LOVE & FEELINGS

long long update again..
hahas.. i tend to update one time rather than everyday..
actually, wat gaves mii the idea of updating is......
RELIEZ! hahas.. wanna know wat's reliez? i will tell u soon.. so relax k!

i basket toot toot.. i was supposed to update my birthday event on the previous post..
i guess i was too sad to even remember...
yup! will update it now.. yes.. it's way long time ago!~ but WHO CARES?!

my bday! 5 DEC! yesh! remember it okie!!!
it wasnt the best birthdae i ever had.. seriously.. but i think i got the best CELEBRATION...
Y?! coz...
ITPM test 2 was scheduled on that evening... how suay isnt? yes.. VERY..
so instead of CELEBRATING my BDAY, i end up spending my time MUGGING..
den.. haiz.. sad to say...
THE TEST GOT CANCELLED! again... Y?!
coz there were missing pages on the test paper (FINE!) and the teacher make the mistakes by allowing us to continue to study for ANOTHER 20 mins.. OBVIOUSLY some ppl had already seen some of the questions rite.. so yeah.. the questions spread..
IN ORDeR TO MAINTAIN INTEGRITY, POSTPONED THE TEST LOR.. haiz..
there goes my b'day.. HOWEVER...
my good frens + Joyce celebrated my b'day together at CENTURY SQUARE...
had some dinner, a surprise cake (LIL MISS SUNSHINE! yeah.. thx!) and yeah GIFT..

i noe not many ppl contribute on my BDAY present..
i can say a HANDFUL.. thx for those who contribute and those who wishes mii..
but those who don't.. i'll take it tat u dunno or u dun care..
since my bday long past, i shall share my HONEST FEELING & TOTS...
frankly, i'm SUPER DUPER DISAPPOINTED.. HATE mii if u want..
but dear classmates, tat's how i feel..
and it seriously hurts mii alot emotionally..
i spend my bday eve crying badly.. cry in front of my BF.. he consoled mii again and again.. but one tot of the class, C183, at least 3 drops of TEARS rolled down my cheeks in less than 10seconds.. tat's how HURT it was..
it's not tat i asked for return.. seriously... but..
wen my contribution is not being appreciated.. i feel that I'M NOT appreciated either..
i dun care if anyone understand mii anot la.. but seriously...
I DUN FEEL the sense of EXISTENCE... I LOVE u GUYS for all the fun and laughter..
but it cant be helped at times.. FINE.. im selfish... tat's just mii..
im not materialistic type of person.. but care & concern is wat i asked for..
IS IT TOO MUCH for mii to ask for THAT?
forget it.. let's end it here...

my FAMILY celebrate my b'day along..
my MOM bought lots of my fav food for dinner.. i had great b'day presents from my brothers, MOM, BF and frens - cheemeng, say haow.. TAT's my life.. and i'll live my llife APPRECIATING THEM..

after my bday, it was a hectic week for MUGGING.. FI and SA.. these subjects are not easy.. definitely.. i hope i get GREAT results..

after exams obviously HOLIDAY!~ tat doesnt seems like holiday..
first week i spend it on OTCW.. it's my 2nd OTCW.. frankly, ii wasnt as excited as last year.. but, the results was BETTER than wat i TOT.. here is WHY...

FIRST DAY OF OTCW!
EMPIRE NAME: Reliez (how to PRONOUNCE? it's REALLY)
FAs: Gideon (ZILRA GL in FOW), Farhan (KOMEZ FA in OTC/FO), Claudine (1st time with her)
MAN! i almost felt like im an alien there! i keep regretting COMING!
but thanked god! i had frens like DARRELL, LARRY and DARREN to begin the camp..
without them, i would have felt weird..
i dunno much ppl there.. im the only one from FBI there..
ppl from KOMEZ was Larry, Yvonne and Aizat..
ppl from ZILRA was Grace and Darrell..
ppl from IIT was Desmond.. ++ Lin, Desmond and Edwin whom i juz got to know..
and DARREN, he's really frenly to mii even the first second i saw him.. he rox!
IMAGINE how MUCH i keep thinking WHETHER i make the RIGHT CHOICE by COMING..
but claudine was rite.. being there.. IM REALLY LUCKY..
im the few lucky ones who got in & i SHUD APPRECIATE the SPOT...
it IS a PRESTIGIOUS spot..
i got to know quite a number of ppl on DAY 1.. had dinner at MAC.. and went home to pack..

