forever being the president of Cuckoo Club.. LOLS.. i love CUCKOO CLUB! lols.. miss those times!!! meeting them was a great pleasure.. LOLS.. we discuss about lots of things.. from computers to lappies to IT stuff to cameras to games to life.. hahahas. the movie was great!! hahas..
except for some part.. which i had a long argument with LEE SI KAI. lols.. oh well.. hahas.

following it was Sherlock Holmes.. hahas.. this one is super random. on facebook chat sobir was asking mii bout xmas etc etc. den by random he told mii tat he wanna watch movie alone.. LOLS. and mii randomly too said that i can accompany him if he wants.. LOLS. the point that i misunderstood was the day to watch.. i tot it was another day but then it was the day itself - 25 dec. but it's a goood thing coz i finally realised that i can book ticket using my UOB TX card that i got 3 yrs ago.. lols.. although the seat location was bad.. the movie was awesome.. hahas.. 10.50pm show and of course cabbed back.. hahhas.

den the next day, i got plans with syakira and amirah from like weeks ago.. hahs. coz i promised syak to watch new moon but drag and drag and drag.. hahhas. just to be scolded by them for watching sherlock holmes without them! LOLS. so yes.. watch sherlock holmes for the second time..hahahas... same movie twice in less than 24 hrs.. hahhas. but the outing was awesome as well.. though i got scolded, like again, for sleeping during the movie.. RAWR! but seriously, we need to stop twitting over every little things la!!! hahahas.

after that, amirah need to go off first leaving mii and syak at raffles city.. we spend some time at paper market - where my inspiration to be creative but CMI came about... hahas.. thanks syak for all the influencing.. i bought stuff to make sikai's bday card.. hahas.. was super excited wen we browse the shop. lots of things to buy.. lots of idea.. but the shop DAMN EX! lols.. after spending, mii and her went to ben and jerry for ice cream.. and then here come the random conversation to go L4D2. lols.. mad mad mad.. thanks syak for teaching.. i think i had lots of fun rawring.. however, it's stressful for a first timer.. LOLS.. went to dhoby ghaut to play..

sikai bday.. hahas. super interesting... wen mii and vale first plan it, we decided to do DIY cake.. however, we didnt noe 313 got the cake shop... the shop that we wanted to go to is like at JURONG. lols.. however, the tot of DIY-ing the cake makes us excited. thanks sharleen for telling us that 313 have the DIY cake shop.. we become more firm of getting him the DIY cake.. LOLS. and somehow, mii and nicole went over to make it and we r like small kids sia.. super excited to make the cake.. hahas.. at the same time, i feel sorrie for sikai.. hahas. coz the cake doesnt look as good as we tot. somehow it turn out tat way.. it looks nice initially.. i regret buying the additional small stars tat coz ex to mii.. LOLS.. den things got worst wen it was kept overnight.. coz some of the big stars like melt.. SORRIE sikai.. lols..

and as for his bday card.. hahas.. the CMI mii with ZERO creativity stare at the board for the whole sunday thinking wat to do with it.. LOLS.. the idea that i had at the shop somehow turn haywire wen i put it into actions! HAHAS. so i decided to call my bro for help and both of us sit down and tot of how to do it.. LOLS.. and my mum says that mii and my bro doing my SKOOL project.. hahahas. but by tuesday, i somehow feels that im doing a senseless thing.. hahas. coz initially i wanted to give it to him under my name and only my name.. coz buying those stuff at paper market is quite ex liao.. i felt might as well get a better present.. lols... k fine.. im selfish.. but i think it's fated la.. i somehow tot of how to make it more meaningful and decided to make it like RBS TP intern bday card. hahahs.. and im really glad that i did tat.. coz it became really really more meaningful tat way.. hahas. weee(:

and in the end, i bought him a dog-tag tat i found at 77th street.. hahas.. im like super happie wherever he wore it - FRIDAY... hahas.. i felt that i bought something that he appreciate! woohoo! (:

going to watch alvin and the chipmunks tmr.. YAY!

for sikai's sake.. here's all the links to the pictures. (:
Si Kai's Birthday Pictures
Xmas Eve Dinner Pictures
Xmas Bazaar Random Shots
Nicole's Birthday Pictures
Hariyani's Birthday Pictures
Alvin Tan's Birthday Pictures
Joanne's and Cai Xue's Birthday Pictures
Lena Kwah's Birthday Pictures
Alvin Lim's Birthday Pictures
Zhi Yuan's Birthday Pictures
Valerie's Birthday Pictures

Brown Eyed Girls - Sign - i prefer the orchestra version more actually.. hahas

I love Aydan part 2~

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lols.. okie.. i got his name spelling wrongly! LOLS..
his name is spelled A-Y-D-A-N! lols..
managed to get his photos.. can't blame him for looking at mii.. coz as i said last time..
i jumped in last minute.. lols.. well.. at least i got his pict! that's leeflyn and jasmine..
apart from tat.. LAST week, i was called xmas tree early morning.. hahas.. THIS week, i was called SANTA CLAUSE!! and his reasonings crack mii up.. as always.. hahahas.. (:

this week has been a lonely one.. sad.. but then... there are enjoyable ones as well..
especially love yesterday.. coz it's half day.. and yet i achieved many things..
finally gave him the tie.. hahas.. his supposed bday present bcum xmas present.. hahahas.
it's a relief actually.. at least, now i dun have to think wen to give it to him.. lols..

Asian Bellz was good.. hahas.. it's a different experience altogether.. being the performer and the audience.. wen i watch, lots of the songs reminds mii of the past.. omens of love reminds mii of secondary school life.. It's time for sayang sayang reminds mii of the times i work with Main Wayang Company.. great performance by Axil with the Electone.. cool sia.. makes mii wanna learn it.. LOLS!

xmas eve.. i made an imprompt outing.. hahas.. sorrie for being demanding! hahahas..
but cool la... went out with vale for sushi buffet at first.. den we went for swensens with sikai and zhiyuan for dinner/dessert.. hahahas.. it was quite fun actually.. i finally have a group of ppl to hang out with in attachment.. love them for being sporting! hahahas.. reallie fun and i had lots of fun.. hope others have fun too.. hahas.. and LEE SI KAI! im still demanding xmas present from u! hahahas. went arcade.. hahas.. it's been ages since i play arcade laaaa.. lols.. fun fun fun.. weee (: thanks for making mii laugh.. coz i really needed one.. hahahs..

ur sms on monday and ur sms last night.. makes my day.. im afraid of being greedy..
but somehow.. i feel that im giving up on u.. giving up and changing lane.. maybe it's time..
that i'm finally ready to give up.. and remember it as one of the good memories i had..
hopefully.. well.. at least i hope.. i dun hesitate.. or doubt my decision..

here is Omens of Love that is popularise by T-Square.


