bad... sad....

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exam over and i had a prob... sadly... on monday, the last day of my paper, i tot of going to east coast to release stress and i went wif pheiyani and jokhie onli.. fery called and said she's bored and she happen to tell mii tat edwin, sheryl and say haow going east coast to cycle... so, i tot of joinin them and cycle together... they did come to us... but they cycle first and didnt wait for us.. and end up mii, pheiyani, jokhie and say haow... they cycle to mac to eat, guess they must be very hungry... sadly, we didnt get to meet them anymore... den we cycle really far.. suddenly, dunno y, we decided to call them... and we heard tat edwin got injured... and the say if we could help them buy water as we were told tat he got heat stroke.. den we buy for him and mistaken where there r i guess.. therefore, we from pit 58 travel to pit 1 in a rush... we end up hurting ourselves... and wen we reach pit 1, we gave them a call and ask them where they r and we were told tat they r at bedok jetty... we were mad coz we were near there at the very first place.. and became unhappy... den we return our bike and wait for them to return their bike back too.. den we end up seeing sheryl and kenny only.. guess edwin went back liao... after meeting them, we did nothing other than walk off seperate ways.. my mistake was i get mad at them... den on tuesday, mii, pheiyani and say haow meet up and tok bout the situation... den come today, school day... we met them a couple of times and they didnt say anything to us except kenny... kenny did tok to mii... bu the sad thing is, hte others didnt... and we reall y tot tat they also unhappy wif us... i hate fighting wif my own good frens... and these lead to tears... i dun want to cry after exam ... but i did also... i dunno y... my heart got hurt wen it comes to this... i cry since monday and really got hurt since monday.. but i hold back everything and end up crying badly today... i spent 2 hrs thinkin of wat i did wrong... i feel really remorseful... bu the thing is, does everythin tat happen is cause by mii??? am i the wrong 1??? if i am, i really sorrie.. i dunno... i juz want to be happie always although i noe i cant... if it is my fault, im really really very sorrie... but i still dunno, wat wrong did i do...

stress!!!!

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im so stressed up!!! with all the stuff around mii!!! guess i can never live in peace!!! y life is very very stressful wherever it comes to exam??? early in the morning, had a fight wif some1 at home... in skool, seeing his face, the way he ignnore mii, it juz too painful for mii... everyday and night i wished and wished tat i should forget everythin bout u... but it gets worst than wat i expect!!! it's either i live without thinking of u or be together wif u!!! but being together is impossible!!! and tat's the fact and i had accept the fact... y wherever i wanna think bout u, i dun wan it and wherever i dun wan it, it came to mii over and over again??? i really dun wanna think bout u... i hate thinking bout u coz i've fallen deep in love wif u... and if this go on, it'll hurts alot... and i have to prevent all this... i have to! i have accepted the fact tat i dun like u anymore, i dun want to like u anymore and i dun wan to think bout it anymore... bout y is ur image, ur name, ur face keep on playin in my mind... i hate u so much tat i love u... i shouldnt had fall in luv wif u... god, i believe and have faith in u... please help mii pull thru alll this hardship and make mii stronger and better person... if all this had to happen for the sake of better future, i will take this way and go on... i noe u meant well in everythin u do... please make mii strong to go thru all this... amin...

i'm sorrie...

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i dun wanna tell u straight at ur face... but im sorrie... wen u say shut up at mii, i juz cant accept it... i take it like u juz shouted at mii... and all i realise is tat im mad at u.. and i cry... im really sorrie for anything u feel bad on... im really sorrie...