SO WAT IF WE GOT 4th on the 1st day?
2 MORE DAYS!! 2 MORE DAYS!! 2 MORE DAYS!!!~

2ND day..
if i regretted coming on DAY 1, why did i come on DAY 2...?
COZ the feeling of APPRECIATIVE overwhelmed the tots of regrets..
the ppl there appreciate mii even though i keep quiet on the 1st day..
tat's wat GEL us together.. LET's STICK more so that we will NEVER SPLIT..
yesh.. got scolded on the 2nd day, AGAIN..
actually, it's more like an inspirational talk.. but IT'S WORTH IT!
I didnt get much sleep on tat day..
i slept at 5-6 am.. and woke up at 7.30 am..
but i think, IT's WORTH IT!

SO WAT IF WE GET 4th ON THE 2ND DAY?!
1 MORE DAY! 1 MORE DAY!! 1 MORE DAY!!!~

3RD DAY!
i(or shud i say the whole empire) woke up like 1 hr earlier than the rest..
Y?! = to warm the empire up.. YESH! we were FIRST to DIE at FINAL CLASH..
Y?! = coz WE DISTURB THEIR SLEEP! coz WE DAMN NOISY EARLY IN THE MORNING! coz WE INTIMIDAE THEM EARLY IN THE MORNING!
isnt it something to be proud of?! hahas! YESSSSSSAR!

I REALLY CHIONG WET GAMES... CHIONG HUNT-GRY..
yesh.. i didnt LEAD.. BUT i think I PLAY an IMPT ROLE in being a FOLLOWER..
JUMP INTO THE FOUNTAIN.. BEING OPEN all the TIME..
RUN & RUN & RUN.. pay ATTENTION to others.. listen to other .. follow others..
HAVE FUN!! tat's wat i learn in MY 2ND OTC..

result TIME..
they ANNOUNCED 3rd and 4th position first..
and I TOT my EMPIRE will take the last position..
DEEP DOWN I DUN THINK WE WOULD BE LAST..
but thinking back, during FOC, i tot komez would never got LAST..
but we got LAST.. the feeling was too impactful tat i cld still remember it till now..
I TRIED NOT TO BE CONFIDENT.. and CHOOSE to believe tat we MIGHT be LAST..
afterall, SCORES does NOT matter to mii.. it's wat i take home tat MATTERS alot..

AND GUESS WAT! WE R NOT LAST!!!
& u noe wat I LOVE MOST BOUT MY EMPIRE...
the moment we KNEW tat WE WERE TOP 2! we are already CELEBRATING..
Y?! = coz WE'VE GONE UP! SCORES is a BONUS!!!
mii, knowing tat we were top 2, i feel a sense of RELIEF.. coz my EFFORT is PAID OFF...

SO WHAT IF WE R 4th IN THE FIRST 2 DAYS?!
WE GOT FIRST IN THE END!!! YESH!!!! 1ST!!! FIRST!!!
RELIEZ is the BEST EMPIRE!!!

i guess hunt-gry helped us alot.. with lots of MAIN COMM tasks, SKOOL tasks..
WE MADE IT! huntgry realli can make HUGE DIFFERENCE in SCORES..
wat's the SECRET in HUNTGRY?!
= SQUEEZE! SQUAT! LISTEN! DO IT!

being first, HELPS us TO BOND US better..
I COULD SEE IT.. we were too happie that we dun who is it..
we are sharing the same joy, happiness and satisfaction.. U GUYS ROX!
LET's BOND better with MORE OUTING AND MORE MORE OUTINGS!
IM GREEDY and I WAN TO CREATE HISTORY..
being FIRST in OTC.. FIRST IN FOW.. and FIRST in FOC...
of course, it's not like DIE DIE must get first..
my FRESHIE is my PRIORITY..
they had FUN, tat;s all tat matter.. SCORES are juz BONUS!
i dun wan RELIEZ to die.. I WAN RELIEZ to be REMEMBERED..
y?! = BCOZ WE ARE RELIEZ!

went home, sleep..
the next day.. GOD KNOWS how painful my body is..
my whole body is ACHING..
from my feet (stand) to my knee (injured in games) to my thigh (too much running) and body ache!
GO SEE DOCTOR, 3 days MC.. but USELESS.. hahas.. coz HOLIDAY.. kekekkee..
NO VOICE ~ SORE VOICE..
however, i dun regret it...
coz.. IT'S ALL WORTH IT!!!

now time to chiong projects and enjoy life!
will update more wif pictures soon!