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hahas.. the reason to update the blog this time round is becoz.... AIDEN..
hahahas.. sad! i didnt take pict of him... lols.. aiden is a really cute kid...

i took part in AOC Christmas Kid Party as elves and took care of the kids from aged 3-10..
hahas.. we planned out lots of activity for them and of course lots of SWEETS and PRESENTS! here's a picture of the elves... Melanie, Jade, Leeflyn, Rebecca, Jasmine, Mii and Wayne..

aiden was the first kid that came in. He came in with his grandpa and mum. and since he came early (not tat early - just that other kids are late), we keep bringing him to the pantry to eat and drink.. it took mii hours later to realise that he's an active kid and colouring is just not his thing.. he was super quiet wen i was doing colouring with him.. so the other elves decided to take him to other activities and i continue sitting at the cards side and do colouring with other kids such as Tom, Lily, Alexia and Audi.. Samantha, a beautiful and cute lil gal (youngest) joined in later.. hahahs.. i enjoyed audi company coz he speaks malay with mii.. well, at least he interacted with mii wen we doing colouring.. unlike aiden.. lols.. but.. hahahahas..

i cant believe a simple paper aeroplane could bond mii and aiden well.. hehehe.. aiden dun take part in group activities at all.. hahahas.. During pass the parcel game, he keep asking his mum why are we laughing.. LOLS.. so cute.. during musical chairs, he got scared when the kids are all running around and keep himself to his mum.. hahahas.. den wen i decided to play with him - paper aeroplane, he really enjoyed it to the max.. but it also drain out my energy running around.. hahahas.. we played that for hours and both of us really got tired.. the funny thing is.. he pulled my hand and told mii he wanted to sit down.. den he taught mii how to exit the social space using the glass door.. after he sat down.. he told mii he wants some drink... i dunno what drink to give him and he taught mii to take his drink from his bag.. hahahas.. so cute la he.. i really love it wherever he pulled my hands.. ahahas..

the kids did the last activity and again aiden is in his own world and dun wanna join the rest.. he keeps playing with his green aeroplane and keep looking for mii.. hahas.. there was a point of time where i went to the toilet and took drinks, he actually found mii in the wet pantry.. he was asking mii, where i go.. hahahas... so cute la.. he's my new son already la.. hahahas.. when it's finally 5pm, all of us started to pack up slowly while waiting for their parents to pick them up.. sadly, aiden mum was the last.. so in order to distract him, i pulled him to the corner and played with him.. hahahas.. and the best things about him is that, he likes to give things to other ppl.. hahahs.. he gave everyone one oreo and wen i passed one back to him, he replied mii, i dun wan.. lols.. hi-5! i dun like oreo also! hahahas.. aiden also like to hug ppl.. wherever i stop playing, he would look for mii and hug my leg.. so lovely rite~ he also adores wayne.. hu always play with him.. hahahaha.

den wen his mum came back, he was really happie.. and pulled his mum to play with mii.. but when his mum said let's go back.. he started crying, lay down on the floor and say i wan to play.. lols.. wat's funnie is tat.. he went to grab mii and cry.. hahahs.. so in order to make him stop crying, decided to play again with him.. LOLS.. when he finally happie again.. his mum managed to make him wanna go home.. hahahas.. this time round, im the one hu feels like crying.. hahahas. sad... he pulled my hand and give mii a hug.. hahas.. and that's not it.. he even gave mii a kiss.. weeee.... lols.. his mum told him to do the same for the rest.. hahahas.. and he did tat to wayne.. and not the others... LOLS! im in cloud 9!~ hahahahhas.. cute him..

i regret the most tat i didnt take pict with him.. i think there's only one pict of him and mii and the rest.. i was drinkig and i last min jumped in.. tat's the only pict.. and im like so gonna search high and low for it..hahahahas..

on the day itself, most of them finally realised tat im an intern.. hahhas.. almost faint wen the kids call mii auntie.. hahahas.. call mii sister!! hahahas.. aiden call mii jie jie/auntie.. hahahas.. and i also crack up wherever auntie brings milo in.. i keep saying i wan milo.. and auntie totally ignores mii.. hehehehe

okie.. enuf of aiden.. hahahas.. i hope to see him again.. but still.. enuf.. hahahs
happy moments in.. ever since nez is back.. the team is more lively! hahas..
i laughed at least once a day - nez totally cracked mii up everyday..
seeing how she and chris always argue and play and joke around everyday.. hahahas..
there would be at least ONE TEAM chatting session per day - rocking ones.. hahahas..
fun fun fun! but again.. SAD! it's end of the year season and all going back to celebrate xmas! hahahas... team dinner was fun! the place was noisy.. so we tend to shout out.. hahahs.. i think it was super fun laughing to the max.. hahahahs.. we are bonded now! hahahas.. hype hype!

and im getting closer to NP interns.. enjoyed chatting with edwin and shawn!~ woohoo..
terry.. maybe some other time when there are chances.. hahahas.. there are some that really CMI la.. like super dao.. but some are really nice and down to earth and nice to talk to.. weee..

zion will be sitting beside mii from jan 4 onwards.. den after tat, opp nez.. hahahas.. the team getting more and more happening.. woohoo!~ i still havent got the full team pict! hahahas.. I DUN CARE.. once my internship ends, we must have one full team pict! hahahas. which reminds mii... 2 more months... 3 months has been gone.. time will fly very fast this point onwards..

RAWR! someone call mii christmas tree on friday morning! YOU WORE GREEN ALSO! zzzzzzzzz...

You're Beautiful OST - Without a Words - Park Shin Hye Version.
There's like 9th Street version and Jang Geun Seok Version. And I'm lovin all the version.. and the whole OST, still rocking in my head despite the drama had ended for quite some time now..

xmas bazaar

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okie.. quick update on my bday celebration.. LOLS
on my bday itself, yes, spent the whole day with syakira and amirah.. hahahas
i dunno y.. but we never got bored with each other..
everytime we meet each time, time always run out on us! hahahas.

den at night, decided to rest at home and chat chat.. notably with panha.. LOLS.
thanks ar.. chat wif u but then u forget my bday.. hahas.

i purposely keep myself awake till 2359 coz im waiting for someone's wish..
but well, wat to do, although i had zero expectation, i still hoping for it..
but im still thankful for whatever i have..

on the 6th dec... i went out to see my dearie niece over at my sis in law house - JURONG!
hahas.. before going there, i had a little fall before entering the car.. hahahas..
my 2nd brother reaction - "anyone heard the sound of someone fell?"
my 3rd brother reaction - "i only saw u standing up.. DID U EVEN FALL?"
my mum reaction - "EHHHHH! young ppl fall down can stand up easily.. UNLIKE mii, i would sit there and cannot stand up anymore."
walau.. coz of my mum's scream, the whole world like noe i fall la! EMBARRASSING can! RAWR

den reached there liao.. i held my niece again.. I TOTALLY dun understand guys at all.. wat's wrong with carrying a little baby.. it's like damn light wat.. hahahas.. my niece like getting cuter la! HAHAHAS. and the thing i can never understand.. wherever i hold her, she would fall ASLEEP full force.. hahas.. im now called dullop pillow for her.. hahahas..
den during evening, my bro send mii over to PP to meet nicole.. thanks la.. save mii the trouble of travelling so far.. hahahas...

today.. RAWR..
this morning.. already rushing to work.. i wanted to meet nicole at mrt.. FAIL la..
den at the lobby lift, i nearly trip.. den i tore my pants - the bottom part.. LOLS.. damn embarrassing la.. hahahas.. something is totally wrong with mii today..
after that, go pantry, wanying accidentally spill soap on mii. but still NOT so bad.. hahhas. wen i sit down at my desk, I SPILL my TEA! rawr! SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH MII TODAY! RAWR! nth goes right.. nth goes okie.. RAWR! my bro ask mii to go for flower bath.. TSK! dun curse la!~

xmas bazaar.. wah damn shag la.. i totally no creativity.. ZERO! ZERO! thanked god got nicole.. she helped miii most of the time.. thankful to my dept for being understanding and supportive... TOTALLY NOOB! thanks sikai, zhiyuan and nicole for helping the setting up.. hahas.. i had more fun setting up la!~ funnie sia..

and just minutes ago.. huanyi come back singapore liao! WAT THE HECK! i tot next mon! hahaha.. sadded.. didnt fetch her la.. i also feel so damn shag today.. haiz.. sad sad sad.. nvm.. let's meet for lunch soooon!~

tat's all for mii to say? hahahahas.
and for HL - great that things went back to normal.. though im sad.. im still glad.. and FYI, i think we got closer wherever we quarrel.. but pls, i dun wanna quarrel with u alreadi!~ time is running out.. and i just wanna treasure the time together..

my adv bday celebration

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this year bday celebration was definitely wonderful with many ppl celebrating with mii~ woohoo..

01 dec.
this was the first advance celebration.
mii, jasmine chow and lim with valerie went to marina square to eat pizza @ pizza hut.
hahas.. i already knew that the purpose of meeting is to celebrate my bday however i didnt expect it to be so grand.. ahahas.. thanks guys!
the first 2 happie birthdae song honestly dissappoint mii but u guys didnt dissappoint me at all since the 3rd song is for mii!! hehehe.

and the cam whoring and wishing ball thingy at esplanade was really wonderful!~ HAD lots of laughter.. thanks la.. ahahahas

03 dec...
thanks ar vale.. nicce surprise..
the interns celebrated my bday 2 days in advance.. Y? coz they wan to surprise mii.. LOL
sorrie to sikai for being the victim of being smacked! hahahas.. they sooo funnie la..
i tot they would celebrate my bday on fri instead of thurs.. LOLS.
nicole called miii over to their seat coz sikai keep bugging her.. so i went there la..
JUST TO SMACK sikai.. LOLS.. den wen i went over, smart ar guys, went to take my cam and lighter from my bag.. LOLS.. i was pulled to the toilet.. NICOLE, u damn good actress! DAMN GOOD.. den finally we decided to go pantry and slack.. i GOT shocked.. i saw a cake..
still in disbelief, they told mii they celebrating other ppl bday.. n I REALLY BELIEVE u guys.. LOLS.. and thanks hor... huever hu contributed the idea of mii pulling the candle holder!~ damn disgusting can.. but i hope u guys enjoy it..

04 dec..
here comes another surprise.. due to sharleen going Japan, wishful thinking mii tot tat they would celebrate on 3rd rather than 4th.. so on the 4th, i have ZERO expectation liao.. LOLS..
but well.. the team celebrated for mii as well!~ hahahahas.. was really shocked and happie la... LOLS... chris was asking mii to turn over in a hurried tone.. and i tot i did something wrong.. and then there they go singing bday song to mii.. never expect the team to noe my bday la.. hahahas.. almost cried.. coz my expectations all turn haywire..

one surprise after another.. start off with joanne bday present after lunch.. followed by bbt on my table and then my team giving mii present.. i was really caught by surprised... and the bday card makes mii cry can.. the whole team had signed it despite only 3 of them in Singapore. this shows that they knew it way in advance liao.. ahahahas..

den wen i go home.. embarrassing moment happen in the train.. thanks sikai for saving mii.. LOLS..

reach home, i see my mum only.. I TOT GOT FAMILY DINNER? lols..
just to be surprised by another bday cake in front of mii.. hahahs.
this time round, only my third brother is able to make it.. the other 2 elder brother got work... sadly.. however, they brought my cousin's kids home thus it's more merrier.. hahahas.

all these are advance lei.. the actually day has yet to come.. had blown candles 3 times.. eat cake 3 times.. and celebrated 4 times.. definitely a happening bday celebration for mii this year..

very thankful and grateful to those hu remembered my bday.. celebrated my bday.. A VERY BIG THANK YOU! im soo happie.. although there's no big celebration, these small events really touches my heart! (:

actually, im having depressing moments as well.. however, i shall not spoilt this post! hahahas!
now im looking forward to our double celebration tmr with my BFF - amirah and syakira! and sunday!!! will be meeting my dearie niece arrysa!~

god bless! (: take care! (:

PS thanks for forgiving mii but i still feels guilty.. cant forget ur stare.. but it's a lesson learnt.. and as adviced, it was a honest mistake.. i shall repent on my mistakes and be a better person..

Because I'm a Fool.. LOLS

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hahas! today is Amirah's birthday! hahahas.. happie birthdae babe! LOLS
as usual, her bday celebration will always be pushed back together as mine.
this year, the plan will be the same where we'll be meeting each other this coming saturday. (:

weekends are simply the best day since it's the day where i can rest the most! woohoo!
but then, today.. i went out with zhiyuan to shop for chritmas bazaar booth..
wah.. it was a long journey walking around but i think it's quite fun! (:
thanks zy for willing to accompany mii.. HAHAS!

we went to PS den to Bugis Junction.. hahahas.
we did our fair share of shopping as well.. TILL I FORGOT to buy my book! LOLS

and woohoo! i managed to go to dorothy p. to buy jeans! YAY! hahahas..
very happie coz i managed to get 2 jeans at an offer price and i got the $5 voucher.. hahahas.
another happie thing is i managed to eat my ice monster after sooo long.. weee! (:

after hours of shopping, totally not my cup of tea, i dragged my feet home!
go home just to see julian, fakhrudin and johann spamming on facebook! LOLS
they always make mii feels like organising an outing.. hehehe..

and mr chang, rawr! randomly tok to mii today.. and still dare to say he wanna vomit blood! hahahas. mr chang, u r as funnie as ever.. hahahas.. my fav. form teacher la u! hehe! xD

and now here i am sitting at home watching tv... with my bros.. lols..
at some point of time, i feel soooooooooo emo.. hahas.
so in order to entertain myself, i keep listening to this song..
hope it makes ur day as well! (:

this song is from You're Beautiful OST - A song for a Fool - Park Sang Woo
this song really reflects how i feel right now.. hehehehe! (:

Hari Raya Haji

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thanks ardy.. u make mii feels like blogging again..
not just that.. i change my layout as well... thanks to michael.. LOLS! =X

ever since i broke up, i feel more curious on how ppl are after they broke up..
coz i myself is confuse how i should react.
and what i had been doing is according to my instinct... which might or might not be right...
one thing for sure, i need some time to heal from u..

today is Hari Raya Haji! lols.. 27 Nov 09..
nothing much.. my baby niece came over! YAY! her name is Arrysa Haiza anyway..
we call her arry.. hehehe.. sounds like hari rite.. but it doesnt matter coz no1 call mii tat at home..
my cousins came over as well.. hahahas. it's like HARI RAYA already la..

how's life been so far?
hmmmm.. busy with attachment.
i definitely learning sooo many things.. about life, reality, work and relationships.. hahahas
i love this line - it's not good to be popular in the corporate world - i totally agree..
im facing the music right now.. sometime it's good... sometimes it's not..
but im really grateful to some ppl for teaching mii lots of things..
im just seeing part of reality.. there's more to come.. haiz..

with attachment going on, i felt as if i've lost my social life.
felt lonely many times.. no bf, no social life.. nothing.
im down with colleagues, interns, BFF and family,
im grateful that at least there's still someone there..
though i sometimes wish for more..

toking about interns..
there is someone in there who never fails to make mii think twice..
there is someone in there who never fails to make mii laugh..
there is someone in there who never fails to be there for mii..
there is someone in there who never fails to entertain mii..
there is someone in there who never fails to teach mii new things..
there is someone in there who never fails to accompany mii..
there is someone in there who never fails to help mii..
there is someone in there who never fails to impress mii..
there is someone in there who never fails to make mii curious..
there is someone in there who never fails to make my heart beats fast... heeeee (:

each someone represent the ppl im closed with.. hahahas. INTERNS... TP... lols
wat's challenging in there is that, i really realli reallie wish that i can do better everytime..
i dunno if that's called greed.. haiz..

i spend some time to day reading my old blog and realised that i sometime quote many nice phrase.. LOLS.. i feel like rewriting some of them.. but dun waste time la.. i shall share a new one now..

"I couldn't confess it even once.. but I think I've been rejected about a hundred times.. XOXO"

here's a video to share..
it's from the You're Beautiful drama... What should I do - Jang Geun Seok version..

feel like blogging.

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hahas. there's nothing much for mii to update here.
had not been feeling well and i know well enuf why is it so.
emotionally tired. physically tired. mentally tired.

nowadays, i dun seem to be able to sleep.
everytime im alone, i kept thinking of him.
as i tot of him, there are smiles.. there are tears.
the time we spent together. it's really regretful.
being the one saying the last words, it makes mii wonder alot.
did i do the right thing. or did i made a mistake?
should i had waited or should i had given him more chance?
but at this point of time, i just felt that the result will still be the same.
i can't trust him anymore. i can't be confortable wif him anymore.

at the same time, haiz.. let's juz keep this silent..
i'm just not sure. i'm just dunno. i'm just clueless.

heard of Lee Seung Gi's song - Let's Break Up?
although I like the 'lie lie lie lie lie' part.
there's this part of the lyrics that makes mii cry..

"Let's break up..Let's not meet again..Even if sometimes we are sad..We can only smile at the memories..I've always lived for you..I know you better than anyone else..Now I'll have to send you off for your own happiness..Forgetting the love we have shared..Let's live like that.."

back from long hiatus! (:

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wah.. the last time i blogged! hahas.

quite update in between the late blog and now..
1) MP Groupings
my group consists of myself, joanne, jay and geetha. we did an internal MP for VTB Capital.
it was a bittersweet experience. well, i dun wan to go further about this!

2) Huanyi Fly Off
yeah.. she left singapore! lols.. leave mii alone here! lols..
ur absence r felt and i really look forward to ur vacation! (:

3) SIP (attachment)
i had been attached to RBS - Royal Bank of Scotland - in Singapore Change Management Dept.
been there for 3 weeks now and i really like it alot there.
cant say much bout work however it was really great to be there!
i like my team member alot too, despite being busy all the time, hahas!
love the ppl attach there too! joanne, yizhi, alvin lim, alvin tan, valerie, ronald, caixue, zhi yuan, nicole, si kai.. not forgetting the orq ppl - nicholas, wei choy and wan ying. AND MYSELF of course. haahas.

4) Hari Raya!
lols.. i still havent really go out with my frens! no time.. weekdays totally off due to attachment. so now down with weekends only. haiz. i hope we manage to go out together this year! BUDAK SHAZRA!~ hahas. (photos to be uploaded soon!)

apart from all this. im blogging becoz im not feeling that good nowadays. as usual.
going through a hard time right now. experiencing 2 set back recently.
to describe how bad that setback is.. it's like..
if i live my life for 3 reason. I've lost one of it.
but to be optimistic.. it might or might not be replaceable.
however, it's possible.

at the moment of sadness, i was impressed by someone.
that person impressed mii that much till im dumbfounded.
maybe bcoz i've always look down on that person that i was dumbfounded.
it's not that i really look down on that person.
just that, i have never had great thought about that person? lols.

well.. i dunno.. im random keep listening to Goodbye from Air Supply.
i know the reason well y.. and i juz keep humming to that song. especially the chorus.

"..you would never ask me why. my heart is so disguised. i just can't live a lie anymore. i would rather hurt myself. than to ever make you cry. there's nothing left to say. but goodbye.."

and to add on to the broken heart, this song really reflects my feelings. in a way or another...

I'm smiling without me knowing
My heart keeps on wanting you
Should I smile and hold you in my heart
Or hide you inside pretending not to know

I want to be a good person for you
so that you can lean on me
I know well that it might not be comfortable
But that is a job for my heart.

Thump. Thump. My thumping heart
I turn around to hide it

Love is helpless
The heart doesn't move the way you want it too
No matter how hard I try to suppress it
I am missing again
I think I'm going to love him

From time to time I become afraid
Because it feels like it isn't mine

Love is helpless
The heart doesn't move the way you want it too
No matter how hard I try to suppress it
I am missing again
I think I'm going to love him

I love.. I love you..
Maybe this tearful happiness is love
No matter how hard I try to stop, it doesn't happen.
I love you. I will only love you.

well, i will end this blog with..

"subconsciously following.. and I consciously avoid it...
I know well enough why I am like that.. but I still keep wondering over it...
I told myself to avoid you.. I told myself to ignore you..
but why are your words keep repeating in my head..
and why is your face keep appearing in my dreams..

I keep telling myself it's your fault.. and keep telling myself you are the cause of it...
but then again.. I have a part to blame.. and I'm helpless about it.."

what is this feeling?

9:39 PM Edit This 0 Comments »
recently, things hasnt been very good to mii..
being lied to and i still cant believe it..
MP groupings is out..
what is this feeling?
sad? shocked? angry? unhappy?
well.. it's all mixed up.. so wat does it make up?
goodness.. is this really the way out?

10 weeks of major proj.. 10 weeks...
although it's my idea.. i dunno how to do this man..
i dunno how to start.. i dunno to end this..

i dunno.. im really tired now..
after netball game, i just dun wanna think of anything..
tmr AYG... haiz.. the mood juz sink down..

PS pick up my call pls.. i need u the most now..

it's over..

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well.. i didnt update for quite some time.. hahas..
more than 2 weeks? lols.. i also dunno..
despite having a 2 weeks holiday, which i was supposed to enjoy it till i drop dead..
my 2 weeks for filled with so many things.. but no doubt, i still did get some rest..

right after the WEM paper on friday, i straight away went back to my village for my cousin or relatives wedding.. someone close la.. hahas..
many things happen there.. for example, i reach at 7pm-8pm like tat la..
and i didnt expect to do anything, once i'd reached.. so i wore really slack.. like how i normally do in Singapore.. but bad idea.. coz i was told to take part in some kind of religious reading la..
since it's religious, it's obvious i SHOULD be fully covered la.. but i tot, it doesnt matter much and just join in.. just to feel awkward being looked at by the olds and the youngs.. but hu cares, the mandatory thing is tt im contributing to the readings.. lols..

and i was super surprised.. i didnt expect syafiq parent to build the house right next to mine.. it was like... even much closer than neightbours.. on the second floor, i can see wat he doing and he can see wat im doing.. but hu cares la.. we met for like one day and tat's it.. and abt the house thing, im not gonna live there.. so it doesnt affect mii much.. hahas..

back in Singapore, my 2 weeks was full with AYG trainings and duties, competition proposal meet-ups and of course OUTING!~ i had outings with shuxian and gang, say haow and cheemeng, and many more la. hehe..

AYG for fun to a certain extent.. juz dun like the fact tt i kena 3 weeks duty +++ everyday.. even after requesting for change twice, they still reject mii.. now they deserve it.. thanks to my competition, i cant contribute much.. hahas..

speaking of competition, finally submitted it last sat.. and the result is this week if im not wrong.. hahas.. deep down in my heart, i felt guilty towards ronald.. coz he really need to do lots of work.. not just his part, but for my part as well.. coz it's like, im busy with AYG, and he really didnt complain much and help mii out all the way.. den as for my part, he always need to look thru and read thru again to correct my grammar errors and all.. im really grateful to him for being my partner.. and yes, i owe him lots of drinks and starbuck it is.. hahas.. so competition, it's over (maybe).. why maybe? coz im hoping to go at least top 6..

and this week is the first week of school.. and im supposed to go back sch tmr for SIP briefing, photo taking and maybe MP briefing.. not looking forward for school yet i need to put in all effort from now on.. haiz.. it's MAJOR PROJECT for GOODNESS SAKE and i SWEAR im regretting my PROPOSAL NOW.. and i wonder who will be in my GROUP!~ i dun wanna suffer like RISK again.. once is enough.. so.. yeap.. holiday is OVER!~

feel sorrie for 2Cube.. i promised an outing with them during the holidays but i didnt manage to organise nor attend any(if there is one)... hope to organise one soon during the weekend to make up for it.. hoping and i wun promise.. coz i dun wan to break tt promise..

and here i am in Singapore alone.. coz my family go LANGKAWI without mii.. it sux coz the holiday timing is different.. haiz.. but okie la.. FREEDOM!~ can go home, can dont go home.. but then.. wen im alone.. i sleep earlier than i usually do, i go out less and i go home early.. hahas.. but i wun be spending tonite home.. hehe.. (:

okie la. i've finally update my blog.. and i finally stop my certain habit..
and i finally declare.. it's over between us.. hahas.. i manage to overcome tt habit..
and yes.. NAPFA is coming.. i dunno whether i wanna pass it or fail it.. hahas..
and as some of u may noe, i injured my leg recently..
wah.. the scar, so big!!!~ can cry okie!~ haiz..


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i didnt update for quite some time.. hahas..
it's been the most tiring week (as the blog title had stated so!~ lols)
last weekend, been chionging assignment.. haiz..
monday, i had WEM presentation.. haiz..
okie la.. nothing much to comment.. hope mr chew is nice enuf.. to give higher marks.. lols...

den chionging RISK presentation till 1am in skool..

together with atiqah and wang ying..
all of these must thanks to freaking someone.. i shall not comment much abt tt person la..
coz with my current temper, i might juz throw things at anyone at anytime.. lols..
just some few things to say..
if u have at least some sense of responsibility, u wudnt do so..
if u can even do tt to ur gd frens & classmates, im really speechless..
u have just been someone whom i wanna work with the least!!!

tuesday, risk presentation.. although difficult, it was fun afterall..
it also marks my last presentation for the sem.. i guess.. lols..
with all those late nites.. lack of sleep..
i finally give myself a good sleep on wednesday..
and at tt night, i start chionging for RISK test..
haiz.. i juz blank during the test..
no confidence in passing.. haiz..

and finally again.. i finally rest!!!
gonna have another test next week.. WEM last test..
den im sort of free from all those studying..
"sort of" hahas.. coz i still got the competition..
which im determined to do well..
and also.. i might consider joining another competition..
which is outside school competition..
im still considering it.. so i dunno yet la..

so im gonna have a very good rest this weekend..
yes yes yes.. hahas..

Personal Notes
i didnt get the chance to do so..
congrats to those tt make it to main comm..
i was glad.. coz whoever i vote for, make it to top 5..
i hope u guys will do well in this AY & JIA YOU!!~

and i finally updated my blog songs.. hahas..
lots of new and old songs..
G.O.D songs uploaded.. and many others..

just some few other things to share.. which i like it alot.. lols
"I will love you today.. and I will not wait till tmr.. coz..
for the remaining days of my life, today is the youngest.. "


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omg omg omg!
i was totally happie wen i saw this video..
and i was sort of in tears of joy and too happie to be true..
this just makes my day.. and im gonna use this happie mood to chiong my assignment for tmr's submission.. hahas..

it was such a nice sight to see the G.O.D members singing along wif Kim Tae Woo...
this just makes mii really really really hope tt they would reunite very soon..
they are my turning point man..
they are the ones who makes mii love korean entertainments and songs..
they are my first fav. korean band and it was a long wait..
i've loved them from late 2004.. and i've waited for their reunion for years man..
although joon is not in korea.. he still participate in the MV from LA..
btw, Joon is Yumcha in Speed Racer.. hahas!

a small corner in my heart hopes tt Yoon Kye Sang would be there..
guess he really gave up singing.. TT^TT
seeing them really makes mii remember all those old songs.. hahas..
and how they had changed.. wow wow wow wow..
i noe this is exaggerating.. but they just ROX!~

yup!~ just to share the loves wif my sky blue frens forum peeps!~
Groove Over Dose loves!~

VOTED!!! (:

9:48 PM Edit This 0 Comments »
i didnt update for quite some time.. lols..
y? coz i wanna let ppl see WHO to vote.. lols..
tmr is the last day of voting.. it ALMOST slipped off my mind..
and yup! (: voted! lols..

the weird thing is.. as i was voting.. somehow..
my heart beat very fast.. lols.. yeah.. it's weird..
even my hand shakes... i cant explain y.. but it's juz happen..
well.. im wondering too..

nowadays.. i've been having lack of sleep!!!
3hrs of sleep everyday.. damn it lei..
always chiong-ing 3am onwards.. den morning go school.. T^T
im really putting in lots of effort for risk...
y am i so unlucky to suffer from loss of data from my lappie..?!!!!
now i juz have to continue to use my sis-in-law's lappie for the time being..
while im waiting for my next pay to buy new lappie.. or juz continue to depend on my desktop..

i got alot of things to buy nowadays. .
more formal clothes.. new phone.. new lappie.. new shoes... RAAWWWR!
patience hari.. u'll have tat chances soon.. very sooooon..

i've been feeling tt something is missing nowadays..
y? i just feel like i have to talk to someone.. but who?
as i was browsing the phone, wen i tink i shud tok to this person..
i tot to myself, maybe i shudnt..
and to those tat i can tok to, i tot, maybe i shudnt...
WHO CAN I TOK TO? haiz..
i just wanna tok to u..

anyway... congrats to my seniors (my course first batch lei!!!) for graduating!!! hahas..
and i hope syakira is getting better for her heartbreak.. and amirah... rest well! (:

now.. i just need to surpass this week and next week..
den im back to normal..
sorrie guys for MIA-ing.. well..
this is just so expected..
on the side note.. i just need to include this conversation..
y? juz read and u might just understand the reason.. lols..
Khairul Johann says (11:26 AM):
in sch?
~*Hariyani*~ says (11:28 AM):
at home
Khairul Johann says (11:28 AM):
facebooking right
~*Hariyani*~ says (11:28 AM):
im doing proj
Khairul Johann (11:29 AM):
dun need lar
u smart
write that in ur blog
i said u smart
~*Hariyani*~ says (11:31 AM):
u say bad things more than u say good things
Khairul Johann says (11:32 AM):
u good
(?????) harmful
i said good things
~*Hariyani*~ says (11:32 AM):
-_-''' nt sincere lols

PS try harder johann! lols!~


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okie.. thanks to SHAWN JONESY LOW.. hahas..
he's my HEAD GL in RELIEZ..
and he's running for MAIN COMM in TPSU this year..
so yup! he SERIOUSLY need ur VOTE! so vote for HIM okie? (:

the other two GLs from Reliez running for Main Comm in TPSU is Desmond Lee & Haziq..
so remember to vote for them as well..
PS there are other fellow GLs running for their own school studies club..
so check reliez blog for details alrite? (:

as for IITSC..
Desmond Yip is my fellow GL in Reliez..

and vote for this rookie dude aka RENO YEO WEE KIAT as well lar~
VOTE for HIM if YOU LOVE HIM.. lols
if not, he might juz THREATENED to kill HIMSELF...
or BE GAY FOR LIFE!~ lols..

as i've promised!! (:
loves.Hari \m/

very confused...

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i very the lazy to upload photos today...
i've been very lazy nowadays.. so pardon mii..
once i've restored all my energy back, i'll be very HIGH again..

yesterday.. hmm.. it's like a "nth-much" day to mii..
so i very quiet... very serious in ttl.. and juz dun smile or laugh like usual..
so while eating at Design school canteen yesterday... jasmine c. keep saying...
"y so emo?" "today i feel like i dunno u" "today u very different" =X
"u very random & happie go lucky.. y nowadays u change?"
even others say.. i smile less.. u____u
always HIGH & happie, why today so down... TT^TT

sth serious is happening to mii... very serious..
i feel sad all the time.. i feel confused all the time..
with other pressures like school work and all.. i feel like my life is seriously WRONG!
it initially started as a JOKE!~ y am i feeling the pressure??

to wtf guy.. i tot we choosen the path to be frens?
but y do i feel even our frenship is drifting apart?
i am trying very very hard.. and i can juz lose it at any moment..

i dunno already.. im seriously at my wits end..
i cant take anymore initiative.. and im tired.. extremely tired..
i'll just MIA from now on.. MIA for good..
afterall, few more mths and im gone for SIP..

i'll just seek solace in other things.. like stage management, music, netball etc...
u know how i was looking forward for tmr's netball practice?!
and now i juz realise i can't go tmr... WEM test.. TT^TT
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!! damn it..

i've planned my schedule.. to make mii extremely busy...
just like amirah say... being busy will make u forget things faster..
and yeah.. hopefully it works for mii.. although i doubt so..
but i will put in all the effort.. till i'm prepared and ready to say...

Personal Notes
wah.. election is coming up..
for TPSU, i noe who to vote already...
but for IITSC.. this is the very confusing part!!
i have sooooo many ppl tat i wanna vote... lols..
but i will only vote for 2.. and only 2... i need to be impartial and calm..
i cant believe tt i saw ppl hu cannot run still run for main comm..
good luck man.. i definitely didnt anticipate it as much as i did last year..
for those who dunno hu to vote for, can ask mii! (:

chiong chiong chiong!~

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this is my 2nd night chiong-ing project..
the night is the time only time i could do my project..
24 hrs = day + night..
day go skool, study and socialise..
night at home, study and do proj...
where's my sleep??? lols..

RISKS assignment topic one..
New Zealand added up together 400++ pages..
Hong Kong add up is 300++ pages..
Singapore - CAR (580) + Basel 2 (300++) + etc = 1000++ pages!!!
this is the amount that i'd read or gg to read in few days.. -_-'''
last night chiong draft 1... horrible..
now, chiong draft 2 to show in the afternoon.. i GG liao.. lols

past few day.... no msn..... no dramas......... no video..........
facebook still got abit... lols.. but really..... i didnt touch these for days!~
i felt empty somewhere.. hahas..

my busy-ness come at the right time? i dunno..
maybe, by being busy i will forget things faster?
but at the same time, i dun wan to lose the frenship between us..
maybe, i juz have to be normal.. and juz exclude those feelings..
like how i can spend 30 mins trying to sleep and tat 30mins is full of you.. lols..
knowing tat i ONLY have 3 hrs to sleep, it still take mii so long to sleep..
wen i was finally falling asleep, i was awaken by someone else's calls.. haiz..

let's just stay as frens.. and just keep myself busy...

PS: Congrats Say Haow for FINALLY passing ur DRIVING TEST..
no worries.. i wun SIT in the CAR if u r driving.. UNLESS someone there to accompany mii.. LOLS =X kidding larh!~ u owe mii & chee meng jap food!!! lalalala!~

FOOD!~ lols..

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my morning call of the day.. lols.. i wasnt feeling well yesterday nite la..
so i slept really early last nite.. hahas.. she's my cousin's daughter anyway... lols..
wen will i get my own NIECE / NEPHEW? lols... hopefully this year.. hahas!

let me start with the words that irritate mii yesterday morning..
hahas.. yesterday was supposed to be NO-SKOOL day for mii..
but thanks to the UP-YOUR-SERVICE workshop, i need to go back to skool.. next week as well lor!~ lols..
$20.50 for 4xUP notes, one notepad, one pen and we spent 3/4 of the time watching video..
so the irritating words are:-
UP, Basic, Expected, Desired, Another Step UP, Suprising, Unbelievable, Criminal.. lols..
ppl hu went for the course wld understand y... lols..

den wen to lab. iniitial plan was to study or do proj.. sian.. we did not achieve any of that.. lols
we go cam-whoring again! lols.. coz mii, jasmine chow and jasmine lim wore the same top! lols
sorrie Huanyi.. didnt mean to left u out! but we will go buy the same top together okie? lols..

den mii and Huanyi went to Orchard for some Korean Food! lols
here is my fav bibimpap.. unagi bibimpap! lols
den we decided to tok tok tok more..
the best place wld be wisma atria food republic.. coz i think the view at the side is nice.. hahas..
and so we did.. and we at again.. so now i noe y im not feeling so well last nite..
i think i ate too much.. lols.. hahas..
hmmm... actually..
i have lots of things to tok about.. but den...
nvm la.. juz hope for a better day now..
coz, wherever i tot of certain things or see someone,
i feel like crying..
and i think im really stress nowadays..
looking at the rate im eating now.. haiz..
hari.. u took great effort to lose weight..
r u gonna gain it all back???

PS: i went for stitching today.. at polyclinic..
coz i think at night, the wound open up.. haiz..
thanked god it's on my head.. coz i wudnt be able to see it..

07 May 2009

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the timing of the rain yesterady realli reflects my feelings..
maybe it's just some coincident la..
but yeah.. i tot i wld never cry... but im a gal afterall!!!

the 3 BFF are heartbroken..
[spot the 3 heartbroken PM]
amirah is heartbroken with the WTF guy..
(literally wat the F*** guy.. called by mii.. coz he's such a B%$$^$%^D)
and im heartbroken with the wtf guy also.. (it's wat the fish anyway...)
and syakira is heartbroken over her BROKEN phone.. =X
wat a luck huh? lols..

u noe how much i appreciate that today is a no skool for mii?
it's like.. i cldnt sleep yest..
and i dun have the mood to get up today..
i just feel like lying on my bed.. the whole day..
just stare and do nothing.. and i did that till 3pm..
had nose bleed today.. again...
im like bleeding like nobody business.. haiz..

finally, i told myself to get up.. shower.. and go out..
i plan to go ECP today.. to relax...
have a break.. throw my capsule bottle away...
and finally, decided to visit my ex-colleague..
i took bus 13 la.. den nearing the Marine Terrace there, my bus met with a small accident..
i was sitting at the back la.. den wen the bus brake hard, i couldnt react any faster..
so i think my head knock onto the door bell..
it hurts badly la.. i feel slightly headache.. slightly blur..

and im nt the only one hu got hurt.. others also..
some fall down and scratches their leg and many more..
the worst one was this small boy la.. i think he broke his arm or sth like tat..
he was crying badly la.. and just my weakness la.. i cant see kids or guy cry...
so i go help him la.. good thing i noe one clinic nearby..
wanna go polyclinic, but it's quite a distance..
so i brought the little boy and his grandma to the clinic..
den i just cancel my trip to ECP and took cab home..
coz i was having bad headache..

den met my sister in law at my blk lift..
i was wondering y she look at mii from head to toe la..
den she say i got some scratches on my hand..
den i say i noe.. den i told her tt got an accident juz now la..
den she say i was bleeding... for once i tot it's my nose-bleed la..
but it's not.. T^T
she was holding my head ar.. den i see BLOOD on her hand!~
yeah.. there's like a cut on my head la.. haiz..

good thing she's a nurse..
she help mii clean up the wound..
[30 mins after cleaning up.. still bleed abit]
cannot really see la.. coz it's at my hair area..
but bleeds alot.. and non-stop...
what a luck...

no mood.. den got hurt.. tmr got skool...
man... i dunno wat to say la..
i keep telling him tat im okie..
keep joking around so as to make him felt less guilty..
but then, at the same time, i was tearing badly...
i told myself that im hariyani and hariyani dun cry..
but i think i burst out lar~
wah.. this is embarassing.. dunno how to face each other now...
07 May 2009.. not a good day man..
and i just wish that today ends faster.. coz i dunno wat's gonna happen next..

and since i wasnt able to throw away the capsule bottle..
i might as well give it to the owner.. hmmm...
i'll turn it into a mission ba..
mission of finding the Capsule Letter.. lols =X

Swine Flu!~

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well.. i noe i didnt update for few days.. lols..
basically, the reason was either i'm pissed off or stress or somewhere tat line..

ever since the H1N1 Flu in Sg turn to Orange alert.. haiz.. we need to take temp everyday..
wat does tat reminds mii of? SARS.. yup!~
but the thermometer part... haiz.. ASK US TO BUY OURSELVES!!!!
lols.. and ppl really know how to take advantage of the demand..
they practically increase the price of the thermometer for profit!~ wt...

i heard other skool like get cheaper rates for thermometer.. den us?!~ %^$%$%$&^%
in the end, i manage to get a thermometer at $10.. haiz..
this pict show how abnormal i was wen i first use it.. lols

the FLU ALERT in skool also require us to take temperature time to time..
so we had this am & pm stickers.. interesting.. but troublesome..

the reason for this pict is to show u the stickers! the orange stickers is for am...
and the green one is for pm.. everyday change colour.. lols..
nowadays, mii and others like keep taking picts la..
fun fun fun!~ lols
and the following pict shows how i was working hard in the lab.. lols!~ =X
[like real!!! ><>

this pict was taken today.. lols.. we were doing RISK tut and WEM.. lols..
den suddenly we started to take pict..
jasmine keep stressing that it's our last year already..
haiz.. i also noe how time is running short on us.. T^T
if u r wondering wat im eating.. lols. it's juz some chocolate snack tat jasmine c bought for mii...
it's nice larh!~ but too much is a NO NO!~ lols

on a side note..
i've finally told myself to stop..
but wen i was doing so, sth just happen that tell mii to give myself another chance..
and thus, i go on..
and again, another thing juz had to happen on the same day..
and i just have to tell myself that i must stop..
and as i was avoiding tat person today..
tat person show up in front of me like nobody business..
y be cruel to mii? y be unfair to me?
it hurts.. it hurts.. it's painful..
what should i do? wat u wan mii to do?
be frank and let's be clear bout this..
i dun wan to be a mad person going from one end to another end continuously..
seriously.. what can i do?


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It's funny how someone can break your heart... And you can still love them with all the pieces..

Dear Heart, I met a Boy... Prepare to Shatter. XOXO

I wondered if I was making a mistake...

What happens when he's your prince charming but you're not his Cinderella??

I guess I'm a fool for thinking that you're thinking of me...

Moving on is simple... It's what you leave behind tha tmakes it so difficult...

I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles... And the one that could always brighten your day even if she couldn't brighten her own..

You can soften the blow, but you can't stop the sting...

To the world, you may be one person. But to me, you are the world...

Everytime we talk, my heart skips a beat...

Telling me to stop loving him is like telling me to stop breathing..

I know you're going to go places.. and do great things...I just wish you had taken me with you.

Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?

[PS: thanks syak.. u just make mii EMO by just watching the video... LOLS]

hahas.. i dun have much to update..
just that I had been feeling real sad & heartbroken recently..
and Syak show mii this video that makes mii EMO..
the vid link is on my PLURK!~ lols..
PLURKING is FUUUNNNNN! plurkplurkplurk`

im writing this capsule letter now..
and the one who deserve it will receive it soon.. lols
but somehow, i feel that it's abit weird.. LOLS

i hope to start changing starting from tmr..
i realli hope.. just like how i wanted to put a stop to everything..
i think it's more wise to start a new chapter of my life now..

Landscape & Nature Outing!~

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lols.. okie.. i had a tiring day.. but i think it's very the worth it!
somehow, i develop an interest in photography & nature!~ LOLS
it's like every little things i see, i also wanna take..
lols.. it's like my pri.sch BFF project larh!~ hahas..

i'll try to post very little today.. lols
we started from Raffle Place MRT..
down there not much larh~ but then sth interesting was gg on there.. lols
we saw a bunch of ppl filming larh~ hahas.. very the interesting..
so we tot it's was for the Vasantham channel.. no offense la.. but the majority at the BTS was indian.. so we ignore it la and continue taking picts..
den somehow, wen we were taking pict of certain leaves, someone approached us and asked us these [in malay]:-
she: u all taking picture isit?
me: yeah..
she: taking picture of what?
me: plants?
she: chey.. i tot u all taking pict of the stars..

so she told us abt the stars.. lols.. it's BOLLYWOOD stars larh!~ LOLS!
she told us there were Akshay Kumar and Sunil Shetty.. lols. i noe them but still.. not a fan..
she was telling us how much she wanted to take pict with them to the extend that she went to tok to the director and the security guys.. lols.. pls la.. we like sooo NOT interested can? LOLS
PS: sunil shetty looks better in real life larh!~ =X

den we proceed to Tanjong Pagar.. lols.. down there quite nice.. and HOT!~
walk ard alot already till we almost drained out.. lols..
HOW TO FIND 7 species in a single place? lols!~
u noe how lucky we were? we went to a Shopping Mall and saw this place.. wah.. damn nice.
but we had to climbed (sneakily) to take those nice picts..

next stop was Braddell, Toa Payoh Spring..
initially, we tot it was a wasted trip.. as we cudnt see anything nice there..
but we decided to walk further in to try our luck.. lols
yeah.. we saw a whole bunch of leaves and ferns.. many species.. lols..

the final destination was at Dhoby Ghaut.. ahas..
nt bad larh!~ but by the time we reached there, we were totally drained out, exhausted & look quite shag liao..

we decided to have a relax trip back home.. so we took bus..
hahas!~ i had fun cam-whoring CANDID picts in the bus larh!~
it was totally unglam but we had FUN laughing!~ lols..
reached SingPost, we had delifrance for dinner..
and had a wonderful chat again!~

it's like, mii & Hafizah had been best frens since pri. school.. lols..
although she was like abit tom-boyish back then & always disturb mii, we were still CLOSE till now.. we had our fair share reminiscing the past! again!~ lols..
like how we used to disturb ppl.. more like how she used to disturb mii larh!~
we recalled every single classmates of us.. and wonders where & wat they doing now.. LOLS...
let's have a reunion soon.. we are apart for 6yrs over already!~ hahas..

pictures are uploaded at FB.. i lazy to upload here.. lols
Part 1 : http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2020044&id=1462447626&l=bbd0a7a3d7
Part 2 : http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2020045&id=1462447626&l=a990d0c9da
PS: part 2 is like our selca picts la.. nature picts are part 1.. lols
for the candid picts, must wait for Hafizah to upload it.. LOLS!~

Personal Notes
i was having alot of fun today..
but despite all these, i do have sense of guilt for not studying or doing research today..
haiz.. how i wish i have more time.. lols!~
and somehow, i have weird feelings today..
it's like.. i feel that i can cry any moment..
the feelings were heartbroken, but there's nth to be heartbroken about..
i feel sad, but im enjoyin myself.. lols
had something happen? sth tat i had not realised it yet?
i hate this kind of confusion..
sometimes, i just hope i dun have any feelings..
so i wun feel sad, happie, in love, heartbroken..

another thing..
i dun seems to be learning my lesson..
it's like.. i noe i had experienced this kind of feelings before..
but then, even if i noe i shudnt repeat the same mistakes...
i dunno wat's the correct step that i shud take..
dear god, please enlightened mii..
i noe things happen for a reason..
and i hope u make mii strong enuf to go thru all these hardships..

Reminiscing the Past~

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i've been talking alot with amirah nowadays..
and she makes mii misses my past.. lols
like wat she said.. so many ppl had change.. and yet we r still the same..
is it we cant change or we refuse to change? lols...
well, watever it is.. this is who i am.. (:

im gonna upload some pictures from the past..
hahas.. according to timeline, i hope.. lols...
from white blouse & green skirt.. to yellow banana uniform.. lols..

this pict below... from top left - sec 2? yeap! lols.. *gg clockwise direction*
followed by Cik Nur's wedding, Graduation..
below is ChildAid concert and my colleague in NTUC..
some r in TP and the rest in SP.. lols

this collage pict.. lols.. it is supposed to stress on certain ppl..
for example, pheiyani.. hahas.. those hu know her, wudnt be able to recognise her in these picts..
she totally change.. hahas..
and say haow, u used to be so cute and chubby.. now young man liao hor!~
and of course mii.. hahas..
from my uber long hair, to short hair.. lols
PS: i spent 3 yrs in skool wearing LONG SLEEVES and TIES! lols
ChildAid photoshoot.. hahas.. [it's a annual concert btw]
im one of the fews hu got the original copy..
it was my first time going thru professional photo shooting..
could still remember how long it took, the super bright flashes & everything.. lols.
this was taken during the concert itself..
this was the time where i was still active in LYP band.. lols..
this is one of the few concerts where i realli enjoyed myself.. LOLS..
enjoyed disturbing ppl.. DUH!~ hahas!
tat's the past.. now back to reality.. lols..
as hinted from my last post.. i will upload the posters of SS501 now..
hahas.. amirah, i juz wanna make u JEALOUS!~ lols..
i wun upload other posters la.. to be nicer.. lols..
PS: i found my DBSK posters today!~ hahas..

i will end today post with picts of my cousin's son.. lols.
this kid arh!~ LOLS.. so small yet so naughty...
wen i was still in my dreamland, this kiddo purposely drop himself onto mii.. lols..
on my shoulder some more.. [my popular injured shoulder]
so yes.. this kid below became my wake up call this morning..
it's like.. i slept really late last nite larh!~
niwaes, isnt he very cute?!~ lols
i just love kids! =DDD
now i got no1 to disturb or bullie.. lols

Something Happen to my Heart~

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I quoting this from Franky..
"Cinta hanyalah sebuah kata sampai seseorang datang dan memberinya arti"
"Love is just a word until some1 came in and give its meaning"

it's true i think..
to some, love is just or simply a word..
but to some, love has its own meaning and definition..
some says beautiful, some says sweet and many more..
so my dear, wat's ur definition?

it's a wonderful feeling that I dun regret experiencing..
a simple (: and Hi can make my day..
a missing sms can spoil my day..
my life is depending on all this?
Hari! go get a life?!

is it time for a change?
but do i even have the courage to make that changes?
waiting for you is like waiting for a drop of rain in a drought..
tat's just the reason y i hate 'waiting'..

okie.. im like gonna start posting picts again! hahas..
this LT head over here, called CHRISTOPHER wong, started the SPAMMING game..
as evidence, this is the pict!
and some idiot start spamming.. this was yesterday.. by today, it exceeds 200 comments...
i apologised to those who were tagged.. i noe it sucks.. to delete emails.. hahas.. i had my share!

aniwaes, anyone watched soccer last nite? hahas! I DID! I DID! lols
luckily i fall asleep after 1st half.. lols.. here's the score!
so today.. instead of spending the day studying or doing assignment... i end up cleaning the house... again, im like not doing any justice to my right shoulder.. i carried heavy newspaper and blah blah.. haiz.. wen i wanna put my salonpas on my shoulder i realised that im left with only 1 pair!!! ARGH!hahas.. i found lots of candles juz now.. so decided to play ard with it.. haiz.. am i tat bored?! LOLS

i was also clearing my CDs and posters.. i didnt noe i had TAT many posters.. lols..
and i juz wanna show my SS501 CDs.. hahas.. my LOVE!~ lols..
at night, im supposed to go out and eat arh!~ but it got cancelled at the very last min..
so, all tat i could do is EMO at home.. LOLS!~ while emo-ing, my mum's colleague came.. wah! she D*** KPO can? wanna see the kitchen, wanna see my room and all.. URGH!~ but okie larh!~ she's quite nice and she also brought lots of FRUITS~ HAHAS..

got boread again.. i went to play with my ee-yor!~ hahas.. my precious!~ LOLS
i think IM CHILDISH nowadays! hahas! *looking ard* where's the MATURED mii? hee (:

okie.. im wearing my FO shirt.. lols.. i kept wearing RED today.. this morning i was wearing the i-support shirt.. LOLS... RED is LOVES!~ <3>

im ending this post with lots of korean words that i learn today..
i put the translation there also.. go check out! hahas! =DDD

I'm currently addicted to this song title Something Happen to my Heart..
I just got it's korean lyrics juz now.. and im like so gonna romanised it tonite.. hahas.
now, i can read korean words at a faster speed liao!~
but still, lots of words, i still dun understand.. hahas...

and i finally catch up with some of the dramas tat i used to watch..
it's like ever since FO, i totally stopped watching dramas and variety show..
and im like gonna control my addiction.. coz time is running fast on mii..